Diary of 6 Winter Remote Games. Issue 7. Season 2017 / 18.

Wednesday 17 January, 2018

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Prayer…
Greetings of the reality in which all elements
  and all living and non-living beings appear as if
themselves, in which they are for a while
  exist and which then come back ...


Your ignorance is measured by how deeply you believe in injustice and human tragedy. What the caterpillar calls the End of the World, the Master calls a butterfly ...
Richard Bach

In the meantime, some players of the Leela Academy continue to play remote games and live in a heightened awareness mode.

During remote games there is a profound transformation, but especially when the games go to the level of the patrimonial field. In this case, the transformation can cover all the members of the clan: So when talking and finding out the information, the dad of one of the players also got involved in the process of living unextended emotions: "We ask the father about his grandfather, and he told that in his childhood he spent time with him, He was very fond of him, he could not remember and even talk about Stepan's grandfather.When he remembered wept, we first saw his father's tears and learned interesting facts.This grandfather Vorobyov Stepan Ivanovich, the father of Taisia's grandmother, was an activist, commission, raised the entire collective farm in the village of Starkovo, and it turns out that he went through four wars: the Finnish, the Civil, the First Fatherland, the 2nd World War, he was proud of him, now we understand where he had the commanding tone of the conversation. even my grandson was surprised to see his grandfather with tears, and also he was inspired by our conversation.The father said that he did not go to see him off at the funeral, he was afraid to cry very much, he was 12 years old, and on the day of the funeral, Stepan's grandfather accompanied the whole village. Father emotions came out and brought us together. "

During the game Psychogenetics and after a thorough analysis of the genus, the attitude towards parents, which we previously judged for their weaknesses, for aggression, for imperfection, changes forever, because after analyzing the pedigree it becomes clear that in fact they carried a certain load dramatic events that occurred earlier in the family and up to the village, none of the ancestors could (survive), experience the feelings with which the parent met, and then you. And in fact, such feelings, those dramatic events, can only be experienced in the case of awakening and the appearance in the psyche of a person of such quality as awareness.

And we continue to acquaint you with those rallies that occur on the way of players in the Sixth Winter Remote Games.

  • They sat there watching the movie together, and then on a flat spot it starts to wind up. Criticism, complaints grievances, etc. I'm already a scientist! Milo replied, I'm joking. And still smiling began to stroke him on the head, recognizing naturally that I did not understand anything, that I was a snake in a frying pan (in general, everything he said I repeated and agreed). He quieted down. I felt neither humiliation nor resentment. I played. I was not involved. And then I saw that it was all for fun. Why glow? Something to prove, argue. I play my game and I'm starting to like this process.
  • Mom called. And I turned off the sound for the night. And then I just forgot to turn it on. She calls her husband all agitated, I pick up the phone, and there !! Impact! Scream. Nervoz. "You do not take the tube ????". I explain to her what and why, she does not hear-all on emotions. And she said, "Okay, it's okay, we'll call later." Immediately I notice a pinch in my chest. A sense of humiliation (her cry for me is especially effective). I allow everything to be. The usual sense of guilt, that I was a heartless, indifferent daughter, was not. Because the guilt was hiding humiliation. I let her be. I live. I give my mother the right to manifest herself as she does it. It is so expressed. It's all right. Usually I did not call her in such situations (closure, resentment, punishing her with silence). Non-doing. After a little time, so she could calm down, she called. Communicated, as if nothing had happened.
  • Trans state work with dad. I see laziness, not the desire to move, to do something. She feels sorry for herself. Reasons, excuses. Ruined of their talents. I see where it comes from. The swamp. And he built himself everything. Lethargy, apathy. Through humiliation, the unwillingness to live a sense of loneliness. I live for him. Here it is, and unnecessary. I live alone. Heavy swamp energy. Clearly I saw my destructive: everything is exactly like my father - not the desire of something. Care in defense (alcohol). There are no forces of aspiration. There is no power of desire. Apathy. All this unwillingness to live the feeling. I go into it. Transformation. There is a lot of powerful energy in the body. She does everything herself, she does not need to interfere. A new concept of life: Be effective in the moment. Do not close. Go ahead! Try, learn, seek to know. Fall-get up. It did not work, another attempt. Find options. Life is alive (what is laziness?) There is simply no time for this. Enjoy this very process. So interesting. Exciting!
  • I went to work and "fell asleep." The thought came - to go to her daughter and teach her how to maintain order in the house. It seems such a good idea! Benefit from me will be! Stop! Haha! Who will teach whom? Who is seeking approval? Then my husband, like a thought, read, began to say that he noticed that the girls have a long time at the mirror and they do not have time to clean up. No one to teach! The teacher was found! Who am I? My ego wants to control everything. With whom did I identify? Who am I? I'm not a character - I'm not a mother, not a grandmother. I'm not the mind, not the body, not the emotions. It's just a role for the time in this incarnation. I am the Consciousness that plays all the roles. Once identified. Everything seen is an illusion. There is no one. I'm watching. There is no appraiser. I - Consciousness - watch the game of all Characters.
  • D called me. Telling something. I do not need this at all, listening is not interesting. It is not so necessary to speak. Nonsense says something, just to say something. The thought comes - I'll call him - I'll make a remark about what I could talk about, and what I better not say. That is - not so he says! I realized what a hard EGO. Thank you I must say that I called, remembered, took time, attention. Surrender! Take it as it is! When D .... called again, thanked. Reduce your Ego - arrogance, pride. I stop evaluating, I remember who I am. The one with whom Consciousness is identified - does not really exist. There is only peace, emptiness. I am WHOLE. Silence, peace.
  • Decided to go to a friend with whom we have been friends for many years. In recent times, our relationship has become different. I realized that it was because I became secretive, I deceive her, I do not open up, I consider myself more significant, "higher", and she is "lower". That she can not understand me, I'm younger, stronger, she can not be trusted, her health has become weak, memory, vision - in general, "not that she". She came to visit her, "say goodbye." Thanked for all trips to nature, chic creative family holidays - skits - a whole show! I realized how my EGO grew - it protrudes. We talked heart to heart. I talked with my girlfriend without the usual deception. I said to myself - how I feel, how I live, the truth, what it is. She pacified her pride. There is no girlfriend, there is no significance - above - below. There is nothing of this. Consciousness played itself. There is no deceiver and deceived. Correct and not correct. Everything comes from emptiness and goes into emptiness.
  • I got the idea that it would be good to stay at home, to do household chores, to stay in seclusion. Holidays in the sense, as previously lost, equal to them. Who rejoices in solitude? Just happening from the state of inner peace.
    Very subtly missed the insult crept up, that the men's work should be done most, it does not work ... The annoyance. And the chest slammed shut. At night, I had a dream, my victim cries and one of the players mercilessly sobering my character, ha-ha! Awakening has come ... Good morning ...
  • In the air (in the mind) flies condemnation, someone condemns, someone condemns. The mind again came up with some kind of conceptual trap! It does not matter what he came up with. The main thing is that he is rendered harmless by his discovery and there is no faith for him. And what is there? And there is a moment of manifestation of overwhelmed sadness, kind and sweet, filling with freshness and peace.
  • The day begins, usually, observation and awareness, there is an action, movement, speaking and there is a moment when it's a second, a moment, rather a microsecond, when everything disappears and there is something, rather nothing is there, there is not this observant, aware ... Silence , tears, contact with the void energy of unlimited space. This is it ... what is there? Nothing ... Stay in this field of Existence ...
  • There was a new introductory - the fulfillment of the assignment for the ministry, not immediately realized the "responsible", the "serious", who wanted to perform the task impeccably, went first to the download, and then, when it was discovered (this is a thought that flew in the air, or rather, its echo in the form of sensation in the body), followed by laughter. Haha !! Consciousness of self found, amused. Thank you!!
  • Pain in the right shoulder, fear-desire to retreat, the thought "I was left without money", yesterday I bought gifts for children, grandchildren, my husband, spending all my last salary. Confusion, remember the event when my husband left, I had no money, we just moved, I did not take office, there was a question of whether to prolong the contract with me, impotence, abandonment. Now, I understand to turn off the mind, I watched "old songs about the main thing", the girls joked that they learned them by heart. And one more memory, I'm in a position, I live with my mother, my husband is finishing a military school, he is in Moscow. At us the boiler of heating breaks down, confusion, helplessness, abandonment. I live, I transform, then the neighbor helped us. I return to the outpost, live those feelings and accept that event, and after all there I was able to build everything and achieve what I wanted. And yesterday I gladly bought gifts and easily parted with money. From scratch, the mind "breeds." The moment is now, rest.
  • I watch the raspiranie in the right hypochondrium, anger-desire to fight, the thought "they can not do anything themselves," the son's call and the request to play Santa Claus. This is a projection, I think that my son, like me, can organize a lot, and he not only can not, but also tries to manipulate me. I feel injustice and I'm scared to be free. I see how the son is identified with us, and does not understand that he has a different life. So I project and unconsciously want this to be so, he was like and lived with a way of life like my husband and I, I feel abandoned, and it's scary to be free, I argue with reality. I live a sense of abandonment, injustice disappears, as if by itself, I understand that I wanted to confuse her mind, transform it. I understand that in the request I refuse, these are their children, their lessons, let them start thinking earlier, otherwise they will not grow up.
  • I went to N., to see my granddaughter, to watch the video from the matinee, began to communicate, I asked a question, N. did not like it, she already goes on shouting. Pulsation in the head, anger-desire to fight, rejection. I watch anger and understand that she just misunderstood me, explained. N. immediately abated and the dialogue began. My game is through watching emotion, not involving.
  • We went with S. to choose a washing machine. In one shop went on foot, there 45min and back-45min. My son insisted on foot, did not argue, it was warm outside, good for health. There was a game, consultants in two stores just imposed their opinion. I learned a lot of useful things. And in one they just turned attention to Chinese products, cheap. They say, why take expensive products? I caught fire, but did not hurry to take it. Tomorrow we'll go into 2 more stores. Well so went with his son, in harmony. But now I knew for sure that I had to look at the reviews on the machines on the Internet. I got acquainted. I understood what to choose. I saw the game of Consciousness, when I chose a typewriter, I did not get caught. Well did not hurry. She smiled.
  • The nurse is calling on the phone. Complains, resents, irritation in his voice. I remember all people need love. I have within balance, harmony and acceptance all as is. And I know, my inner state, such, will help her. But after a while the sister, having received warmth,
    begins to laugh. My goal is to learn, not depend on the energy of the outside world, my mission is to give my people a state of warmth, joy - harmony.
  • Then there was the process of greed. Son invited to visit his friend. The son took my dear wine, which lies about five and three liters in a bucket of honey. I gave two Teachers a vow: do not drink alcohol. But she kept the wine.
    I was so upset. So sorry for the wine, and a lot of honey. I could not resist, I asked: why so much. He says: how greedy you are. Yes greedy. Did not argue, I went to live greed. Calmed down. Presented: how he would be pleased to give these gifts, giving people pleasure.
  • S. annoyedly told me that I had not turned off my home phone again. Began to justify that the buttons are falling. I press once, but I need two. I stopped and saw that it touched me. Sediment. Roughly it was said. Harmony was broken. I understand he is at the moment - he can not behave differently, but I can. Sympathy. She recovered quickly. Such is happiness inside. Your experience: to live any experience and come to harmony.
    Today, I forgot to set the alarm. I overslept, and realized that it was a disguised fear of the unknown: I, before going to sleep, realized that there was a "call" to go to "my" grave.
  • Instead of studying, I'm going to the cemetery, where the penultimate body of the character lies. Practice here, next to the resting place. P: The power of the cemetery felt even without seeing it ... but during practice I feel very heavy and heavy ... The crown became quite warm and free when I realized that there was no psychological fear of death (here it is, the body lies, but the part of the soul that lived in it now lives in a new body ... I'm not the body), there is no fear of elementals and collapsing etheric bodies, and the presence of spirits does not frighten or inconvenience, either. Strangely enough, in this place of heaviness, death and sorrow, I felt life: in the rustle of the wind, in the chirping of birds, in my own breathing and even in the destruction of bodies .... As if something had forgiven, released something, accepted. I saw the gates of death. Closed. I realized that I was not ready to cross them (I had to finish something and increase my awareness, but more importantly, I do not need to knock on them myself ... yes, I live now for the love of myself, for him, for my daughter ... to life). Peace and satisfaction from their "strange" campaign.
  • Then a spontaneous decision. On the way home, I went to a cafe where there was also a character of the past. First the excitement is like before an important meeting, and then joy, and for some reason thanks.
  • I did not come to that stop. I look: the hairdresser in front of my nose. For a long time I want and put it off. I went, the game is still going;). They cut their tips a little, put their hair and everything. First time in the American salon. Spent the sum for a good Moscow salon. Here I got a minimum. But, again, there is satisfaction: I did it for myself, fulfilled the desire. And I look a little tidier, and I was given a gift. ;) even the relaxation in the left scapula suddenly felt warm.
  • the girlfriend asked to take her son from the kindergarten. I'm taking it. We go for a walk with him (K.) and my daughter in the park. In the park, my daughter refuses to let K. play her flashlight. K. takes offense and leaves somewhere. Dark. I lose sight of them. I start running around the park and look: nowhere else. The excitement rises. Already gone pictures are terrible ... I say to myself: stop. I ask the world for help, direct me to the side where they are. Looking for. A daughter comes running from behind and leads me to K. He sits at a monument in a dark place. I start to scold K., and the more he begins to persist, the more I get angry and stiffen. As a result, I begin to threaten him that we will no longer take away and be friends. I sit opposite on the bench very angry. I experience impotence and anger. I look at him: he turned away and squeezed into the kalachik. Ha! Awoke! I behave like a child almost 4 years of age. Here it is, sitting opposite, and it's me in all its glory. I approach him again. I embrace. Calmly, loving I begin to explain to him that I can not leave and run away from me (or my mother), I'm talking about the reason why it is impossible (here the laws are tough in this respect), that all will cry later. He persists. He accuses my daughter that she does not share a flashlight. I agree that he is right, if they agree to share, we must divide. And again I explain why you can not run away. I say: you can take offense and move away from me, but the main thing is for me to see you and know where you are. He heard me. I felt it. But he moved to the other side of the bench. The situation is solved. Win.
  • A minute later K. comes to us and asks for a flashlight. My daughter is obstinate and does not want to share. Persuasion does not help. Then I remind you that the flashlight is actually mine, and now it's K's turn to play with him. I take it from my daughter. She's in tears. It offends me, which I took without her consent. I keep track, there's no guilt. I allow myself to be such a mother. In this win. However, the daughter continues to cry and does not respond to my exhortations. I can not find the key. In this loss. The situation ended with the arrival of Mom K. She gave everyone a bubble of soap bubbles. The flashlight was forgotten. Consciousness has shown / recalled one of the solutions to the situation of sharing.
  • With Father Frost came home to feed him and meet the New Year, then at his corporate night. He needs to throw on the flash drive of the song, his son helps, I change clothes for a feast. Ch. Sits already at the table and does not find any meat. Tugging my son to get it out of the refrigerator, I say that he's busy. I'm too busy. I feel how the mind wants to run out of habit to carry out his errand. Watching-feeling mummy, we need to look after him. But he's a grown man, and that's what he needs. I say: go yourself and get it. A pause, I stand it. Confidence-how it will be, so it is correct. He gets up and does himself, mutters something like he does not know where it is in the refrigerator, I understand that he is protected, he is not used to it either. Dar, I let him live his feelings and live my own.
  • Instead of making a wish on NG, she repeated the meditation of Loving Kindness.
  • A. does not write, even did not congratulate NG, but before leaving he called and said that the 6th will come to visit me. I do not want to write anything either. Just watching. He left to meet NG in Nakhodka. My friend tried to teach me: you ask him to whom he is going. And I do not need it. I feel calm and let him live his life. He can have a relationship. I, too, have incomplete relationships. Yes, I have changed. But Ch. Then came, and I do not chase him. Just watching my feelings. It does not matter.
  • I now understand how important and how kayfovo to be yourself and follow in accordance with their feelings. I have no dislike for Ch. He does not disgust me, he is just there. But nothing more. He feels it, behaving like a tail. I'm trying to do something for the house-I changed all the light bulbs. I feel calm. But I do not see a future with him, with such a one as he reflected in my mind. Now I see that he is also trying, changing. But I do not expect any result. Just is: here and now. So good and calm. I admire myself. This is happiness: being yourself.
  • Today is the day of unexpected orders. As if I have sober animators. Spontaneously spent the morning, gathered for an hour. Then one more order and more. And all this closes someone's flaws. I thank Consciousness, but I do not think badly of those animators who broke children's holidays. There are different - and this is a lesson for me, too. Since the end of last year, we are called to help out, as animators let down from other agencies. I see in this a hidden lesson. Thank you. And I do not judge.
  • The son calls, says that the driver goes only to F., the pass is closed. The mind only wanted to intervene, but his attempt was caught. Self-aware, Who I am, that everything around is Consciousness. Everything comes from emptiness and goes into emptiness. Only the present is real. I'm watching, not appreciating, I just need to be. Nothing to do is not necessary. Connecting with the source, I feel Love. I see the game of Consciousness, which is infinite, and all One ... Son, adult, young is his game and his experience ...
  • I watch the weather forecast, it is expected a heavy snowfall, just when the daughter-in-law is leaving. The mind began to interfere and experience, what to do, how to be. I take responsibility for myself, fear of rejection, loneliness. Stop! Who's afraid? Who does this affect? Self-aware Who am I! I see the Game and its unattractiveness! Once identified! Connecting with the source! I observe and allow Consciousness to manifest as it manifests. I let the children decide for themselves how to get to the airport.
  • Life consists only of moments. There is no past life; there is no future life. Everything that is life is always in the present. After turning on the radio, I heard very beautiful music. And I began to look at her, to see her and feel her, and after her very different music began to play. And in it I looked at my notes and feelings. I watched from the source, allowing Consciousness to manifest itself, as it manifests itself. Without evaluation, arriving at the moment and creating it, feeling infinite love, being in a dream of the first level ...
  • In the afternoon, guests came. We went for a drive on tubing. I felt childlike joy, lightness and serenity. But I also saw my internal controller. I feel directly how I am wrapped in this shell of responsibility, control, supervision. It is very difficult for me to get out, she presses me. Emotions unnatural.
  • In the evening, when the guests left, I reviewed what I was during this time. I talked less, listened more, did not try to prove my worth, I did not argue with my husband. Even when he said something to me, instead of the usual objections, I answered him: "You are as always right." I did not scold others, as it was before. But, at the same time, I realized that this is what I was, even earlier. I have a long feeling that I'm returning to my old self. I see the game of Consciousness: initially I have all the best for me, but I did not take it and constantly tried to change everything, improve it, remove it. And on the basis of returning to the starting point.
  • In the morning I lost again, and, twice. First with the eldest son. Again morning began with moralizing, although I see that it does not work. Then on the way to work - with the younger one. She broke into a scream. She could feel tension in her head. On face heat and tension. I ceased to control myself and switched to insults. Then my throat caught, and I started coughing. Accordingly, I shut up. Not for the first time the body blocks my cries.
  • In the evening I went home. With me in the car there were sons. To the house to go minutes 20-30. I felt that the headache was increasing, the pressure was getting stronger. Breathing became heavy. In the fingers and toes, I felt a tingling and numbness. Weakness in the whole body. My head was spinning. I called my husband and asked him to go out to the road and bring the car to the house. I took my weakness and helplessness in this situation. In the middle of the road, I stopped. It was very bad. I watched the body. Then I turned on the "emergency" and trailed on. It did not get any better. The pressure in my head intensified, and there was a weight in my heart. Sobbing accompanied by heavy breathing. Helplessness, weakness, impotence. I'm afraid of dying. But not because it's me who will die, but the fear that the children will be left alone. My parents are old. To the husband, in this plan I do not trust. We do not particularly talk with relatives. What is this for me? 1.Gordynia - no one will do better than me (and who said? Maybe with someone else they will be even better.) There will not be such pressure as I do.) Stop. PRESSURE. I always press all over. So now I'm under pressure. 2. Strong attachment to children. They are not my property. 3. Some kind of shiza about "being an ideal mother". I remembered how my mother often told me in her childhood: "A bad mother will come out of you." So I'm killing myself to prove that I'm the best mother in the world. Who proves? Character. To whom? Illusions.
  • Passing the level of 5 game, where it is important to show strong moves, I see how I direct attention to the establishment of relations. I manifest myself in the role of mother, a loving woman, daughter, and I understand that this is the escape from the main moment of the ministry, although everything is interconnected and now I realize that without this experience, which was not lived, it will not be possible to make a strong move in my business. I live and accept everything as is, so it's interesting to watch how the game manifests itself. Now I understand what an unprocessed body is when I can not prove myself in the business. Now the consciousness is manifested in the relationship and this move gives confidence that everything is possible and this is a strong moment in Life, which leads me to myself. Yes, I soften, seeing and accepting my imperfection. As the outer space reflects to me my weak points and being on the Earth level, this is the working out of the body in actions.
  • Doing my own business, where the formation is taking place, I take steps forward and this brings me pleasure. I now do not have to pant, Consciousness sends people themselves, only need to manifest themselves more. And a strong move, this is to make a big promotion, thereby to enter a new round of yourself!
  • I see how the knowledge that is in me is not realized because of the inability to present them, when I did not apply them in practice. So now I'm given the experience, to live a family-parent relationship so that I can share practical knowledge, and not be an amateur. And the fact that I now live deeply in a relationship and manifest myself as a woman, accepting myself and revealing new facets, gives me the strength and the opportunity to change old stereotypes and to know the true self. I have sunk into this and now I know myself in a new relationship. It was a strong move, forgive and take her husband, because that's me! Now I'm learning to swim in family relationships, gaining experience and also give the opportunity to manifest to others, having a bait to catch the experience, while not hoping for a chance. Only I am responsible for what is happening and now I am so manifested to one day wake up! My business and the cause of God are One!
  • The suggestion that there will be no more relations between S. and me, and we will live like strangers, but we will not be able to part because of duty, thought he will walk in search of the best, and I will forgive him knowing that it will not be better. Suggestion from her mother, she often said that my father did the same as now S. does and I believe in the relationships that were between my parents. Then I remembered the situation when this phrase was uttered by my mother, I returned to her saw how I believed that my father did not want to engage in family, that he was walking, that he could not be trusted and only rely on himself. Formed a new belief that the father was cheerful and very sociable, that's why he had many friends, he lived as he wanted. I even changed my attitude towards my husband. I realized that my father's label was on my husband. It became much easier to look at her husband.
  • We leave work, S. asks the security guard whether his daughter has got a job and does not answer, I remember that this guard asked me a month ago whether I have a job, I answered that he wants to apply to S.T.K. he knows he employs and thus said S. that the girl is looking for a job on which S. said nothing. When S. asked the guard immediately called her daughter that there was work, and that she would leave tomorrow, she agreed. S. rejoiced, and I, too, but at the end the guard pronounced the daughter's name as the one with whom she met S. her name was A., S. and I exchanged glances and S. said that he did not know what the name of this girl was, and she tomorrow comes to my shop and I teach her a month that she was my substitute. I saw the smile of Consciousness that, as if I did not want to get rid of A. she would advertise even in another person, but through the name of my ward, S. and I laughed aloud, and he also realized that, as though he did not want me to him did not remind about A. all the same life puts what we need to go through both.
  •  comes my student A., young, neat, miniature as a statuette, she looks pleasant to me, but the name reminds me of A., I myself remind myself of A., the whole day I talked with the student and she was communicative for the first day of training with her not one was not "hovering" over the dish, she well remembered my actions and exactly exactly repeated the chips and secrets that must know the dryer and through her wittyness her name ceased to remind me of A., the student was with a flexible Consciousness ie. training as plasticine and I fell in love with her as a necessary link in our team. such people are few in recent times who have come to study. Through the student I once was identified with A. and to her aggression and revenge also decreased through her.
  • Pass knowledge to the student, I understand how I like to share what you have and see how this knowledge gives road to others and such joy and grace on the soul. Self-suggestion that in me there is nothing good that I could give to society. I remember my husband's words that I spoil the mood of everyone, my mother's words that I'm screaming like a father. I stop on the spot without closing my eyes, but I do my work, breathe ... I breathe ... I breathe ... I came in as though in a trance around the whole head merged into one and there's nothing disturbing around me even the loud music, I am everything, and I am even what I'm cooking at the moment at work, I felt the unity and strength of who I am and I am everything. In such a trance, I arrived more than 40 minutes. I realized that I am the Source, which can all, woke up Love and Gratitude to what is in me and around.
  • At work, they said to make a layout, and it is needed until the end of the week, and I turn on the haste, I begin to press myself to do everything quickly. When I noticed this, I began to stop. What's terrible is that I will make it normal, in a natural rhythm, it turns out that I will be left, I will remain alone, the fear of death. Scenario grandmother - the fear of being alone, without support. I live some part of the grandmother's not lived scenario. Further, I notice that I'm more relaxed and continue to work on the layout, and the layout is obtained. When there was fear, the program did not want to work hanging up, some functions did not work. When the fear decreased the program earned, and I quickly finished it. He was immediately confirmed. Although I assumed that I would work on it a day or a half day. And she did it in only half a day.
  • In the evening I went to yoga. On yoga, too, some kind of dynamics begins, the girl shows a desire to be friends, but I see in this some kind of binding, protection from some state. I see, of course, myself in relationships with men, that is, in this respect, her attitude toward me is that I also stick to men. This is a very good example of clearly see myself. It turns out that she builds herself from some kind of affable, and I automatically represent the friendliness, although I feel contorted. But today, when she came to yoga, she answered strictly, she can answer so, but I do not have to be friends with her, but I can communicate with her. I will be in the moment, act from the moment. On yoga, I was not completely finished, and 15 minutes before graduation I leave so as not to lie on the cold floor. And the girl approached and asked if I would like to wait for her. I refused her and felt that it was my truth, that it was in this refusal that I showed my true relationship, I was with myself. Relief.

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