Issue 2. Spring-Summer Distance Games 2018.

Thursday 31 May, 2018

"Peace among rest is not true peace.
    Only when you find peace in motion,
    verily thou shalt comprehend the heavenly nature.
    Fun among the fun is not true joy.
    Only when you realize joy in sorrow,
   you will understand what the heart is living. "
                                                    (Hung Ziuchen).

This summary contains rallies played by players in the current period of distance games.
All players play at a good pace and have enough internal motivation in order to overcome the difficulties encountered in their path.
You have already noticed how an unshakable law of rhythm manifests itself in your game. After a period of activity comes a period of passivity, after a stormy experience comes a period of calm ... the desire is replaced by their absence. ... And you need to learn how to continue to play in different periods of life. Which is demonstrated by experienced players who do not merge with passive or active periods, but play.

Well, now we will go directly to the distance game:

At work, one of the customers very persistently wanted to prove to me her position ... she was observing the irritation, the destructive emotion of anger and the desire to condemn, the contraction in the body, the tension, saw in it a rally, realized who was angry, let all the feelings be ... observed, as my internal state and the state of the customer, taking the reality as it is. The buyer was satisfied with her purchase, and I am the Auspiciousness!
The situation occurred in a dream at night, I had a dream where some girl accused me that I can not go through a traumatic situation and that I'm not a spiritual person ... my condition was so calm ... usually in a dream I often reacted on the accusations of people, me in anything, the reaction of protection, the destructive emotion of resentment, pride flared up in me like a flame, this time waking up I felt full humility before the situation, then probably on the subconscious are the changes!
In the subway, I climb the escalator, in front of me the girl lit a cigarette, I understand that I can not go aside ... I watch myself an emotion of irritation and I want to condemn, the tendency of the mind to struggle with reality, the tension in my head turns on. I see the Game, I accept the Reality, I continue to observe, I have already overtaken the girl in the street, thanked the Consciousness for the opportunity to see my shadow side (desire to condemn, superiority, pride).
An ex-husband came, I watch for myself. I'm glad to see him, but he runs around, fusses, he looks for photos. Wrote a list of questions with which I need to deal with him. I tell him: the kettle was burned again, the plastic window, covered with scotch, does not open, I do not even want to argue with you, I'm sorry for the nerves. Z. so wonderingly asks: why? I say: I'm tired of understanding you. And he again: why? I can not, I'm no longer strong. Itself I am surprised to the feelings, any warm attitude or relation to it or him. I calmly ask: what did I do with it, and what about it? And he, as a child runs around the room. It's not like I think. It is not so important. My state, my perception of this situation is important. Consciousness through S.Z. teaches us not to focus on the things of the outside world. And now this state of calm and warmth, probably was the first time, when disassembled with it. It turns out that it is possible to find out the relationship with him that way. He bought me sweets and ran away, now he lives in a dispensary.
The whole day I worked at the dacha with such ecstasy, in nature. I talk with my sister's husband, he repeats one word all the time and repeats. I see, this word touches me, angers. And with what emotion he says it. Steam it throws away. I say softly: well, how much you can. And he replies: it means that he has not worked yet, he does not have to take patience. I gently say: why should I constantly hear this, I do not want to. Inside, I track what annoys me. The husband of the sister with some kind of ecstasy continues this word and goes after me. Here I begin to see the game of Consciousness. I gently say: Well, again, why do you need this word, why do you pollute your speech, you can bring into your life the consequences of the meaning of this word. He continues to insert this word into his speech. And played. He did not manage to make me angry. I just watched already how I was provoked. I did not fall for you this time Consciousness. Hee hee hee.
Came by S.Z. home. I say: what's with your hair? Ugly look. How hard I tell him, he does not react. Leaves and comes back bald and completely without a beard. Absolutely different face. I say: why did you do this, you just had to cut your hair and beard a little. He, it turns out, also someone said that he does not follow the hair. He decided to cut his hair bald. Caught myself for pity. So he, still in this guise went to be photographed on the driver's license. I say: you will not be recognized in the certificate if you grow a beard and hair again. Upset. And suddenly I see: it does not really bother him. Why does it bother me that I am suffering. The game of Consciousness. What I choose. I change the attitude to this situation. There is no reason for pity. Consciousness constantly shows where I brake.
Were at the cottage today. I watched the game of the care of Consciousness about me. I was going to attend a lecture. And at the dacha we stayed. So my sister never worried about me, like today, that I'll be late. She hurried me and hurried me. And then she said: you have to be taken there, otherwise you'll be late. Simply miracles. And my sister's husband treated me all day with such respect. He says: I tell my friends: I have such a clever sister. Unusually, they did not say that before. They took me to a lecture. But I know that Consciousness in all good and in all the "bad" that happens to me leads me.
In the hospital in the registry, I asked the doctor which office I needed - she responded sharply in a boorish manner, I felt resentment, anger, a lump in my chest, thoughts - once more they were rudely humiliated) humiliation, injustice. Humiliation is the fear of death. not justice-senselessness. The belief that it should not be so. I saw the rally in this situation resigned and did not become rude, calmly moved away crouched on the couch, a few minutes later the doctor approached and surprisingly politely continued to communicate with me.
I went through a medical examination-the polyclinic was going on for a long time, there were a lot of people and had to drive a few days. Finally, only the conclusion remains to be done. I stood for about 2 hours, went to the reception and after talking to the doctor it turned out that I do not have one more document, the presence of which was not specified in the requirements. I just started to boil (I wanted to smash the whole cabinet), I started arguing with the doctor. He felt anger, injustice, a lump in the chest and stomach, thoughts - so it should not be - where the truth in life, meaningless. In general, I got involved and did not realize the drawing. I went to seek the truth to the head physician, to prove my case. He began to realize later, when he left the hospital.
I was on the road after meeting with E. Thought of parting, the inability to be near more often. That E. left. He has his own life, other meetings. Sadness. Envy and jealousy of all his surroundings. Little time were together ... And then! Everything has changed! Consciousness has expanded. There came the realization that everything is everywhere. I am one. I have no meetings and partings. A silent boundless whole. The illusion of everything. What jealousy and envy - to whom? I am the flow of LOVE! Only I - the invisible all organizing the immortal doer! And this doer - not affected by anything and no one. It's been a while. The experience of experiencing myself is WHO I AM.
The device has deteriorated. We need a new one. I went to choose. Fear of error. Not the one I will choose. G. said that I do not need to spend money. Talking to him is a scandal. The trend - you can not swear. I realize who I am. Whoever I am is indifferent - swearing - so swearing, screaming - so scream.
I picked up the device in one company. Expensive. I went to another firm - I chose. Cheaper. Who is afraid of losing money? Consciousness, identified with the character. The one who knows that everything is temporary, does not own anything. You do not own anything. Everything will happen as it happens. The main thing is to trust. No expensive - cheap. I purchased the device more expensive. The one who I am - everything that happened - everything is right.
In the morning in practice, I "checked" myself for fear of losing money and having "big" money on the account. An automatic reaction is present: it gives to the head, slight dizziness, tension along the body in the shoulders and neck. Thought: if you lose, it means begging and loss of life. If a lot of money - they will take not only them, but life as well. Transformation: Vivid vision and disunity, awareness: nothing can take life apart from Life itself. Losses are just experience, part of life and there is no need to give them more weight than they are: coming and going to nowhere flow. Ease ... Lechuuuu .... So I hear the words of Rama: Life teaches detachment.
What will happen to me if I lose everything? (on this sat three days). What happens to me if I have a large amount of money in my bank account? (I'm still sitting here). Since the output is the same, I describe. On the paternal side from his mother's side, my great-great-grandfather was dekulakized, exiled to Siberia, where he died. His son, my great-grandfather, was dispossessed, put in prison, he fled, hid and committed suicide, stabbed himself. The wave of fear covers the strong, it is expressed in a giddiness and "brains that think hard". Loss of everything: status, homeland, family, freedom, life. And because of what? Because of good work and getting results, in the form of wealth. The program of the clan: it's better to be a beggar (survive), but do not stick out if you want to live. So you have to squeeze yourself so hard that the brain does not even think and come up with something that can make a rich ... Strongly spoke the central vertebra. It aching like a blow. Strong fear, go deeper, fear of losing life - fear of losing the "I" ... Identification: it's just a memory, an idea, a bubble. My "I" now is this bubble. I choose to believe in this? No...
The situation: the sale and the opening of a new business. Stresses in the head (like a hoop) are steadily activated, sometimes the central vertebra starts to ache, vibrations in anahata are weak. Variables: Dizziness, pulsations in places of shaking. The desire to receive approval and support in this situation (ex-husband). Role: a little girl, for which you have to decide something. The motive is to avoid destruction. Fear of loneliness. Thought: if I go against, then I will be crushed and destroyed. Therefore, you need to fulfill his (other's) goals in the first place. And follow their established rules ... The key point, awareness: whose goal do you fulfill? The fear of being "at large", the fear of freedom when going beyond the boundaries of self (as learned patterns of behavior). The result of the transformation: awareness of the program and relief of gravity in anahata. The source of support is within me.
I was given a subscription to the sports club. I heard that there is a "hamam" in their branches. And I got caught ... I was already thinking there, a rally: it was not there. Then I notice the one who started to show signs of disappointment. I pass right away the state of sadness. I live feeling. And I'm acting outside. I go to simulators, choose sports programs, I note what coach is caring and sociable, and the only thing that I feel is Thankfulness. For such a gift from Consciousness. Plus, at our house, the hot water has been turned off (for a month cleaning works) so there I also get in under hot water. Thank you. Also the practice of shifting the assembly point (not dissatisfied, but affable, sociable and very grateful).
Playing the game, I saw how I blocked the clouds of fear, the Sun inside, the natural joy that now began to be felt inside more and more, manifested by the smile of Consciousness, when the fog of Creation occurs, when I, separating myself from myself. The Law of Pure Potential has shown in me an understanding that I am a field of infinite possibilities and creative possibilities, that through me the potentiality of Consciousness is manifested. Traced, calculated, that subtle moment of identification that sat in me, believing that the Spirit exists for everyone, that everyone lives in relation to their reality, that everyone has his own life and I act out of his manifestation, sharing the Pure Consciousness. So, I was finely identified and limited myself in the manifestation of an infinite and unlimited Consciousness. To whom, was it convenient? Person who, from ignorance, defended herself and fled from reality, so as not to experience the fear of death of loneliness, freedom, meaninglessness. Now the moment of realization has come, and I understand that the Spirit is One for all the characters, because I am this Pure Consciousness that plays through me, my own Game ...
Thanks to the methods of meditation practice, the inner work is not condemnation, not the evaluation of others-yourself. Of course, the way of not evaluating, not judging, happens to block the Sun inside. I see it when there is a pause of hovering in my thoughts, a false force, just skipping and directing attention to the source inside, correlating with myself-the Spirit. I realized that I was not very much in nature, I started to walk in the park, my mother in my house, to meditate on the street and feel the manifestation of this endless, unlimited space, going beyond the mind, gaining strength. And if to be frank now, it pains the mind with such illusion, wearing a mask to be perfect, a good student. I go in fear and admit that yes I, just wanted to do so, but did not. Here it is a game, here and now, I recognize myself as weak and happy, that there is Knowledge and I can be different. I feel the lightness and smile of Consciousness. Everything is from the manifestation of the Pure Consciousness-the Spirit. I'm playing ...