News release approaching mid-distance games and is already in the past 5 games. Players "gaining momentum", everyone in the game, each at their own level of consciousness.

In the game it is important to remember all that one day you forget, however, said it best in the lines of the song:

I once forgot that I - God, and of course, I forgot that you - too.

I tried, but could not remember why we're so much alike.

I forgot all that about: we've come up with something yourself.

However, mentally we created a vicious circle, to wander under the heavens.

And I pick up the guitar and flying in that region, where I live after life.

In God I do not believe God I know is he came up with all my thoughts, all my thoughts are unthinkable.

I forgot that there will be a court. And that, in principle, the Court is not possible. And that way all who came here - endless, beautiful and complex.

And as a reward for all this nonsense, I suddenly remembered that I - celestial.

And imagine that every director and actor and prompter, and of course the audience.

I once forgot that I - God ...

 And now, on how the players played draws strength in the fifth game.

· From these words, I had a feeling of guilt, I began to play. Just a game that is not the doer, so wanted to mind is why something happened. I accept myself the one that can make a mistake, there is fear of punishment, I accept myself bad, I can be bad in the eyes of others. It becomes easier from when I allow myself to be bad, yes, I'm bad, not attentive ...

· ... And that in the period of preparation for the exhibition, I again met him, he, too, there was, I feel that I want to talk with him, but my fear is not given, now simply have the courage to invite him to the event, which will carry our company . I do not even so important he will or not, the main thing I have to step over his jaws, I did not act, and through me the action is more did not call it.

· I go and see that I was afraid of rejection, but in fact it is, I reject itself. I began to play in this situation, began to accept myself, the image in my head that I do not like. I walked down the street and noticed that I already like what I look like. It is understood that you need to love yourself this way I am, I will not fall in love with the outside, if I do not accept itself and do not like. I will not indulge in the trend - to direct attention to others on the outside and expect them to love.

· Very powerful I - consciousness felt and felt during meditation presence, when I went to the pain, a great experience. Consciousness has sent a request, pleasant feelings associated with what? Watching the process during meditation, I felt like the right foot went numb, began to track down, but realized that it is now a reality, I just watched the process. Initially, the pain spread to all body pricked everywhere was unbearable, I continued to watch, began nausea, body to turn out, I continued to breathe, knowing yourself here and now felt irritation, aware that pleasant illusion, reality is here and now, that may occur so all my mind enveloped vibration messed up body and feelings and thoughts, I watched the process, remember this experience, was the first personal meeting with Rama, where the character was weak and could hardly stand it. This further gives strength, that I can just watch and take it as it is.

· I see weakness in men, there are unpleasant sensations in the body, clenching the jaw, grin, tension in the chest, feeling of self-pity, resentment, anger, thinking that you can give me, but you do not know how, you do not have so much money, why I need you, I'll manage without you. I realize that they have displayed for me. That in itself I do not take a man, accusing, belittling, rejecting. Opposing itself. I got you, you got me. Track down the fear of men, that they may cause pain, feeling of chest pressure, palpitations, anxiety, thought he was evil, it is unknown what can be expected from him, aware of myself, razotozhdestvlyayus. I play.

· Manifest gift - I Am is in the variety. Unity Self-Consciousness. Gifts given to live, to be, to love, to give, to receive, to give, to feel, to feel, to laugh, to cry, to play, to create

· Usually, if a meal on the train, then take your tickets to the women's compartment with services, all quiet and comfortable. At this time I decided to keep track of what's okay if I will take in the reserved seat. It is terrible that men are caught. So what? What can they "stink", "drunk" or "stick." I bought a ticket in economy class. Of course, complete the coupe caught only males. And it was not so bad))). And even sometimes fun. Before H. everyone was asleep and a little "stink" and quickly got used to good night's sleep. A to H. came across a very interesting company, Krischnait (tried to preach the Veda), grandfather - "retsedevist" (with lots of life experience told in the area of ​​customs, both lowered and killed people, then as recently killed his grandson), and a third man, quiet, peaceful ogorodnik- fisherman, "henpecked" and lover of purring cats. That's life showed me a variety of its manifestations. It passed the acceptance of all the characters with little otsenochkami and then no ... Just so there!

· Once frozen, it ceased to perceive, and cringed skukozhilas, pay attention to it and did not resist, but cringed, but so, too, is, the extension, contraction. Just there. Then he sat in the car and looking out to sea, saw the expectation that we will go and saw the one who waits for and it's not me, and it is passed, it is again an extension, I wanted to leave the car and walk to the water. The sea washed mussels alive, and I started to throw it back into the sea, and wave it again and again and threw out the last time I was throwing it around and went to the car whether it will be easy.

· And last evening there was a state of meditation, as if I came out of the body and disappeared into space, the body does not, and I merge with vibrating and flowing space. This went on for quite a while, and when she returned to the body, it was very, very bad that I opened my eyes to see how much time and almost immediately the music began about the end of meditation. After that someone was in my throat, just unable to speak as if afraid of spilling something precious.

• When you go to sleep there was a claim to the reality that the lights are on and others do not lie. I watch it and blurts out, but people just behave as they want and it does not mean that such behavior they express disrespect for others.

· Sell very tasty biscuits such as "Twix". Of course, I could not resist and bought. First it - delicious, pleasant on the tongue, I eat second. Also the word "delicious" and excessive salivation can not tell where and what I feel. Eat a third - I split in two, one half (body) shouted "stop, you can not be bad," another (my wily dwarf) - "they are so small, one more and all." This is the temptation, to which it is difficult to resist, that bind from which you want to get rid of. Rest of the day I tried not mad at myself and take my weakness, and pain in the liver and pancreas.

· When going slowly, always go into a meditative state, and at this moment I have often happens understanding and awareness of some of my life experiences. Today, more attention should be directed to the feeling of your feet while walking. It turned out that this is not easy. Warning periodic maintenance or hearing, or in thought. Noticing this, just walk back to the process.

· Looked at me arrogantly from poluulybochkoy defiant face. At the same moment he raised a wave of anger and I grabbed him by the throat with his right hand. Immediately including observers and loosened my hand, not letting him squeeze. The anger immediately vanished somewhere, I turned and walked away.

· Recently, I feel like I'm losing control, I feel that nothing can control. My attitude and feeling changes. Not towards the pleasant or unpleasant, exciting, or some "magic", it just becomes another, and I can not describe in words in any way. I realize that all I need to do-is to give does not control and do not resist. Just surrender. I give as I can, but even then, I give up or not, I have ceased to bother. :)

· I see that every statement, every concept has a place to be or not to be. Any statement can be broken down or justify, to find a lot of arguments for and against. What I say important for me at the moment. But it's the same cease to be relevant over time. All of my spiritual beliefs, the truth, which I opened, after some time, undergo changes. And what I just wrote, it is also just the words coming out of my mind and all this has ceased to have for me any value.

· In such conditions a bit difficult to write me, I can spend a long time in front of the computer, as it does not come that I would like to describe. But this is not "negative" status, it's just a different state than it was usually me before.

· You can only accept the reality, in an attempt to escape from it, the mind creates a new reality, removing pain and suffering, but in a new reality soon as the peace and quiet gives way to chaos and anxiety. One pain is replaced by another, but that the pain does not cease to be a pain. The pain can not be removed, the only way - to accept and live. Adoption of the reality at the moment of disharmony necessarily lead to harmony, leaving the result in only the joy and warmth.

Stability in the vision draws players as expressed through resistance in the discipline, observation and the ability to analyze.

And traditionally the top three players with a high degree of impact the game:

Volcano -90%

Joke -90%

Isis -80%

To be continued...

The Leela.