Droopy dying prematurely.
Omar Khayyam.

Man has never faced with prohibitive tests. If the test is there, it happens only because it is necessary for the person and he is able to cope with it; On the other hand, it should be remembered, and that a warrior chooses his battle.
Thus, if a person is suddenly faced with such a test, which requires him to immediate action, but at the moment he feels that he can not assess what exactly is his real battle, it is best to proceed for reasons of self-preservation - up until then until he could not understand why faced with this challenge. The analogy will help us to understand this principle.
Suppose you are not a doctor, but you suddenly have to take care of the seriously injured man. It is foolish to assume that the test is precisely this concern.
If you know nothing about any medicine or first aid in the rules, how can you be off in search of a knowledgeable person.
Once a person is found, try to understand the reason why it should be such a test would be in front of you.
The same principle is valid also for minor tyrants - in particular, the first and second categories.
In all such cases, the main battle is to save their own lives or work for the simple reason that the dead man had never become a warrior, and the unemployed lose and petty tyrant, and the benefits that brings its existence ...

Sixth game was the final game for the players play remote "Trust". We remind you that at the same time, in the Fifth Winter remote games, Leela Academy players play at different levels: a seeker, a hunter, a warrior, a missionary, a shapeless player.

Reading about how the players played draws life, you are invisible in touch with the methods of the game at all levels of Consciousness games.

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        A few days ago I noticed an indulgence, when the body noticed the discomfort, then try not to think about it (it confused with the practice when you do not believe the thoughts, and this habit somehow embedded itself imperceptibly). And she began to look at the worst, and the feeling to pass, immediately felt the difference with the right practice, there was joy that go into fear.


    I go back to work, at the bus stop for a long time standing. I am watching thought: where is the damn trolley, cold ... mind began his song. Stop, stop this flow, everything just there, I'll make that choice to stand and wait, could walk poyti.Poka stood remembers theme game, that is the awareness that it is the mirror itself. She felt it.
    In the evening, miss senselessness, after practicing in the body can feel the ease, not to mind from what was suffering, I am in the present moment.


    I see that all the characters are not real, do not identify with them most of the meeting. But trapped in the character, I believe in its existence and was drawing immediately. There was a feeling of rejection, I lived it gradually throughout the day, gradually adopted. I am checking yourself - look at character, to his adoption and a smile that could play me :) and I was led.


    During practice there thinking: I went to this pain again and need to walk again, to nothing lead. Senselessness. I notice it again and realize the task and go to the senses.


    I came home, do not want to track anything, I want to "sleep" is not aware of the body, discomfort. The idea, as you can ... I allowed myself to stay in the unconscious, ie, I did not engage in stalking, and then naturally began to realize, especially not forcing myself.


    Lotteries have become more sophisticated, feel a sense of meaninglessness, meaningless practice hands fall. The idea that life is wasted.
    Will there be a better place without practice? Absolutely not. Questions have been exhausted.


    Now I began to choke, unable to cope with practical jokes. Another theme is that you need to meet the level of superplayer, superopytnogo, but really I'm not a super player, and it is necessary to admit it to yourself and let go of the idea.


    In the evening practice, feeling rejected and lived alone, I spent a good quality work, gladly missed these feelings.


    To my husband I feel angry right now when he rejects me feeling uncomfortable in the neck, chest pressure unit, sots.strah. prev. existential. fear. Death spontaneous recapitulation he in another city, I call him, does not answer, panic tears, I fear treachery fear, fear of death, thought I could not bear her husband's infidelity, I do not want to miss the pain and feelings at the time, weakness, calling her husband, he does not answer . I remember that in his childhood, he told my mother that punishing children boycott did not communicate, did not buy anything and then the children understand that parents need to listen, miss breath, half-close my eyes I see the image of her husband, changing the image is reduced, discolor, and completely erase it, it becomes much easier, relaxed and as though everything was gone, I would say even nothing happened.


    Arriving home, the husband offers children play the game of poker. I've never played in it not because I do not accept gambling, but they did not call me because her husband on the way home was offended, and the day he offered to play for the evening, I said I would try. I stood in the kitchen watching how I do not want to go to reject feelings of shame and indecision, palpitations. I went to the players and ask with confidence: a new player can join in the game? husband replies yes, but since you do not umeesh- you sit and look stupid because the combination of (a son laughs, like my brother as a child), dullness prevailed, I would hide in a corner, I keep silent, but to me something told that play immediately realize on the go! Voiced aloud the thought eventually I twice lost and watched his reaction to lose not scary in the game (Spontaneous recap: since 2010 started to play chess with her husband he always won and I'm hysterical and each time less and less agreed to play chess not living weakness, stupidity damage caused sometimes tears), but now I missed the feeling of weakness without stress on the last two turns before I fully realized how to play, I won 5 times more than all the players, I felt a surge of strength, awareness. Vision of the game within the game, haha ​​fear dullness disappeared.

What is beauty and why it causes so much emotion in me. Once I was driving behind the wheel, and I was seized with a comprehensive feeling of love, I looked around, I saw all the imperfections, dirt, dust and all that loved and accepted as a whole. And around it was beautiful. At different points in the same human face or body that seems ugly, insanely beautiful. I see photos of people in old age, and they are also beautiful. It evokes emotions and feelings, and depends on the state in the present moment. Then all is beauty, just like you perceive at the moment. Quite simply, everything just is. mind wants to express themselves through this character that way, and the ego as a filter that will be, I will not, that is, it will it will not. This is the game. I clearly saw it now


    From work, where not everything is. From voltage which creates the need for new knowledge and skills, and resistance to the ego, because it is impossible at once. The need for children's games and frivolity. Who will win. The first need knowledge Satvic second frivolity and desire all simply mounts to get children radzhasticheskaya. The ego needs. I see how it reacts. I need to learn this, and I want it. Who wants? The bright part. Who resists, who are too lazy? Dark of the ego (Rajas and Tamas). Ego is not, as I remember. Everything just flows, and the new come into this life, too, just change that resists
    the dark side of the ego. I relax and let the whole be. Do not be afraid, everything gradually, everything will be as it will.


    For example, the new administrator she looks at me, open look, before I worried about it.
    - Anxious, I can not delayu.Segodnya I went with the support and knowledge I am from God.


    Immersed in a state of meaninglessness: the meaning of life death anyway, the point of doing so much effort, if in the end everything goes. Meaning if you stay one ... I repeat meaninglessness. ... Pointless and then I listen, and I say without thinking. ... I was quiet ... it's just I'm not thinking. And then I went to the fear of death ... Breathe accept the point O, shakes ... accept death ... And that job Ego body. And he is aware of ... fear. ...fear. ...fear. ..


    Condition feel the fear of loneliness, A. I was just waking says, we move to the Black Sea ... I'm about to go to better analyze zhit.U I broke off, aggravated meaninglessness. Loneliness is manifested through lassitude in the shoulders, abdominal weakness, mind blank. Watching condition ... yeah me and so terrible to live, and if you change the place where there is no family who would understand somehow supported this feeling golnoy death ... Here I feel so good here my supporters, my way ... And leave -What and where to move. Keep track of meaninglessness ... And this feeling lulls me, mindfulness is lost, there is a desire to be filled up to sleep ... Tamas ... .In general, understand that sleep, and there will be no practice. Begin to make the motor practice, both in Korea ... back ... forward. And I feel the work went. I repeat, out loud this senselessness. ... Pointless. ... Pointless.


    Came after evening classes back home, watch the time to start to practice, the call rings familiar invites, feel the excitement, feel the fear, the idea that you do not want, it is inconvenient to deny, feel the hustle and bustle, through movement, catch yourself, stop, play . I say that I have been invited to a New Year's practice, he come to ask, and I calmly answer, let it remain a mystery for you. I feel relaxed in the body, I feel playful, remember the mission that the light wave is entered into me. The loneliness of fear, is the dark side, and of knowledge, it is a bright side. I have consciousness.


    Everything happens as happening! On all will of Consciousness! Relaxed and accept it as it is! I see the game Consciousness! I accept myself sleepy, imperfect, it also happens, it's just a cleansing experience! I have it all -I have consciousness!


    Son, this is the main point of release. Yes, and to come up with this dream, we need personal power! I remember the mission where the character at the end of life, was in a dream state, being in the power of sleep, on the dark side. I turn on the light side, wake up! The game has all of Consciousness!


    I woke up in the morning and noticed again how all concepts and beliefs are molded around, I wanted to fill his life with colors and was for some time in a state where I did not plan anything. I'm learning to trust life. At the expense of jobs thanks I spent most of the day is not on your computer or on the phone and in the world. It is connected with the fact that now the real world and felt the inner causeless gratitude and joy for me. And in this state that is still as if there in a minute, there is one hour, there is no tomorrow, but here and now. Satisfaction and simple pleasure or happiness from life.

I woke up in the morning and noticed again how all concepts and beliefs are molded around, I wanted to fill his life with colors and was for some time in a state where I did not plan anything. I'm learning to trust life. At the expense of jobs thanks I spent most of the day is not on your computer or on the phone and in the world. It is connected with the fact that now the real world and felt the inner causeless gratitude and joy for me. And in this state that is still as if there in a minute, there is one hour, there is no tomorrow, but here and now. Satisfaction and simple pleasure or happiness from life.


    He looked fear in the eye and he immediately disappeared, he lives until I blindly believe in fear, but as soon as they look at the fears disappear and remains empty. The moment is now showing me the reasons why there are these mental stories, and it blocks, which I have not yet noticed. I feel the energy of this block passes and disappears. That is what I now want to make the most effort in the social environment is to return attention to the time now and people do not associate in any way. A view of the time is now. Above, I wrote that he saw fear and dissolved, for me it is as if it is obvious that at first I conducted an internal conversation and admitted himself in weakness and fear. Now, my attention turned to the body and can say that I have now passed this rally. Just I figured out how to trust the time is now.


    Thank you, thank you, thank you. The heart opens wider and wider. Simple as that! You just radiate light! Those who enter into the Light - change themselves, who are not ready to take - out, and someone is ... and resists (deceiving yourself - like here, but actually is not), it is interesting as watching, including for a !! I play !!
    Yesterday read through another article from the Internet, surprised !! Frankly, I see this for the first time! Several paragraphs of the article were written by 2 times, that is, and so repeated 3 times, a miracle! How thoughtful consciousness !!! I usually do two things at once - listen and read, read and write and so on, is not that I am in the Now moment. So I read a lot by 2 times to catch on. Careful Consciousness simplified the problem !!! It is one article I repeated 2 times, and probably the most important moments for me. I play !!!

I am happy every day, but who is happy ??? Everything is as it is! Today, the whole day behind the wheel - long journeys. The road turned tense - a blizzard. However, as much help I received at the same time !! Even my fellow travelers were surprised - in front of reaching prompted when you can overtake. Nice fullness! Even at the gas station I turned up the case to help - the guy broke his gun - the calculations were not - I gave my card. So it should be! Helping each other is life! Thank you give such situations, where it is possible to show, but who gives ??? All very very very, ha ha, an illusion!


    Already I wrote that by becoming an apprentice I get the Master in every moment of life! This is clearly seen !! Previously, I tried every step, action to bring to the ideal! Ha-ha! Ideals do not! Self-deception! Now I walk across the beaten track, like, but no, not, as before. Float feelings, negative sensations in the body! You wake up and realize that this is a game !! Playing for the extraction of minerals !!! You start digging! Dwarf standing on the sidelines and watching with smirk - get ?? Enough patience ?? Or throw ?? She lived so! Buried digs ... .uzhe all packed in peat and starts to smoke, that is, stink, to be honest. Excavations are continuing.


    I went to the post office to send a parcel post is closed. What to do? Come tomorrow, tomorrow will be no time. OK! I went to another post office. She came, and then dinner. Just I wanted to go home and be upset (this is the default behavior). Stop!!! Looked around and saw a small public garden, today the sun was shining and it was very warm + 1 + 2gradusa. I went to this little square, and had a wonderful time. I sent parcel and went home.


    I woke up with a feeling of anxiety. In the dream, I dreamed that I was covered in blood. There was outrage. What happened? Sitting in meditation began to track its status.
    Tel.oschusch. The compression in the shoulders, chest presses, heart pain.
    Thought: Who will die again.
    Emotion: Fear
    Feeling: impotence, weakness
    Soc. Fear: injustice
    Ekz.strah Fear of loneliness and death.
    Razotozhdestvlyayas, began to ask the question: Who is afraid? Who am I? - I am consciousness, I have- Genesis. There is no death. No one has - there is only I ... I watch and see how consciousness is amused by sending the character scares, intimidates itself ...


    Cover with a tendency of avoiding pain. I would like to burrow and did not realize. Gloom, all tired. But Service is calling. I pull his hair and go do "The flow in an infinite void." I remember that the whole surrounding reality disappears on his deathbed (I know this from experience) and nothing will not save you. "Flow" - the best method of spleen. Somehow stupid as to stand the time, such efforts and remain unconscious. At some point, the body is dissolved, about emptiness and joy.


    At the post office a lot of people standing for a bit, I think to leave, still not gonna break to the checkout. Then she thought, how can proceed outside the box: Ok! Well I know the name of the girls operators. I shout: "Natasha, mono buy a plastic bag without putting" I hear the answer: You can. Sneaks to give 23rub., Grannies began to grumble, I do not pay attention. I picked up the bag and leaving. Haha, I play and wag its tail :))


    I notice for themselves, that it has become to observe the characters without judging them, without criticizing, and taking them as what has created consciousness. Yes, they have the character traits, each character is unique and beautiful.

I see a little girl in the Old Believers' monastery. Mom -vzroslaya nun, dressed in black, trying to knock me out of obstinacy rods. I like a hunted animal hiding in the corner. At one point, a girl surrendered, resigned and went on the path to God. I feel peace, grace, love mom. Many years later the whole convent should burn with the nuns. I accept this event, I accept their fate. Today, the first time I live is not howling and crying from the fear of upcoming and consciously taking and lowly. As the body passes heat energy breaks in blocks.


    They came to visit friend. They complain to life and health. I remained silent and listen, or to express their views. I chose the latter. Of course no one understood me. She felt rejection. She began her live, realizing that my experience no one wants. Who wants to impose their views? Everyone has their own experience and their way. She returned to her world of awareness and acceptance of the situation. It has become all the same: to speak or to remain silent. Good drank tea.


    I -plohaya mother could not save the child. Severe pain, condemnation itself: I am not worthy of life after such an offense. I-Consciousness observes the character. Personazh- piece of flesh, and the illusory mind, as it can affect the processes of life and death. If consciousness is satisfied with this draw, he can prevent it? Comes acceptance, consent, I live. If the person could not prevent the death of a child then, how it can affect the force "that governs the fate of" my daughter today? The body just mangles. Stomach cramping, live.


    A conflict with a colleague. I -Soznanie watching the mind at any price wants to gain a foothold in a particular small the desk. It is ridiculous. It is ridiculous to spend time on it. I agree lesson with love and gratitude.


    I am going on the bus. I am writing a report. At the next stop a person comes to dwarf him immediately identified in the homeless. Despite the focus of attention on the writings, I note that this character reminds me of the Grimm-man (the eponymous story we read in school ... 2 days ago) I view it: a hooded cloak almost to his knees, his face in the dark - the feeling that person is not only a void, dark hands tightly holding a light blue suitcase. The idea: death to go somewhere. Meanwhile, the death of a character stops right in front of me. Wow, the smell of it is almost there ... And then the dwarf as a yell: "Get out Peresyad away He smelled disgusting to be there!!!". The body jerked as much from its cry. I catch. Bah! Fear of death! I sit on the ground. A bus driver (I have left to travel two stops) and did not think to get under way, because this time he perepiraetsya with another stranded passenger, forcing the latter to go out and drink your coffee on the street. And my Dwarf screams! And trying to search out the opportunity to transfer to another bus. But he can not look out: the window blocked the death.
    (One old lady was well done - out of the scandal of the bus, thus inviting to follow her).
    I clearly tracked "separateness": the one who tried to retreat, and one that is clearly amused and watched. The one that was playing, said: ok, I'm sitting here. Hurry up and nowhere to run. For death has come ... body relaxed. She continued to write the report. Two minutes later, the bus started. After three more - I've got to stop her. And death has gone further ... Ha ha.

Then came the knowledge: I have to go through the state of buzz (from which I escaped) - disclosure of sexual power and the rise of energy; through an increase in psychic abilities (which I ignore, and stub), which have to do nat. telom.A then there was a choice: I can now leave the path and sweet to sleep - and then I'm just going to live alone. Or be in a constant battle on the way to the greatest fear: his destruction of the world, without any warranties or prizes in the form of enlightenment or receive love. By choosing the latter, I must now constantly fight for it (the choice), in every moment of life. It is impossible to choose once and for all - if your choice - BATTLE, not peace.


    It is necessary to dwell on the revaluation of forces. Listen to your body, what I feel, from what motives can not refuse? And do not sacrifice themselves.
    I have another question: whether to keep it working with kids? I work with the help of the unconscious. Yes, leave. The mind tries to resist: and if you steal. Aching neck of the resistance. I realize that this stereotype: once stolen, steal or two. But ... Man needs help, if tripped. I accept the decision to talk to him. Especially because I noticed that the guy has a psychological trauma. As a child, his mother left his father and grandmother raised. Mom came back. When he grew up. And he does not forgive. I feel love for his mother.


    Calls son and says that the granddaughter was ill, surprised his calm reaction to the fact of the disease, I care about, why not call the daughter, and why should she call me? This is my pride (to reject, fear to be free from cares), go to this fear, I call myself, I talk and understand what I am saying is not so, as always, today there is no claim, just interested in health granddaughter, reassured, "children are always sick" and on the other side to me as calmly answer, what steps are taken. In his circle of influence, I can go on about the fear and to remain silent, or to try to change themselves, their attitude, to find the words and build trust.


    The body of a pleasant fatigue, satisfaction passing day, good, easy, easy. Today was a busy day in which everything went "like clockwork." The main thing I was thinking again about his case, it inspires me.


    Pressing pain in the head as if wearing a helmet. "I'm no use to anybody." Powerlessness, because even medicine eases the pain for a long time, rejection, meaninglessness. I recall my mother's words, "My husband loves his wife healthy." Adding abandonment. The soul does not want to accept powerlessness, suffering body. I'm not the pain, (prophylaxis did not hold that it was under my control, reap the benefits realization helps not to stand in the position of the victim), I have the time right now. I would be helpless, I ask my husband to cook wild rose decoction, he gladly accepts.


    Heaviness in the head, nasal congestion. "There were so many plans for the weekend." Impotence, betrayal, meaninglessness. Who betrayed - the body, you dare to hurt. The soul does not want to accept the loss of the plans, arguing with God, he merged into the body, defense. Trust God, trust yourself, accept yourself with the features of high-energy reservoir raised by me in this DI the ego does not want to resign ourselves to the fact that it is not important, he was afraid to lose their foundations have, let's be friends. Today, the best game day.

Involvement was, well let it be and. The mirror itself, the wise part observes and allows to be any manifestation of it realizing how their own and create, amusement and play, filled with the power of decision and the vision of drawing illusion. Self-awareness opens as on their own experience to get a huge gift (Strength), knowledge of how things work. It is the grace of God.


    Strict boss woke look easy fear, I see as a mirror reflects a manifestation of the character of guilt, the punishment (abdominal pain). Ha-ha! The mirror shows how classmates felt like - a lonely rejected all a fantasy of the mind. Where classmates, where am I? Fear is transformed into the energy of acceptance and playfulness.


    Offer a dip in the hole was just ok, but then went resistance, examined it, the ego wants it, showing their courage, omnipotence is seen as a mirror reflecting the feeling of self-importance. After cleaning the mirror, I saw true desire - a modest exercise, and tranquility of this trend poissledovat pathogen, highlighting it in the mirror and immediately dissolve. It was easy and fun. And to whom is all this theater? Yes, because there is none! Self-awareness gives you the ease and simplicity of life.


    Through lived experience, the memory of his perfect nature, no changes are required, because the experience was essentially honeycombed awareness vibration. And it helps razotozhdestvitsya and see your game - Consciousness.


    Self-awareness in the continuous mode does not sleep (and self-realization is only their own experience of loneliness illusion of meaninglessness, death, and attached is not to whom), the victim does not have time to raise his head - it's not just the images are changing - vibration in the mirror of illusion, and mirror with a smile watching vaudeville events, and there is no desire to change anything, because everything is perfect and goes flying and ease to new energy sheen, the game continues Haha !!!

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