Diary of 6 Winter Remote Games. Issue 5. Season 2017 / 18

Friday 05 January, 2018

Prayer…

Greetings of the reality in which

all elements and all living and nonliving

beings appear as if by themselves

themselves, in which they are for a while

exist and which then come back ...

THE NATURE OF STUDENTS.

The disciples whom the Infinite sends to the WAY are different in nature.

* Higher names are "inhabitants of Heaven", "children of gods".

* Medium - the "heroes."

* The lowest - "connected with dreams".

  • "Bound by dreams" are timid, inconsiderate, restless, but have some will, their faith is mixed with doubts. They follow the Path of man for a long time, detachment is acquired with great difficulty, after great trials. Dissolve in the Infinite at the end of life or leave this world.
  • Heroes are intelligent, independent, independent, enterprising, fearless, have deep trust in the Path and Master. The tests are courageous. They follow the Path exactly, the signs of the Spirit receive in time. Dissolve in the Infinite at the end or middle of life, then happily dance in the field of the game of the Infinite.
  • The inhabitants of Heaven are the best. Rejected, immersed in the Infinite, noble, compassionate, serene, wise graceful, capable in everything, they are playful, pass the test, easily learn. Dissolve in the Infinite in the beginning or middle of life, then play games and soar in the expanse of the Clear Fields of the Infinite, staying on Earth.

The way you play The remote game will give you the opportunity to have an adequate self-esteem about your student's nature.

Well, we note that most of the Players famously passed the mark of 3 game. It should be noted that this year a fairly well-prepared and mature company was selected for the games. All players have an inner motivation and understanding of how to play. But nevertheless, even among a strong group, gradation always takes place: at the distance players are distributed one after another, the strongest deflect the weakest.

After the second game, for a while, Joke left the Distance Game. Remote game is also a verification tool, checking all players for compliance with the level of the game. Joke last year played at the level of missionary-2, which involves, among other criteria, established regular practice. The game of the first two games showed that Joke had already legalized the indulgence for him to skip the practice and thus demonstrate not understanding the principle of uninterrupted accumulation of personal power. From missionary level 2, Joke descends to level 1 hunter level and is sent to the skip retreat in order to increase his level of personal strength, to continue a rather difficult game, Psychogenetics.

After the 3rd game, the player of the Universe was also sent to the skype-retreat, due to the lack of personal power to play the Remote Game "Its business".

It is important to understand that after training on D.Igrah a hunter and a warrior, games begin that require the player to act directly, according to the theme of the game. Each game is a preparation for the next game, in which the player is required not only to sit and meditate, but also consciously act. Failure to complete one task, entails a hang in the next game, etc.

But in general, the whole group of players is going at a good pace, with a playful mood and overcame the most difficult part of the way of winter remote games (because of its lulling power) - this is a holiday - a new year.

Well, now, we turn to the descriptions of the game of the drawings of Life in the third game:

  • I talk with my granddaughter, she again scattered her things. I tell her in a disgruntled voice: why do not you understand what they're telling you. What do you want? She suddenly says: I want you to love me. It shocked me, I heard the voice of Consciousness. And I realized that Consciousness wants me to give love to my granddaughter, taking her capricious, doing nothing and not helping around the house. Inside, inner calm and tenderness for M. appeared. I heard.
  •  My daughter worked at home at night and did not get enough sleep and so she was very irritable from the morning. And we had to take the children to massage, and we were late. It was unfair when she told me: why she needed me, she would manage without me. She did not expect that I would say: let it be so, go yourself. The daughter said: you must. I decided not to follow the pattern, but to teach my girl. Yes, there was a second version of the game, but the resentment did not allow me to play the second variant, knocking down the prana of another person, took me out of balance, I was not aware. And maybe it was necessary to live this experience to understand this and to give the energy of love, rather than wait. Subsequently, the daughter apologized, explaining everything with fatigue. And I realized when you are in harmony, no one and nothing can provoke you, but you have to be watchful.
  • I kept wondering why there were such events in my life. Sleepless nights with children, during the day a lot of homework, hard for the physical body. And everything is simple - the stiffness of my mental beliefs is removed and softness and acceptance of life situations appear. On this day, watching my reactions, I saw that I did not have to strain myself to be better, it happened somehow by itself, there was a vision of the situation and spontaneous reactions, as if at the same time, not depending on me.
  • I tell M: take out a bucket of garbage. She says then. Earlier it would have greatly upset me. Now does not hurt. She began to love her tenderly and lovingly. How she needs love from without. But on the sly I force to help on an economy. I say aloud: I'm used to it, so I'll take it myself. There is no indignation or irritation in my voice. M. does not pay attention to my words. Then I say: maybe my mother will bear it, but I have to work in the kitchen. Well, if my mother can not, then I'll go. Then my daughter with a loud voice: they told you, she endured everything. I smiled to myself. Good game.
  • The former is worried that he does not have an ID, he begins to explain to me how to get it. I tell him: I already have. It flares up, immediately blames me for living on another planet, not telling him, etc. I see how my program turned on automatically. Wines. Justify and explain. And any of my words only strengthens the accusation. STOP me. I say that he is in vain worried and go to college. Before this, he saw the pain in his eyes. I allow myself to be and such, what a look at me he needs more. No guilt. There is pain, and behind it the fear of losing love. It's an illusion. What seems to be. There is no love here. Fear is only the completion of the mind. The pain remains. Lomit muscle of the left scapula. In taking pain, you fall off somewhere into a deep light blue sadness. Although ... sadness is probably also an interpretation of the mind.
  • My mother calls and reads to me, my sister's automatic letter from Beloved. It causes great pain. It is said that he fulfilled the task with respect to me and did not connect me with the future. From the point of view of life - this is not so. From the point of view of death - who knows. Pain from the fact that it seems to be confirmed: he forgot me on all counts and forever. Huge pain again. Tears. What are you crying about? Who said that? A mind again? And who can say this for sure? Who or what do I lose? Nothing. The left shoulder falls off the pain. Ilahinur. Transformation. Heat.
  • In practice, a sudden thought comes: the process of my dying is already going on. Nausea and dizziness immediately. Like yesterday. Fear of making a mistake: suddenly a wrong road. To be bad. Rejection. And who said that I'm dying physically? Mind? It is the fear of awakening. That's why I resist. I realize that I will not be able to sleep like before. But it's scary to wake up. It's also death. And this process is already taking place. It's just that the dwarf does not know exactly how this will end. Intrigue of Consciousness.
  • I remember the event: the birth of this physical body and the feeling of unwillingness to be born. She was born with a birth trauma, a big hematoma on her head. Fear of life. Fear of residing suffering and pain again. And now, perhaps, I'm just starting to learn how to live. To recognize and accept this main fear is the fear of living. I feel how slowly the wings of my soul are straightened.
  • In college today, passing the test, part of which - is to pass a gaming interview for the device to work. I do not want. I mumble all my time "bu ..." and suddenly I understand, this is resistance. I notice the tension, even the contraction of the lips and muscles of the mouth, the tension of the shoulders and the look from under the lob. M: I do not speak English well. internally stop. I feel yesterday's dizziness begins. Fear. Why do not I want to talk? SS: rejection - ES: loneliness. Emptiness. A familiar template. Once in the void, acceptance. I know where love lives. Dizziness stops. I relax the muscles of my mouth. I'm watching. Then I take the initiative of the next one. During the conversation I answer quietly. With a little excitement of heat in the ears. I let you hesitate a little and be embarrassed. I'm not afraid that I take the time to think. I have nothing to lose here.
  • Evaluation of the teacher: good. Just improve your language.
  • Confirmation of the projection did not wait, a crowded bus arrives in the front area, with an unfilled center. I can not enter, and accordingly be late for work, anger - the desire to fight, stepping on the first step loudly I say, (action according to the code of the warrior), go to the middle, people just moved, I squeezed. And when my time came to pass in the middle, I catch that I myself got up in a convenient place and do not want to move, after the middle it's cold, realizing that this is a projection and positive rationalization for heat, moving on (action). In what game, the manifestation of anger (loudly said), understanding where I project and action according to the code of the warrior.
  • I admit that laziness, in me, if it is not a mask of "understanding and forgiving," I would not have finished the work and did not seek to help. And to think before doing something, this is a mission, because of laziness to think, all the losses of the past incarnation occurred. Why do not I allow myself to be constructively lazy, for me it's to rest? Out of fear - the desire to retreat, abandonment - the desire to retain, the lack of result, meaninglessness. Squeezing in the chest, go to the mission, live there my reluctance to think and accept from the level of the immortal soul the experience of the past incarnation and remember the task, do not become attached to the result.
  • The daughter-in-law sends SMS, her granddaughter needs shoes for the new year, can help. Pain in the bridge of the nose, anger - the desire to fight, the idea of ​​"stupid, who so requests money", humiliation. The projection of my stupidity, I admit that I am stupid and do not always include cunning when I ask. So to be stupid, this is to be rejected, and to ask is to be humiliated. And maybe I'm sorry for the money? The rationalization "I must be persuaded of necessity", protection from rejection and senselessness is included. The answer to the SMS I did not give, for fear of rejection. In what my game, I tracked down my defenses, rationalization, saw my projection and what fears lie behind it, in rejection, how to respond to action, did not go, lost, little power.
  • Squeezing in the chest, fear-desire to retreat, the thought "she does not respect me". Yesterday's sms sister-in-law. Abandonment, senselessness. It's not a lack of respect that is scary, but the fact that N. can stop giving her granddaughter, this fear causes the greatest pain. Snap to the child, so it hurts that the mission does not carry out, being attached to the child, hence the suffering. What can I do, give unconditional love to my granddaughter, accept yourself, love yourself, eat from your source of love.
  • Have invited to the nephew for birthday. On the threshold meets a playful kitten. Sign. So the gift did not have time to buy, I give it with money, I feel uncomfortable that money is not a gift for a child. I understand that Consciousness shows me that I have become identified. I'm playing. I tell my nephew that I give you money and you can buy yourself what you want. He was delighted, said that he just missed the phone. I realized that attention is important. The main thing to play and not be afraid to manifest.
  • After the evening session, I go to the duty officer to give the keys. She's telling me in mourning, that's all. I say that everything? S. died, a colleague coach and a good friend. I feel the tension in my body and instant fear, I stand watching the breath and feel how the body reacted calmly, and the body is a manifestation of Consciousness. She is lamenting something, I stand and keep silent watching the breath, not getting involved in the rally. I understand that these are just meaningless words, and she tries to express her empty experiences. Having breathed and knowing that death is illusory, accepted with humility and went to dress home.
  • Consciousness again tests the readiness of my character to play, but playing with my father, accepting my own weakness provokes resistance-to show the strength of the doer through an attempt to change this world of illusions, where the forgetfulness of the father mirrors the short memory of Consciousness identified with the character (which has forgotten its true nature) involved in The situation where the energy of anger, blocked in the body, exploded, leaving a trace of the condemnation of the unworthiness of the character's behavior. Haha! Defense under the banner of rejection was still seen, followed by an eclipse, which was cleared up later. Who condemns? Who condemns? The energy of anger is passed through the character, leaving no worry.
  • How often this desire (now I realize this personality, which was an unconscious belief) to look according to her demand, without feeling the real outbursts of my true identification with myself, happened to adjust to circumstances for the sake of this restless, tied to my husband, to men, to them love, to the approval of friends through the prism of some humiliation, shame, loneliness ... Here comes the final stage of this incarnation, where you continue to open up confidence in life, and therefore to yourself, when from the acceptance of feeling weakly ti opened a boundless field of love, expressing all that is natural - the emotions, the feelings, without internal stress, anxiety of mind.
  • My dear descendants! What matters in this incarnation? Nothing. How right or wrong? I do not know. There is gratitude to the lived experience in this incarnation, where the rehearsal of the life of a dwarf that emerged from the ocean of Consciousness ended and it dissolved into the same emptiness, and existence continues from the present moment of Being ... Where there is no concept of death! And who should die? Wow! ...
  • A husband comes from the street. Continues to scream - at least curtains shut! Well, what are you standing for? Close it! I calmly, silently, with love closed the curtains in the kitchen, then in the hall. I did not care at all how and what will happen. I'm leaving this embodiment. I need this experience. Will the notebook be thrown out in the snow, will they know how much money I spent on the disk and on repairs, that I'm going to scream and swear - do what you want! Who cares? Criticize, condemn! Does anyone suffer? There is no one who cares. I realize who I am? I am the moment now.
  • In the body - baking, pressing in the neck on the left. An event in the past is a quarrel, a swearing, a conflict with my mother. Fear of losing health. Trend - people should be kind. Non-acceptance of aggression. I can not hear abuse. Fear of rejection, fear of death. In the neck, compression is two points, oval in shape. Transformation by breathing. Who is afraid of death? Body. The mind says - so it is impossible, it should not be. Who am I? I'm not a mind, I'm not a body, not an emotion. Yes, there is aggression in the world, wars. I'm the one it does not affect. Aggression - so aggression, quarrel - so quarrel. The mind, the body, is afraid of death. The body can be forever? No. The body will leave. And he who I am is eternal. I accept everything as it is. I allow everyone to express their opinions, listen to the opinions of others, not to defend themselves, not to go into illness. Everything can be. The one who I am remains. Adoption. Once identified. Letting go.
  • Today at 8 am a computer technician came. At first I had a thought that I should ask him to come at 9 o'clock in the morning, when my husband goes for a walk for two hours. Stop! What am I afraid of? Who am I afraid of? From what sense do I want to defend myself? Fear of condemnation, conflict, quarrel. No! I calmly tell my husband that the master will arrive at 8 am to clean the laptop. My husband just waved his hand and ran for a walk. The master worked, downloaded programs, went periodically home - he lives next door - he came again. Almost half a day messing around with a laptop. I did not follow the reaction of her husband. Let him behave as he wishes. The master finished the work - I'm very pleased - now the laptop was unloaded with superfluous programs - it's nice to work. I can be criticized, may be dissatisfied. I accept, I let everything be. I'm the one it does not affect.
  • I went to my daughter's home in her absence - I brought my granddaughter after school. Daughter with son-in-law left for the city. I see on the table a bunch of dishes, in the sink too, the bed neither parents nor children are tucked up - early in the morning they left everything and left it. Sign. I also have a mess in things, a lot of excess, I do not get rid of what I do not need on time. I realize - consciousness shows me - yes, it happens and such. Mess. I realize that it is useless to condemn, criticize, teach. Waste of time. Take it. It's you too. The mirror shows itself to you. Take it. Act. Go home and deal with yourself. Let everyone live their lives. And you - your life. Came home. I can not find my passport. And my husband criticizes me, calls me psychotic. I wanted to interfere - am I a psycho? Look at you! Stop! Who am I? Let everything go like this! Take it! So be it. I was looking for my passport for two hours. I calmly, slowly put order in the documents. I agree that I will have to make a new passport. And at this moment the husband with such a gentle apologetic voice tells me that the passport was found - he mistakenly pushed him somewhere. Haha! How Conscious is playing creatively!
  • The granddaughter comes. She the third month, how to get a job. The day of pay brings me some money. And today, after work, she brings me money. Thought flashes - do not take it, it's young, she most needed. Stop! What is it? And - this is your favorite pity here as well as the fear that her parents will say. Such a delicate game. Consciousness checks. What is my job - to accept, trust, let them say, accept themselves weak. I take money from my granddaughter with love and gratitude. Who am I? Consciousness. There is no one to regret. There is no one to help. Accepting everything as it is.
  • With his son on the road with the sled were braked (as there the asphalt shone through). And behind it there was a grandfather with sticks-props. And angrily began to resent: "Why are you here pounding? I can not pass because of you. " I immediately have an idea: what an aggressive grandfather. Feeling humiliated. I live, I explain to the child that people are different, there are also such. That's aggression in the return and caught.
  • Have invited on DR. And it began: I do not look good (I do not want people to go). Not what to wear (not a whim, but just a long time ago there were no updates). There is no extra money for a gift (now every penny is in the account). Further more: I do not want to be in that company (what to talk about?), I do not want to eat that fat food (which I have not eaten for already for a thousand years). I notice a feeling of resistance (and a bunch of excuses). What does all that have to do with it? I am a warrior. I track down a feeling of depression, apathy, here it is boredom, a concrete reluctance in general to see people and interact with them. In advance I think out that they reject me, they do not accept it, I do not like it in my mind. A sense of humiliation. Protection (neglect, arrogance). I remember that this is not mine, not my story, not my feeling. A birth pain. I accept. I live. I let my ancestors live as they lived to have their reactions. I went to pack. I notice how I happily come up with the packaging. Quickly think what to buy, then wear. I do my hair, make-up. I tell myself, this is my best day. From an unconscious reaction, I turn to a conscious life, where actions are made according to the situation, and not from the clan belief.
  • My dishes, I notice the buttocks are very tight. State of tension, constriction. Death. Stones. Humiliation. Immediately thought: I will not give up, I do not want, I will not let you go, I will not. Recap: Well, punish as you want, I do not care. Two healthy fools-I'll kill you! Resistance. She broke all the banks. I accept the feeling, I live, let everything happen as it is. I was shut down and turned off the light, because they could not and did not know how to deal with me. And I probably did not obey. They showed themselves this way, because they did not know how to teach me. Now in the present I see how powerless I am when my child does not listen and does not listen and I can do nothing - just accept. Literally last night took a pen and walked the walls painted, he did not leave the place alive. And I accepted. And now I saw how weak it is. I accept. A game. I understand my grandmother and aunt. I realize how complicated I am. And how, probably, it was difficult. Now I see everything. I accept myself, I accept them. Acceptance. Smiling. (yes, I'm still that "gift"). The body relaxed.
  • Mom wrote that we must go to the cemetery. I do not have the opportunity, she manipulates and writes that she cried all day. And if you went, it would be easier. She does not think that I'm working, I have a job (the tree is on), she's thinking about what's gone and does not appreciate what's there. I see myself in it and do not accept it, I do not want to talk about it. Protection is to keep silent. But indeed a true treasure-Love can not be taken away or lost. And we must appreciate, and respect the feelings of others, those who are now near here and now. And do not mourn, then what is already gone. But I also need to respect Her feelings. Here and now is my mother. She is what she is, and I accept Her. Relax, the victim stopped whining and complaining that it is too hard for her and no one thinks about her. I agree with my mother, to go tomorrow to the cemetery.
  • Do not do it: enjoy everything and do not need anything !!! Love your Love. Live not for the sake of being loved, but for the sake of giving my love. The gift I received through A. is to see what I was and what I became. And yesterday's loss shows what the one I was: greedy, proud, insatiable, selfish and sacrificial. Not free!!! I do not fulfill my mission. I go on about the public opinion, I do not accept reality, I do not trust.
  • We examined today the NG schedule. My head aches, on the right a strong squeezing, like a vice-I track a panic, I did not think of the number of artists, in some days the same animator should be in two places at the same time !!! Ha ha ha. I relax and exhale, I see a panic-striker-controller, who needs everything to be perfect. I understand that you can move in those cases, the program, 15 minutes. This especially no one will notice and at work not be reflected. The main thing is to work with love and give the children warmth. No one lives without "mistakes" and "losses". Confidence.
  • A. wrote about her feelings and asked for forgiveness. He did not answer. I live rejection, my head is spinning. I watch the breath. The mind is silent, hid. So bad at heart, I want to spit this huge lump in my throat. Hook for a relationship that has not even been built yet. And which is no longer there. Again, an external source. I'm not the one who's in a relationship. I Consciousness can watch. It's getting fun. I can be anything, I can be smart, I can be stupid. Yes! Here is the result of a rally. I trust and fill LD. I give it back. Inside everything is shining. I am Love. There comes an understanding that nothing is lost, that Loving Compassion, which was born in the heart to this man, stayed with me. And I'm really kayfov from this feeling of love.
  •  For a long time it was not possible to go to the bathhouse to steam, there was an opportunity. Suddenly I find myself on the fact that I am in a dream of the second level, i.e. in my thoughts, in anticipation of how I will spend time.))) Aha ... Stop. Where I am? Who's waiting? Who represents, how should it be? I myself am aware of who I am ... From now on, I expect nothing, accept any manifestation of the moment. I am in the moment here and now. I observe and accept reality, such as it occurs. I am the one who does not touch anything and is therefore open to any experience.
  • The intercom rings, I do not pay attention, because I expect nothing. Yeah my pattern behavior ... I get out of the template, pick up the phone, the male voice says: open it to the police. Opa ... caught myself waiting, my mind immediately painted an unpleasant picture and immediately broke fear of punishment and death. Sleep of the second level. Ha-ha-ha ... Stop ... I do not expect anything, let go of all expectations and accept any manifestation of the moment. I continue to observe. I myself am aware of who I am. And I open myself to every experience. I am in a dream of the first level, realizing Who I am. The police, came to the neighbors, but they were not at home, they asked me to give them a phone number so they rang the bell. Congratulated with the coming New Year and treated to a tangerine.)))
  • I'm driving on business on the car, on the road there is an accident. I observe that the body is in suspense. Mind, activated, template, presentation, as everything should be. Fear of death. Sleep of the second level. Aha ... Stop it! I fell asleep ... I wake up ... I realize who I am! In a dream of the first level, I take any manifestation of the moment, watching. I relax the body, let the moment manifest itself, as it manifests without expecting anything. After all, this is a dream, nobody and nothing, it's all an illusion ...))) And every time, connecting with the True Source, there is a feeling of lightness and trust. And everything will be as it will be ... everything already exists ...)))
  • The game sets the tone and it is necessary for the character, there is a study itself, a vision of the emerging trends. The vision of the game allows you to be more impeccable.
  • Consciousness with me plays the third day. A man owes me money for about a year. We agreed that he would give back to NG. The third day we can not meet. I'm calling. As long as the beeps go on, I think: yes, everything is decided, but everything can change, and I accept any outcome. The person tells me that he is busy and we are taking the meeting for tomorrow. Apologizes. I absolutely calmly tell him that everything is in order. The condition is even.
  • I watched myself as a victim. Work at work - I'm a victim, to which all have hung. What do I do to make this happen to me? - I'm trying to do everything for everyone. I must, it's my duty, no one will do better than me. Well, the opportunity to curry favor. Phew, how disgusting! I do not accept myself lazy, mediocre, prudent, mean. What can I change in myself? - More trust in others. Stop taking responsibility for others.
  • In the morning, when I woke up, there was a strong temptation to get into the phone with my husband. He is fast asleep after yesterday's corporate. The mind draws different pictures. It's a game. Consciousness plays. I will not get involved in this game. I have a choice of how to proceed in this situation. I, on my part, will try to preserve and develop our relations, and then, as it will be, it will.

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