Diary of the Remote Third Winter Games. Issue 2.

Monday 12 January, 2015

Prayer ...

Greetings of the reality in which

all the elements and all the living and nonliving

creatures appear as if by themselves

itself, to which they awhile

exist and which then returns ...

In the absolute sense, nothing is ever born, not created, not destroyed. The manifestation of the visible universe in relative peace has an illusory act of the dual mind.

Visible energy of the universe appear gratuitously.

The visible universe is a play of the Absolute, it is unmotivated, spontaneous play demonstration.

Master and pupil.

No mindless obedience or servile devotion

 It is not required by the student. What you need - the Spirit limit

  sincerity and total dedication Way. Limiting

  the sincerity of the student and dedication generate resonance with

  Spirit Masters .. Going into resonance with the Spirit of the Master,

the pupil is entitled to seize gifts

  Boundless.

Meanwhile, the players the Remote Third Winter Games, passed the mark of the second game.

As participants played the day before and in the middle of the main holiday of the year, read in this release.

Pay attention to the fact that all celebrations reinforce the duality of reality, clearly dividing it on holidays and weekdays. For the players there is no difference, he sees the game soporific consciousness. For him, every day a holiday :)

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Morning meditation at the beginning of so many thoughts flew, as if a hurricane, then began to hold the attention on the nasolabial triangle and listen to your breath. Then again, the thought, the mind, dialogue, back again. And then several times.

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In the evening, meditation was fun after work. First, the moral fatigue felt as if I was in some cocoon web, but after meditation this web decreases and becomes a feeling of lightness, of dissolution, something occurred to me.

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The timer is not rung and I have been meditating for 40 minutes. And the most interesting thing is that my legs are not numb and I felt them !!!

After the meditation was the state of calm equilibrium. And do during the day somehow went well, even in places where I did not expect.


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Previously, I had plans for the day, for a week. Now I no longer do it, because all that zaplaniruesh rarely obtained. Plans changed on the fly. Now I do not. I trust the universe, what would it be and goes. I try not to resist.

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During the day I keep attention on the breath of the nose, it turns out, but not always, some kind of a situation gone. And more one becomes aware of what it means to be free. It is not afraid to say, do not be afraid to express themselves, do not be afraid to go and do. Just do not be afraid that someone you condemn or laugh at you. When I feel this state of freedom is high. But I just touch this, a lot of fears.

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Tuning in to the area nosogubya breath I realized the moment came to me the images, color ball spinning, tuned to the breath leaving the body weightless sit still easy, comfortable and pleasant state did not want to go out with this practice, but not much time passed .Zhelanie .I live Here and now.

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The fear of rejection and the feeling of dullness clearly got out, I started to defend the voice grew louder, he went home I stayed progulyatsya.Osoznala what was the lottery, I'd forgotten who identify ya.Pechal, depression, vina.Ya blamed herself for being rude because He said: "No need to go for a walk if you're not ready to enjoy!", even though I have not been able to enjoy a stroll.

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The theater went to warm up drinking tea, suited Santa Claus tell poem or a song, get a prize, the daughter refused my body ached, and a sense of shame, anxiety, but I said, "Well, I'll sing" When the I sing I had goose bumps and mood rose, joy (many times these have been situations where I refused).

***

I notice that it has become better navigate the signs that occur each den.Schityvat information with others manage and monitor yourself will become.

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The draw was that to call the seller and say that I changed my mind to purchase. It was exciting, normally express their position is not going on about not being guided by the views of others that the time chosen must be taken, etc. I called the seller and told it like it is, that a snowmobile does not fit the parameters. He listened to me and fully agreed, without a trace of resentment in his voice (that's what I'm afraid). He offered to return the money, a pledge that I left him. My heart was calm and happy for their freedom!

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In the evening after skiing covered, state of apathy, meaninglessness, begin to climb in the idea that it is a punishment for something. Keep track of them, sitting on the bed watching the mind is trying to find a way out of the situation, explains the past and the future, to escape into the external, observe, know that there is nothing but silence does not help. After 3 hours, releases.

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Today, increased distance for jogging. At the beginning feel resistance, the cells resist the route goes uphill. After some time, the retractor, watching the thoughts in my head - they are all about snowmobiling, about his parents, about the next days. What is the cause of these conversations, why not get to dive into the process and enjoy the present moment, the work of the muscles of the body and why thoughts bounce back somewhere in the future, which does the ski, ski and forest around is not connected. Fortunately, the body begins to drag the attention on himself, trying to watch the breath, it's not easy to do - the head is cast iron. Inside someone resists. Then one day everything calms down and I begin to hear the creaking of the snow, feel the frosty air, see the trees around in my head set relative silence. I enjoy riding!

***

Today I was very ill, poisoned. But of course all this is not accidental. Standing above the toilet I saw I do not accept myself ... to nausea to vomiting. I (d) came up with what I should be, and the belief from childhood, my mother's words, "this will be, will do so, I will not love you and no one will." I hid, wore a mask, but life creates situations where I manifested as impossible the notion of my character. I saw to what extent my strong conviction. And I felt the love and affection of consciousness or life, this energy enveloped me and I saw myself as though from the outside and felt her, I saw how the characters have a terrible fear of rejection, worthlessness, destruction. And in fact, the only love everywhere. Now I understand.

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 But it's not me. I am a friend, I love the ease and playfulness, and and other things that I feel. Through the crack in the boulder oozes light, it is becoming more intense and that's a block of crumbling, the light breaks out and fills all around. It is music, a dance, it's a game.

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Once had a dream, very nice, I was flying, a lot of colors, greens, sun. I woke up with a feeling of delight.The next day, I dreamed of war, even a war, but for some crazy, people burned people alive, men raping women. I watched it all from the outside, without a body, and from above, but I saw all the details. People unknowingly acted under the influence of fear or something then, it seemed that they did not understand what they are doing. The vision and understanding of all caused pechal.Vse passes and some feelings are replaced by others.

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I saw the draw in the other, to enable a person to solve his problem. And I allowed myself to leave everything as is. Once I calmed down, consciousness is allowed. The feeling of flight.

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I still have memories that parents loved me infinitely. Even when they divorced, I felt like every one of them loves me. I remember when my mother and I saw the last time, six months before her departure, she told me:

- Life is so short, as if the door was opened, that you came in, you just made a move, and are waiting to close the door behind you.

I objected, saying:

 - You've already lived 83 years old, it really is only a step?

 Yes is only a step. And we are so mindlessly spend time.

All told me my mother is very common with the code of the warrior.

***

I resist the erasure of its history. Dwarf whispers, "You're such a good fellow, sweetly slept for most of his life, and now it is necessary to wash it, it hurts terribly and you have no power - complete meaninglessness." The answer is, not very strongly, to persuade themselves and not to oppose the dwarf, "I am a warrior, for fear of life has prepared a gift and therefore, I now have all you need in order to get it."

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Watching heaviness in his right side (anger, betrayal, loneliness). When else have such feelings, and what are the memories float - that is spontaneous living. And now, suddenly I was 4-5 years old, I'd like to pick me up from kindergarten dad, he assigned me to the garden. And take not come. Lied! Always like this. Over the years, I know he worked, went on business trips, back, always late to hotels. Dad somehow always managed to get lost under my control (betrayal), he seemed to me so irresponsible liar. Yes, on the weekends we went to the movies together, to cartoons, to the museum. I do not enjoy, because I knew he would bring me to the gate and disappeared on her way, fear of loneliness, because one day it will disappear at all, it will not. That's another story erased, heaviness in his side, no longer so heavy.

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And suddenly, in his behavior, I clearly saw my father, he did, he did, and I blame him, years later, she came even more sophisticated. What an amazing story written life, laying the foundation early in life, in childhood. How it all suddenly changed places. Do not judge ye be judged! Do not give estimates, everything happens as happening. Mentally, I am sorry dad and let him go with love and gratitude. As the body spreads warmth.

After practice, I wanted to apologize to the husband, he was not surprised, he said: "Who am I? God will forgive".

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When else I experienced such feelings? I am 11 years old, I was at a party, I really like kulonchik girls, I goschu. I simply take and put himself in a handbag. Come home kulonchiki there, I realized I was exposed, kulonchik girl quietly took out my purse, I'm a thief, burning shame. And do not take an oath or anything of others. Some very funny story, all in silence, without a word - I took, I took, and many experiences.

***

What is my game this season? Qualitatively erased the history of life. Maybe I have become stale? No, I have become wise, because now it was all good, and the past experience is not necessary.

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It's late son calls and voice objection does not require that he needed one thing that he is now urgently needed. I want to go look for her, stop! so I always do - "No" - I say, "I do not remember where it is, if you want this thing, you will find the time you come and look together." It is not strange, the son did not object, he said good night. My game is not-doing.

***

Watching the body fatigue, a lot was done, let it be fatigue.

I allow myself to be tired and cheerful, to be a liar and be crystal honest. Being healthy and diseased, and hiccup fart, joke out of place to place to look ridiculous and great, not steamed about the past and the future. I was just there, and the world around me just is. Moment you well in the next instant groans sick husband, I tensed. Let the groans, it will be bad pozovet- relax. Next moment of silence, thoughtless and a ticking clock. The thoughtlessness much power, why, because this is the moment of now. Then piled thought different and so much, and be not resisted, no one did not have time to think. I was lost for a moment in reality or reality. Very interesting state, let it all be. After practicing with fatigue was gone ..

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I did not like a woman Dunya her it was urgent, and there was no goodies, all the, all naturalnoe.U it was the room where hung, every morning, she lit the lamp and prayed. I really wanted to go there, I looked at the icons and saw something that God smiles at me, an icon, as if spoken to me. Where did my headache, I felt so warm, it was love for me. Then I told Baba Duns that Bozhenka talking, she just said - I know.

I was a child a woman Dunya condemned for her manner of food, and now aspire to it. And I wonder how it all had the strength, not in vain with her dear God spoke.

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I am drawn into the wind the weaving thoughts and, more worrying .Razdalsya doorbell. I'm going to open, but no one was there, immediately comes awareness, the sign! Stop! And what I do now! I sleep in my mind, and chewing unconsciously driving experience that has already occurred. Switches to the creative process, recalling the motto "accept everything as it is and forget!". I accept the experience, do analiz.Pishu in electronic diaries and not in a notebook, I see the game of consciousness, I accept it as is.

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Mom came to visit ... I see that merges into the weak thought, starting to regret, to delve into the process, to agree to say yes. Inside sounds STOP! and I'm beginning to see, I see, my mother immediately switches to another topic and joy, I realize how much we want to hear, and to be a victim, then we get this energy .Da, simple and it really works!

***

I notice that the inspiration to cook a delicious dinner, and yesterday it (inspiration) was not at all (stir feelings of guilt). Remembered Code. All experiences from the source, and not a matter of the player. Included vision and my character with inspiration prepares dinner.

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I welcome the two women conversing peacefully. Sitting side by side, I could not help hearing that the conversation is about adult children, grandchildren, then smoothly flows to the events of past years, significantly increasing degree. The conversation went policy, compared with the Soviet years, etc. And thank Consciousness and himself for the fact that it shows, and I can see how consciousness lulls and characters spend their energy on something that no longer exists! And I'm over it again and again have to work, it was too strong habit to discuss everything. But for now hold on.

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Conclude how little we - the girls themselves nezhim. Happy woman radiates love for many kilometers ...

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No matter what events, thoughts, feelings, sensations - all manifestations of relative reality. The illusion, it is changing every moment. Whew, energy abounds! And I am glad for his friends. That's all I have, to show them. Feel gratitude - through relative truth, I know the absolute truth - just be.

***

I missed. Suddenly my idleness passed into service.

Looking at the table and around it I had a wild desire to tidy up. I began to tidy, was fascinated by the process, it brought me great pleasure. At the end of the dishes washed and wiped the floor. The house became clearer, as in my heart :)

The draw was to quietly observe the boredom. Do not attempt to remove it and allow it to be consciousness itself has opened the opportunity to act - and to the benefit of the people themselves)

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The drawing is lost: unimpressed, and has not been able to return to a conscious state. Again, looking guilty, I do not look at myself, accelerate time and again lived in the future.

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I turn the radio, eating in silence, you can hear just how the stove and then I find an interesting point - I see the car go as people go, I see ahead on the horizon as the morning sun shines - it is still a sleepy, colorful. All this action takes place in silence, as if all this is not real, as if I was in the toy city, because there is no sound. And the soul - joy, the joy of seeing, nor the music does not need, nor the interlocutors. Happiness is what you can ignore all this.

***

I missed. Suddenly my idleness passed into service.

Looking at the table and around it I had a wild desire to tidy up. I began to tidy, was fascinated by the process, it brought me great pleasure. At the end of the dishes washed and wiped the floor. The house became clearer, as in my heart :)

The draw was to quietly observe the boredom. Do not attempt to remove it and allow it to be consciousness itself has opened the opportunity to act - and to the benefit of the people themselves)

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The drawing is lost: unimpressed, and has not been able to return to a conscious state. Again, looking guilty, I do not look at myself, accelerate time and again lived in the future.

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I turn the radio, eating in silence, you can hear just how the stove and then I find an interesting point - I see the car go as people go, I see ahead on the horizon as the morning sun shines - it is still a sleepy, colorful. All this action takes place in silence, as if all this is not real, as if I was in the toy city, because there is no sound. And the soul - joy, the joy of seeing, nor the music does not need, nor the interlocutors. Happiness is what you can ignore all this.

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Each seemingly sad events can be removed joy can, if you play when you realize what is happening and herself. Because each event teaches us to see, in every event I have. And thank you for this gift, and rejoice that life is open to you.

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After reading "The Code of the Warrior", I understand that very often seated in the position of the victim. "The Code of the Warrior" shook me, and I suddenly remembered Who I Am. Just Shrugged, the energy flowed through the body, there are forces. And the victim, immediately blew, there was a manifestation of the responsibility for yourself in life.

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My belief: It should not be, it's not fair.

What is my game this season? What a feeling I do not want to live? Weakness, injustice, rejection. Fear of being alone. I live, let be injustice, weakness in the body, rejected.

The energy flowed in the body of the force there, shoulders straight.

The new belief; So, too, can be.

Understanding that I have come here with these feelings unlived.

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During practice working on conviction. All condemning dissatisfied swept spontaneously, for which both condemned and denounced. Lived conviction, he resigned, and gave such freedom! No one! This space! Greatness! Infinity.

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From these shots rained in abundance. When I want to intervene in the event, I remind - What gift and who organized these drawings. I - Consciousness-very great plays with herself! It is very interesting to watch and see the game. Ha ha! Wakes up!

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Today, there were jokes, which I usually "sagged", trying to be a good grandmother and mother. First daughter said she was tired and did not want to decorate the Christmas tree, and then his son - that I have my own business and I do not go to the supermarket. I usually nothing they do not refuse, regardless of their status and well-being. But I drew attention to the fact that they accepted it is okay, that it is my "cockroaches," I'm afraid to hurt them from the fear of loneliness.

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Very he chastised her. She lost the rally outright. Later, unable to stop and see a trend of rejection of life. Again, I know better how to live to whom and how to be.

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All day I meditating, crying again meditate. When I take the loneliness comes surrender, yes, this is my way. It is only necessary to take it and the character, bearing in mind that nothing of it depends only game Consciousness. While the character is "pounding" in these passions, the viewer realizes that it's just a thought, imagination mind.

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 What emotion I block? JOY! As it is ridiculous to block joy. My obligation and beliefs, what should be the reality does not give to relax and stay in the present moment.

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The dwarf what it is: an arrogant, greedy, all the attention should be paid only to his person.

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It is becoming easier, but more importantly not sleep, because the consciousness will check. Due to the game I am starting to go back to reality. My aversion diverted into the world of dreams and not give notice the world around. I kept waiting for some global lotteries, and little things do not notice. And, it's all there right now, no need to go anywhere. This is just a code of hunter - all important any event.

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I write these lines, and goose bumps on the hands and feet. That damn ... Well, I love the mind ... He loves and cares ... It protects and guides. How much time will it take me to something to stop resisting, stop fighting with windmills, and finally give up !!! Here again, criticism of itself. The answer is simple, and as always: for as long as necessary. Lord, how well have fun. I began to hear GAME !!! She says to me often. I just do not always hear it. Well, it is the totality of all naashe !!! I will try. Crafty playful mind ... And what's next ???? Very interesting what will happen tomorrow ...

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My daughter sat at the table and quietly wept. Why are you crying? - I asked. I see myself, she said. As I am rude to you unfairly and hurt you. I felt sad and a strange feeling came inside. An unpleasant chill. I realized that it is my mirror. My eternal claim to my mom. Not so loved, little attention is paid, do not talk to me, I do not comforted when I needed. But if things were different, I would be happier. Forgive me mother, that I need you, just such a mother, I chose you for what you and I so it is very necessary. Everything whatever you did or did not say .. That's what I need !!! The main thing to remember this lesson well. Everything that happens to me very very very I NEED !!!

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Suddenly I get a message from one of the employees. He congratulated me and throws a small movie. Here she plays. I've been tormented with the fact that I constantly falls off u-tube, and then well, just like clockwork, I watch videos without a jamb. There's a group of Leningrad and the song "Road" where all the songs are sung mat "ehay on h..y" this is congratulations !!! I laughed a Homeric laughter. So congratulate my arrogance simply contrive. But there was a lot of fun and I was grateful for the game that saw the arrogance that now was not involved and I do not feel insulted or humiliated. It's just a joke. So rejoice consciousness. Who am I - consciousness. Where I am? Here. When? Now! What to do? Fun herself !!! Amazing !!!

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Today was driving and thought that I was thinking more about the game than the game.

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And just start watching Comes soothed and calmed my guys are going to work out well and that all sots.seti then applauded! ............. But the strength is not the point: I realized how important it is to stay - and realize razotozhdestvitsya it is necessary to you, and do not try to resist - do not make unnecessary movements and let things flow ... SIMPLY

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The victim wants to regret it ((((And all this "eats" at a breakneck pace my strength! ALL: STOP !!!! ask why this situation has given me? To my mind that you have to live? The soul needs this experience and I let the victim be and begin to perceive it as a problem today ...

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She burst into tears and hung up! GUILT covered me! I came home and roared into the pillow! But the interesting thing was during sobs (have not cried, or rather not howling!) Disidentify happened at a time when I began to howl. I was separated from the body and knew deep down that there is nothing wrong with this all: it was FEELING THE SPIRIT! Spirit like watching those who are howling and howling rejoiced A SOUL! She needed this situation; She suffered))), and it seemed to me enjoy it: I regret regret))) when the whole situation so dec: There will come a calm! Of course the body has finalized: immediately after the hysteria manifested runny nose; which took place two days later by itself (came out of nowhere and went to nowhere) In the new year we have fun talking about it, and even m. did not hold grudges and recriminations

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Over 2 gameness I did attempt to investigate the resistance to do the practice. Here, even in the course of the study encounter resistance. Thread analysis breaks, I fall asleep, or to switch to another ...

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 I decided that we should not succumb to these whims of others and make a holiday for yourself, the mood is created only by the person and need to do something.

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The following days trying not to think about, not to assess

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Turf Vision fascination some involvement in the case and the emotions and feelings .. then make out what was the game. Only after the event ...

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Generally somehow poorly played game. There was no inspiration or excitement.

Even on the eve of holidays and sick.

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The pain intensified, the pain was sharp, cutting, encircling and pressing on the diaphragm, breathing was difficult. 20 minutes of time, but when he felt the deterioration - in the words of the children turned blue lips and pale face - drank the pill and allowed to call an ambulance. Waiting for the ambulance, I lived the fear of death, seeing how frightened children tried their uspokoit.V this situation, I relied on the external force? Yes. It is also trying to control things, whereas in critical situations have to be in the flow and hear the world (the children offered to call an ambulance, I stopped).

Usually every year the second game falls on New Year's Day. For some, there is no interference in the game, and some lulls manifestations of maya. Anyway, at the level of the second game already, a group of players stretched. While some participants played the third game, the players still see out the second game ...

Wind 26 points - 90% of the return game

Volcano 23 ballov- 90% return game

Flower 22 points - 75% of the return game

          ...

closes the game in this game three of the players:

Aura 6 points - 70% of the return game

Lotus 5 points - 70% of the return game

Wanderer 4 points - 40% of the return game

The article is in the status of (the game passed) ..


Meditation - this is not to sit in an uncomfortable position, staring at the wall to the end of days.

Meditation - it is life itself ...

All that is done consciously - is meditation, any action that shed light Awareness becomes meditative, and therefore truly happy, sincere, fresh, deep and beautiful ...

Meditate :)

With love, life.

  



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