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Prayer…
Greetings of the reality in which all elements
  and all living and non-living beings appear as if
themselves, in which they are for a while
  exist and which then come back ...

Meditation slowly and slowly leads you to your enlightenment. Suddenly, one day you realize: where is this darkness? Where is this endless stream of thoughts? Where has the mind disappeared? Suddenly you are absolutely empty, like bamboo. But your emptiness is not emptiness: it is filled with joy and joy. You will dance for no reason, you will sing for no reason, songs that you did not compose, dances that were not taught to you. They just spontaneously arise from your consciousness.

Osho.

Well, the players continue to play distance games, living the realities of their lives. During the time of remote games, there are various events (both dramatic and happy), but the player must play without forgetting, being in a state of Awareness and remembering: what is reality and what are illusions.

• Realizing the entire story of the whole story of this example, I catch myself thinking about my son "How terrible is the genetic robotics. My boy is not passed the best, on the branch of his father, in general, a quiet horror (and I feel such weakness and pain-I miss living). And whatever the aspirations of the light were not -genetic robotism wins. I catch sluggishness in the body. Senselessness, doom, detachment. Apathy is familiar to me in moments of weakness. Feeling of abandonment (if he is sad this will be his destiny, he will disappear) I will remain one sad nobody need (loneliness) DEATH. There is no death. Transformation. Papin's line (lower his hands). The tendency to live someone else's life, pity. The question is "if the child grows and does not see an example and does not know his genealogy, did not hear stories and stuff, but sees a completely different example, in this case robotism is transmitted anyway?" This is a matter of fear, of course. I live. I let go with Love. All that must-be. This is a dream he already has and it only remains to examine it. This is not my destiny, but the fate of my son. He showed up here for his experience to solve his problems, of course, for love, I will help if my help is needed. My mission is not to let go, and to accept everything as it is. That's all. The body cheered up, the back straightened. Nobody knows what will be there. And now life is beautiful.
• New model: the adoption of male energy went ... Respect for a man, I saw how important it is to praise him for thanking everyone for everything (for all the little things he does for me), to support. To nourish. I realized how much a man is dependent on a woman. I can give this support. Only respect! Respect and acceptance of masculine energy (no matter what images she takes). In the body, the softness of peace. No dumok, no control, no irritation. Adoption. Confidence. Peace. Joy. Calm down.
• After a little time I wanted to support a person, to praise him to express his gratitude to him. Me bears. I flow. I'm in the stream. It is so important to express soy appreciation and gratitude. I only knew how to demand and take for granted. But now I'm different. I knew the secret. I own this knowledge. I come into contact with the source from there. In fact, it's so easy, so it's not difficult, BUT WHAT IS THERE FORCE! And I myself am healed and reborn. I am a woman.
• The girl calls from work and asks to leave tomorrow for her, trembling in the chest, joy - the desire to live, I need. And then I remember that for tomorrow they have written me down for consultation, confusion, they will reject me if I refuse, well, let me now, my occupation and my own implementation are more important to me. I say that I can not and I refuse, without fear of being unnecessary and rejected. It became fun, I saw the game of consciousness, how it arranged a check.
• Has come on a visit to N. have agreed to meet, she has met, grumbling. In the chest squeezed, rejection, uselessness, separation. Wait, I'm not going to believe it, I say: "I'm very glad to see you, I missed you." Then there was a friendly conversation. If it is not, then I saw my defense in the form of the formation of back reactions, from fear of rejection, uselessness, separation. My game: do not believe the mind, do not get involved.
• Stress in the frontal part of the head, fear-desire to retreat. There was a consultation, the question was decided, he had drowsiness, I asked to write about my health in the evening. He did not write. Fear suddenly I hurt, and therefore I'm a bad specialist, rejection, senselessness. Here and now I watch the meaninglessness, I understand that the ego wants a result, and now the unknown, and he wants so much praise, in fact, praise is again another's source of love. That's cunning, funny, the desire to live. Do what you must and what will happen.
• Spasm in the solar plexus area, fear - desire to retreat, you want to eat, despite the early morning, includes intellectualization, "yesterday I had lunch and dinner at the same time and very early, of course, a big break between meals, and ... what then? And then I will not have the strength to do anything and even live, I will leave this world earlier than necessary, so to live is meaningless. I observe the meaninglessness, it becomes clear how the ego decided that when I do business, death will not come. The ego is afraid of the death of the body when it is hungry. I confront, but what about the sun-eaters, and my mother told me about the war and the famine, and what a healthy generation those who passed the war, almost all left, having survived the 80-year-old line. A good death still needs to be earned, so that it goes bang and crossed. Mom, grandfather, brother left exactly, this is the grace of Consciousness such withdrawal. Then, when my deadline neither body nor even ego knows. And if tomorrow, then what ...? Then I just want to be covered by love, which is in me, this is my source, it has no limit, it is infinite.
• Today I decided consciously not to resist reality, the bird was slaughtered, the plucking process is heavy and not pleasant; was! With inner humility, I began to pluck geese, but for today this is my task, and about a miracle, everything went as it were, quickly and easily, then cooked dinner. Then with my husband primed the pillars for a new fence, another bunch of housework, I flowed from one case to another and I have no fatigue, I'm surprised. When the mind tried to insert its rejection, senselessness and so on, I told him: "Stop, we agreed, now you are silent." Happened! He can be silent. Such peace in motion. Joy and desire to live.
• The Drawing of Consciousness is unexpected. I quarreled with my husband. On level ground. All is well, everything is fine - and suddenly such a turn of events. Husband unhappy. He began to accuse me that he was doing everything for me, and I talked rudely to him. Why would I do that? Why does he need to live with me? He showed me the description of the conversation between the two men - they saw a woman - beautiful, figure-skating, affable, dressed in taste. One of them says - but she is sitting in someone's liver! My husband says that this is about me. Ha - ha! I ask, what do I mean in his liver? My husband began to remember what he was doing for me. To my question - then I did nothing for you? So, so - he answers. Can not remember. Through my husband I see the dark side of the Soul - to show my worth, the stubborn Ego. Who am I? Who proves to whom to whom to whom is better and who is worse? There is no one. There is no one to prove, there is no one to justify himself to. Let him condemn! So Consciousness decided to play. Identified with the characters and plays himself, awakens. There is no one who is happy and dissatisfied. Who for whom did something, and how much. This is a dream. All illusion. I - Consciousness - I observe without evaluation. I give up. Fears - they are unreal, there are none - all illusion. Everything comes from emptiness and goes into emptiness.
• I watched the events. Free. Consciousness actually cares, gives the necessary meetings, events. When I'm just eating, everything happens spontaneously, interestingly, unexpectedly. Awakens!
• Was on a visit at D. At it the big changes in a life. Everything has changed. I sold the apartment. He always complained that he did not lie, the soul to life in this house. I bought a small house. I put it on the plot of the house with my daughter. I condemned D. for these purposes - in his old age to sell a warm apartment, go into the unknown - this is a risky and incomprehensible step. Now she looked like D ... starts everything from scratch in her house - looked at him with understanding, respect, with love for his choice. Who am I? Who condemns whom? This Consciousness is so ordered. D. did this by some decision of the Soul - leave everything, get away from attachment. He performs the task in this incarnation, sent by the Consciousness - not to get attached to anything. And this is me too. I accept his choice, his life. Everything in the material world is changing. Destroyed, builds up. This is not bad, not good. It's just an experience. Only I - Consciousness - unchanging, eternal.
• Involvement began when my son hugged me, but I have a sticky sweat after physical exertion and carefully pulled away from him, and then a feeling of guilt, a weight in the body that he will take offense. There is an observation, the manifestation of destruction in the body, the living of the dark side of the soul - callousness, like the other half of the softness. All this, I miss fear, as a natural emotion, without clinging to the concept of self-sufficiency, loneliness, self-consciousness is going on, from this level of not affection, to whom and to whom? Openness of life, filling, trust ...
• My son got out of balance, pulled on their blanket, they all crush, and I get involved in their losses in apartment repairs that could be avoided. What is lost, who is losing? Stop, I miss weakness, I give the reins of government to their hands - Consciousness Awareness, as I build the castle from rejection and loneliness. Haha!
• Morning, awakening, garbage in the mind - it is necessary, it is necessary ... meditation, feed, wash, quick ... Stop! The feeling of tension in the body - make it. What strains? Whom? Yes, that to whine, the intellect entered the usual accusation that nothing changes. With it you can argue, tk. already finding his grumble is progress, beyond which is the realization of sadness. All characteristics of sadness are loneliness, meaninglessness - again fantasies of an illusory mind. In the interval between the wanderings of thought, the irritation slipped, the mind resisted, but then the fire of discord was extinguished in the emptiness of Consciousness, which disagreed with the character, his expectations. Bezmyslie, reconciliation ...
• The father is going to be examined on Korean medical equipment and invites his son to go with him. The son does not agree. Z. leaves, and says that he is waiting. I hardly persuade S. to go and after 7 minutes. the son agrees. I call Z. and I say: where are you? He says he's on the bus. I resent you, you said you would wait, and did not even say where to go. She hung up. I thought he would call back. No, he does not. I sat down by the window and said nothing and almost wept from such betrayal, Z. in my repertoire. And the son before this said: that with us, with the parents will no longer be associated. It takes about ten minutes. I hear: the son himself calls and asks: where to go? The question is solved. Well then, how, with me, Consciousness played! And I slept, woke up and laughed, as I Conscious acted. I watch, again got out the program: the reluctance to live. Well, how to see the Divine in everything?
•  At the birthday party. I look at my family and I feel sorry. I do not accept reality. Mom became so old, pale. The little sister grew fat. There is obesity. I tell her that she has recovered, she agrees. My sister's husband with finances does not care. I understand that this is a play scenario of God. Let everything happen. I, too, as a character is temporary. But the identification with the body-mind is still great and from the habit of reacting like that. Lives in pain.
• The son looks at me like a wolf, although he says that because of the sect. But I, I understand - this is a consequence. The reason is in me. I fall asleep, identify with the body-mind and begin to suffer. The notion that this is a game of Consciousness does not help. Fear strong does not adequately accept the situation. His hatred of me, this brute energy I do not accept. Consciousness narrows. In general, the swing, out of harmony, went into disharmony, in this game. Depressed state, again occurs when talking to the son. Well, I will and I will pass this experience. So Consciousness plays with me.
• On the way, I called the former coach - there was an unfinished question. The conversation turned into a scandal. I hung up. He called me back - I did not answer. Who does not want to answer? Ego. I saw how I can destroy everything with a few words. Fear. Below the stomach tension. I dialed a number, talked, heard each other.
• At the end of the conversation, I felt ashamed. I was very ashamed of my words, tone, etc. In the body it was dark, friable, with uneven edges in the shape of a string bean, the size of a fist. It pushed the heart from below. What is behind the feeling of shame is the fear of betrayal on the part of the man. I reconsidered all the moments of life where I betrayed. Then I recognized the fact that I, too, betrayed, also revised these moments. I came to work and thought, but what for me is treachery? After reviewing all the scenes from my life, I came to the conclusion that what I call a betrayal is not akin to my opinion or expectation, an act or decision. And who thinks so? Ego. I also keep track of feelings of guilt. Behind her is the fear of being rejected. If I manifest myself, I am rejected. I decided that I lost this rally. On the way to the neighboring building, it struck me that the rally was to see and accept myself real, such as I performed in all my "beauty". I used to notice that I can not express myself, but this is impossible, because I myself do not accept the present. The 20th paragraph of the Code. I have many different qualities: from the lowest to the brightest. But now that I've seen it, I can learn to manage it.
• Back in the subway. In the car comes a girl with a child strapped to her chest with a sign of alms. Last year I gave it to her. I remember the feeling and sense of rightness and noble deed. Today I wanted to give it to her, but, it turned out, there was no small sum and little money with me. She felt such compassion from the heart (already knocked out a cork from her left breast some) and sadness that I can not help that the last 20-ka is also needed for my child. Yes, I'm not up to par. Let me be this manifestation. ... and find myself lying: a very subtle sense of gravity below the center of anahata, more to the right. Depressed.
• during the practice I will note two new perceptions: there were long moments when there was only a stream of air concentrated inside the nose (above the nostrils), as the center, and around Spinning. And the second moment, I have tracked the subtle rejection now: Rama says: "realize, breathing happens only now", and I catch the following: if I'm in now, then something happens a lot out of the way ... and if it does not happen, then this is not the "now" moment, because it can not be so ordinary. And this subtle thought is sitting right with expectations and "does not give" to realize that in fact, breathing is happening in now. It's like "now" in the fog, and when I really "ripen" this "now" will be)))). Here's a game.
• Transformation: Ilahinur. Breath. Living alone.
  Localization and living tension and pain in the right lower scapula muscle, gives a second situation: I am about 6 years old. We play catch-up with my brother, but we do not run, but creep. He who catches up, he must touch. But how? We're crawling. Therefore we grab our teeth with clothes. I'm catching up with my brother. And, without calculating, I strongly bite him for the ass. He's yelling. They punish me. I'm crying under the table. We do not regret anybody. Everyone is watching TV. E: anger is offense; H: injustice; SS: rejection. ES: loneliness.
• Transformation: breathing and living alone. This time, I suddenly realized that you do not need to transform fear itself, to replace it. You need to fully enter into it. He is like a shell, into which a chicken is knocking from the inside. She entered. And I did not find anything there. Thank you for this clash with loneliness from an early age, because it was this fear that made me look! A lot of effects took place in the body: belching, abdominal resuscitation, throbbing pain at the top of the head, pain in the right scapula ...
• I received a message from my father-in-law, it was very unexpected, I congratulated you on the holiday and asked for forgiveness. I see the game of Consciousness, so I had a moment to ask for forgiveness from them and to complete the gestalt. There was so much sincerity and honesty in the words. I also asked for forgiveness for everything that happened. At the same time, the boundless love of the Source was realized and felt. I stay in a non-dual contemplation, in the original state of Who I am. After all, one role is played by one actor Consciousness. The moment itself is now creating this moment. I'm in action in this moment. In awareness of the moment through Self-awareness. I feel, feel, see and hear its manifestations, which do not affect me in any way ... I send them a smile and a love ... I am in the dream of the first level, and I continue to co-create this experience, through conscious life, through conscious interactions ...
• In the morning I woke up from the fact that I was frozen, touched the batteries, and they were cold. Charge, was more active. I watched bodily sensations and emotions, for how the moment manifests itself. I called the control room, they say that the accident on the boiler room, there is no heating throughout the district, they promised to fix everything by the evening. I allow the moment to manifest as it manifests itself. OK! Excellent! You can sit at home and freeze, wait when there will be heating, or you can and in another way, because today is a free day. We decided to go on a nature skiing. We stopped at M., she refuses, she has other plans. With respect and love, let me make her choice.
• Is calling I., says that her mother-in-law became worse, that, probably, it is left for her a little. Strongly worried and nervous. Staying in a dream, I keep myself: that is, I am in the moment now and in Here. I stay in a non-dual contemplation, through staying in the original state of Who I am. With respect and love I treat absolutely every character, I see the game of Consciousness.
• This is all a confusing game of Consciousness. Despite all the provocations, I treat with respect and love, seeing rallies of Consciousness. There is no one here and everything is not real, and the illusory "we" are in a dream, where reality is only the moment Now. I allow reality to manifest itself, as it manifests itself. Each character lives his experience.
• I hear in the conversation between S. and V. as B. says that I did not do anything good for him, S. began to protect me and say that it is not that much V. does not know and began to explain how he is not right . I feel how my body began to shrink from injustice and humiliation, in fact, this situation is very beneficial for me because V. insists on his S. explains to him and t. V. insists and does not want to agree with S. he begins to be angry with him and they have a deteriorating relationship. Knowing that this would be beneficial for me, my position would be complete silence, but I decided if I keep silent mean I indulge fear, approach them and support S. so that V. quickly admitted that he is wrong and that everything will work out between us. But V. is so stubborn that he did not agree with S. and I realized that I gave up the benefits myself, the body went into a transformation, the old age was replaced by a relaxed state. I felt a surge of strength.
• S. says that yesterday he was with my brother and he wants to establish communication with me, but he is waiting for changes for that old SMS, in which I wrote and sent my brother to death so that he did not get into our relationship with my husband. My brother said he wants to communicate with me, worries about me, only expects me to apologize for that SMS. At me all was fastened a body I at once understood, that dialogue with the brother is not necessary to me since. for me it is profitable he does not climb into my family and does not come, but I do not climb into his affairs and do not come to him. Why is it profitable ... because the brother is very sharp, he speaks directly to the forehead, I'm afraid of him, I'm afraid that he can somehow influence S. because he likes extreme and he is dangerous. Here it is benefit. it is better to be in fear and not to communicate with your brother than to communicate with your brother and completely trust in Life and allow yourself to be everything that can happen. I breathe ... I breathe .... I accept what I'm afraid of, what can happen, because I'm ready to go to reconciliation with my brother, because for 6 years of my attempts to reconcile with him, he did not go to contact, but now he the brother asks through S. to come with an apology. Yes, that's right, Consciousness wants so, and if it really means I'm ready for everything that will be, and I have such a feeling in my body that it bursts with strength, which with every word and with every sigh fills me with the force that expands. Yes, there is fear of loneliness, but it is disturbing. conscious fear, and I go into him through my brother, the fear of losing everything that is.
• I play and change the attitude towards myself, accept myself, showing in the moment here and now. I see myself in changing pictures and do what I have. Now I'm writing a game, I feel irritation, I feel rejected, the thought: to write again, to re-create the game, everything has simply disappeared and now I am showing actions, changing attitudes towards the inner moment, dissolving the destructive state behind which there is meaninglessness. Thought: yes, who needs it, who doubts the mind? who plays and does not let go, is afraid of losing his power? The power of what? The power of manipulating the character, except for which there is more and no one. The mind is afraid of reality, where there is an unlimited power of Consciousness, where by dissolving, you become what you are, losing the power of the illusion of the past and the future, missing the moment of the present. I miss and feel the joy of being, it's a Game! I am the manifestation of Consciousness
• Fear of having big money, what's the worst if I have a lot of money? They need to be realized, manifested, I go out on the fear of freedom, money is a symbol of interaction with the surrounding world. Belief, I can not dispose of money-energy. Transforming. I freely interact with money, accept and pass energy, giving Love! I am the manifestation of Consciousness. Making mistakes, reviewing experience, gaining strength, creatively manifesting and realizing the potential given by God - Consciousness! After all, it's all a game! I play with myself, freeing from illusory fears! I am the manifesting power of Consciousness!
• I open the Life, revealing the potential, I act, realizing the Dharma. I surrender, surrender, accept myself in the Service and I thank the Consciousness for this experience. Now is the time, give the accumulated, which has accumulated for so many years. Yes, before, I also worked with people and helped, only on the other side, unconsciously. Now I understand that this is the highest form, to serve people, enriching their growth, manifesting the highest qualities expanding the Consciousness. I become self-sufficient, Spiritually Rich, Free!
• Founding my own business, I did not consider myself an entrepreneur, I thought that it was not for me and that I did not have any entrepreneurial activity, I simply did not think that it was important to develop myself in the business! Traced Fear of Freedom, manifest as a person, conviction, I can not express myself, a sense of rejection, shame. Who's afraid? mind locking himself into limitations, because he is illusory. I am the manifestation of Consciousness, I manifest myself speaking publicly and carrying the Light to the People. My work and the work of God are One. I am enterprising and creative, I increase the power, bringing profit to Consciousness. I am endowed with the talent that I realize in Life. The temptation of big money? I have as much as I need to manifest and realize myself. I am steady in my business and starting the project from scratch. Realizing myself, moving to the Center
• Today I went to yoga classes. I try to redirect my attention from the outside to the inside. Yes, a lot of energy was wasted to communicate outside. This leads to an unconscious life. Today I stopped doing it. The goal is not to have communication outside. Today I was modestly engaged in the end of the hall, and from the fact that I did not spend energy on communication, nothing changes. I also treat these people, if I have something to express, I will definitely do it, but for now I want to stay inside of myself. I'm afraid of the fact that there are thoughts that I will be alone, nobody needs. But this is the whole rally, that I will live only my feelings. And I will also remain one in the end, as if I actively communicate. Only in this case I spend a lot of energy on communication, and so I accumulate it, and I direct it to awareness. And from the fact that I devoted all my attention to myself, I had the energy to come up and find out the possible causes of pain in the joint, and options for joint repair are possible. When I was interested in the coach, I felt energy.
• At work, the situation is affected. In the team there is a guy who communicates with everyone except me. He is close to me in energy, in structure, I do not even know, but it's fun with him. I strive to communicate with him, but in response to ignoring, does not support communication. I notice my anger, resentment. I see that I take offense at my father, who did not communicate in any way. You have to work with your father. Seeing this transfer, it becomes easier, I release this person, I allow him to behave this way.
• I'm driving with my sister in the car, my head starts to hurt. Hunted down, that behind it there is a fear of rejection and loneliness, despair. It turns out that the life of my grandfather A., ​​whom I have never seen and do not know, but feelings similar to his life. When the father sends him to another town, he experiences rejection and loneliness, he has no one to rely on in this situation, a hopeless state, and he prefers to flee and after sitting in jail, the situation was so unbearable without any support , also I feel myself when there is no support from my sister. I go to life A. live feelings. I live a sense of loneliness, my head ceases to hurt.
• I. shows no acceptance of feelings of weakness, something did not work out, nervous, angry, everything throws. But the very thing that catches me, does not accept myself at this moment, can call myself humiliating words. Seeing his destructive behavior, I usually tell him to , he forgave himself, if something did not work out, no one thinks anything bad about you, I begin to awaken and lead to what needs to be confronted. Today she came by chance to school, he sits under the desk, cries, did not come out with origami. I approach the teacher, she explains that he alone reacts when something does not come out. I listen to the son's point of view on the situation: she did not help when he did not get. I notice that the state has manifested itself, I associate events with A., the feelings go to awareness, very key unnecessary, injustice. Rejection, Loneliness. I work with I., grandfather on my mother's line, after some states awakened, they do not give a rest to the sensation. I I. An inner kaleidoscope of non-acceptance of life. Anger, injustice, sadness, the thought that everything was taken away, and he became very weak. The hurt, not the consent with life, hard work, then what do not want to do at all, this moment echoes my life, for me work is also hard work, thoughts need a lot work to survive, live the experience of my grandfather, agree with the feelings. I feel how terrible it is to be free in his image. Having lived the fears of I., and realizing that as a result of hard labor, he met a fair-haired woman, Paradise, who without any conditions accepted him with all the "giblets". And realizing that he was evil, so his soul needs this experience. I accept, the ego agrees with a sense of weakness.
  

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