Diary of the 5th Winter Games remotely. Game 4.

Thursday 12 January, 2017

Prayer…
Greetings of the reality in which all elements
  and all living and non-living beings appear as if
by themselves, where they awhile
  exist and which then return ...


Some players have already completed the game in the fourth game. At this time, like running a marathon, participants began the game at a time, spread out over a distance of games and everyone plays according to their level of personal power.

 
Every year, on the Remote Winter Games, New Year's holidays are a natural test for all participants, as are a soporific effect of Rajas. Like the firing area firing at a distance in the biathlon, New Year holidays, the players were divided according to the level of personal power in the game.

Remember that distance game is different from other rallies forces Leela Academy, that requires participants to continuous play for 2.5-3 months.

The game has no consciousness breaks on weekends and holidays - it tirelessly playing with inexhaustible creativity, every moment.

This summary contains examples of game players of different levels (Hunter, warrior, missionary, shapeless player).

The ability to play, is inherent in each of us.

Learn to play the examples ...

Game - is a part of your inner being.

All enlightened reduced to one opinion, that everything that happens is nothing else than the game of consciousness with itself, where the key word for us - is a GAME!

 
Play the game and one day will lead you to the mystery of life !!!

On how the players played the fourth game, check out this roundup.


   Not satisfied, who wants to? Ego. I see someone who wants to, he feels offended and reject unnecessary. Watching, razotozhdestvlyayus and I understand that I do not need a husband is a good cook and likes to do it, but I have time to do themselves and granddaughter.


     Houses a lot of people for several days, vanity, a desire to get away somewhere. The need in the comfort of your holiday a little self-preservation instinct. Who needs it? The ego, the personality. This activity is the creating or destroying? I think this is my (ego) dark reaction to some people. Razotozhdestvlyayus, watch and see how ego and separateness is closed. I am not the ego, I opened (there is nobody to defend) and feel the love.


      I am watching a movie, watching the ego. Dual monitoring for some. The film is again important for me. Need ego security, survival instinct. I see how ego get used to the image on the screen, a storm of emotions. Razotozhdestvlyayus. The game is on the screen, so similar to the game of life. I understand that there is no safety anywhere, with the ego point of view, nor in those ancient times, not now, now everything is covered up, glossed over the illusions. Everything happens in a certain maelstrom around the source of peace, though it is also a picture, while leaving only the feeling of rest and observation, and around the film and vanity.


     I can not sit down at the report. Ego frantic and looking for any excuse not to do, until the headache, I have a real war, I see your ego, I watch. What's the need to do the job? (In life is also there, that is part of my personality). The need for autonomy, free from any restrictions. The need for the game, the game preference for any serious work. I would like to do just what you like. Who needs it? The ego, the personality. This activity-creating or destroying? Breaking and children's obstinacy and irresponsibility. Watching this part of yourself, do not identify, do not be attached to the result.


      Orders came running, I see that the partner does not have time, undertook to help that I can do, partner begins to poke what I'm doing wrong can feel the excitement in the body stiffness in the hands of distraction, everything begins to fall with it, I know it is a weakness because in front of him he does it more skillfully, I remember my childhood, before his brother the same feeling appeared in his presence. I see the transfer, and the most important thing that I am at this moment maintained the silence of not bickering with a partner, helps me to quarrel with him, he makes a couple of comments, I continue to do so as a learned, muttering to himself, not judge anyone, do not believe the mind that how do you do something wrong, mate no longer paid attention to me, I gave it what to do at this time of uncertainty and confusion vanished, discomfort gave way to pleasant.


      Today, there is a weakness, a feeling that yesterday saw the alcohol, but I did not drink, since the beginning of the first game. Today, for the first time feel a lack of energy, no desire to even move, let be a weakness, watching the one who wants to overcome weakness, wants to start charging, agressiruyu at her daughter. Then a feeling of sadness, it was changed to joy, but after a while I still feel weak and apathetic, decided to lie down and rest for about 30 minutes and I had the energy and strength, I cleaned up the apartment, feeling pleasant in the body, which has been a weakness appeared vivacity.


      I see the image of a husband who accuses me that I have a good wife, and so he drinks (it 2008year). The evening was dark, the husband complains to his mother on the phone, we are living at my mum, feel chest discomfort, guilt, shame to his mother. Reduces picture in 3 times less sense of change is becoming weaker feeling tidy brightness of the picture and changing the image of her husband, reduces image sharpness, blurred edges do, changing the state of the body, appeared on the site of the unit easy.


    Despite the temperature, I still fulfilled the practice of the evening, had pains everywhere, but somehow I do not identify with them. But still something was wrong. I still resisted. When it is noticed, relaxed and gave up, and immediately felt better. I tried as best I could to keep the attention on the moment now and do not associate with those bad pain. I felt that there is pain and I. I did not get sick ..


    Recently noticed that subconsciously resist in situations which are not accepted, since the emotion felt in the body, I convinced myself that I must not resist the body, so he could not understand more deeply how to pass without delaying. Still sometimes I notice that everything is a game, it's all for me, for my growth and I do not why bother. And thus, the vision: you, them, he, it ... slowly disappears and there is only a game of consciousness


     During the concert, there were many episodes in which I went different ways, at least that's what I tried to convince myself, that is: a fool, a spectacle, indifferent .... and at the end of the episode I was wrong, I was once again plunged into a concert in a dream and it all made color. But at some point, I had to go on stage and play in front of people, and at that moment I again disappeared, I did not look at people and with his head down playing a role. The ego does not have enough free will and openness in order to play quietly.


     And it so happened that I was convinced that he would never miss any one task or game and one practice game, and the mind is direct face laughs and says: you look so still and miss! I can only, to surrender.


     In the evening, meditating, practicing for about 3 hours, at your pleasure, because will not have to hurry, I belong to myself. Festival "New Year" - a concept, just a word, there is only the moment of now. And when the fireworks started, I was interested to take a picture, and I was fascinated. I spend this day as all, in their own way, and I feel this force.


    We went into the apartment, the body sank, it was a sign that I need to be here, I immediately offered to go home. During the day, I was in a lucid state, and she try to move away from communicating with the unconscious people, the company was unconscious and so the body immediately gave a sign.


     I sit down to watch TV, it's a sense of meaninglessness, I separate myself from the TV and go to practice. After practice, I feel calm, there is no irritation in the body.


      In the morning practice, I work with a sense of powerlessness, weakness. Went in the past incarnation, I can not change, there is no opportunity to realize their desires, a sense of powerlessness. I look at it as a problem of the soul - is the adoption, the air begins to pass into the stomach, cramps in the abdomen, the abdomen is unlocked. Back leveled off, there is energy in the lower back.


     The AP does not accept when it is in the victim's position. My reflection, I responded some time at him, then realized that this is my reflection, stopped, and now I accept myself the one that responds.


    Customarily - it is to fall into the image of a weak, helpless. But I do not have this image, I just miss the feeling and spirit I am. I can indulge in a sacrificial way, and I can not fall and to be in contact with the spirit. And when I was in the spirit of this pattern of behavior is no longer valid, is not valid. If I stay alone, I will.


    Watching the process of the game, I understand the character defended loneliness. From what defended? From the Light of Love? After all there is, just now, and the soul is drawn to Light because loneliness is the Light of Love. After all, I can only be in this moment!


    Got a comment, or rather has not been felt in her body and a slight contraction in the jaw, I felt the irritation, fear that the poor, the idea here was left without comment. Even here Consciousness me playing. I walk through the park, I feel a pulsation in the chest, feeling sad, thinking, and I see a sign in front of him. There is a guy with a backpack, and on it is written the message "Everything is given on the shoulder." Feeling confident and lightness in body, mind, everything is given on the possibilities, and the possibilities are endless. I am Consciousness


    Doing the morning practice, the idea of ​​how to proceed with her son, who walks? Became involved in the preparation of breakfast, thinking about his destiny, feel dry mouth, feel the excitement, turn on the TV, which ended with some cartoon and were told the words: "True Love, so that melt all on the Path," she felt in her body acceptance, I felt love, so the Spirit gave me the answer. So there, I have the Spirit.


    I'm getting ready to do the practice. A call to the intercom, thought, weird, who it may be, one should not like to come, and suddenly a son, but he's got the keys to his shoulders felt the tension, feel the excitement, remember the mission, stop, watch the process. I picked up the phone and heard the voice of a drunken brother, who came to visit, I feel heaviness in the chest, feeling of anxiety - to be conscious, I say that I am busy right now and I have no desire to talk, he gets mad and leaves. I remember the mission to pass the state of loneliness. I understand that it is I, he displayed the sacrifice that I made with love and compassion. Skipping and accept. I have consciousness.


     In the evening, the guests came to his brother's family. Husband unhappy. It appears wine that did not tell her husband that she would come visit. I kiss on the cheek, apologizing. I see blame, but subjects. After a while, between brother and his wife, there is a hassle. Watching petty quarrel brother and his wife. I see in your brother's behavior constant striving to restore harmony on the basis of guilt. The behavior of his wife, see my little girl dissatisfied. Reason skirmishes: wife wants to leave for some reason (it is somehow interpreted the mind is not in my favor). I keep track of how I have a disadvantage: they are not comfortable in my house. I allow it to be. Voiced unprecedented ". If you wish, you can leave alone leave the game, I'll be playing in it will take tomorrow.". Magic! The situation is exhausted: they make the choice to stay and play. I find it easy! The game comes too easily.


    Back pain at one point increased. I went into it. Senselessness released. Emotional emptiness. M: whole life - this is the way to death. Are you ready for death. Against this background, the fear of annihilation. The concept: after the death of the memories remain - the only thing that you can take home with them. She basked me. And then the merciless answer: "False! Memories do not belong to you! They will take the death-consciousness (Eagle Eye). Give them at a body of life - a better way! ". Adoption.


     The body was filled with very warm force. Down up. I realized then ground: there between me and the body - society (and should be), there is only me and my body. Contact our body hearing, that's what matters really. Spine stopped hurting. Warm energy straightened me in the center (right somewhere deep inside) and were filled to the top of the body completely. Gone bans Game. Serenity.
I feel love for the game. The heat in the whole body, ease.


      I have not faced with the manifestation of my anger, discontent. Caught !!! Let's play! I stand at the box office - well, everything is so slow ... ..zlyus, aware - everything is as it is, it is Consciousness amused and only when my time comes, I'll go to the checkout. I release, all becomes indifferent. And it began to move faster, ha ha!


      Today is Christmas! I'm always on this day go to church, put candles and leave money. I went to the church - turn - trembled inside - again all !! I went into the moment of now - yes, people have the need to come to church on this day - just like me, though! So we're all standing in line - soul mates, it's nice to be in this atmosphere with these people as well to stand in line! SEND write a note, at this time opened a second shop and all broke down. I quietly stood up completely and waited his turn. He pocketed $ 100, so do not forget to donate to the church. Cost the icons, I put the candles out. The steps were very steep and I was afraid of slipping. I remembered about the Trust and went right down the middle. Safely later I saw white doves in a cage, what a miracle! He came out of the gate - is a girl - begging - I do not like to give alms to the gate of the church and passed. It seemed to me that she was pregnant, I stopped and reached into her pocket. There I discovered the $ 100 that wanted to leave the church. I was so immersed in the Now, that had completely forgotten about them in the church. Consciousness plays! It knows who they need it now! I gave them to the welfare of the girl. After a few steps in the snow saw the keys, somebody dropped. Again the game! What to say ??? Consciousness She returned to the church, put it on the net. So calm and it was good from what you see and do.


     An evening walk. Outside great! People walking, one feast for the eyes! And the children too. -4, But the blizzard such that 5 meters in front of you can not see anything, all paths skidded. I sneak! In the new year I decided to go a new route. I reached for some reason, to the office, where, supposedly going to work soon, slipped and fell, what could it be? Coming back, nipping rolls in the snow in the face - look up - a sign - Okhotsk coast, what could it be? What is Consciousness naughty today, flirting with me! Or maybe on internal retreat to Rama ???


     Seeing their weakness, in it, I wanted to express her love. I stroked her and spoke words of encouragement. At some point I saw that it was the compassion. Gone attempt that - explain something. A simple understanding that she needed this experience, it should make all his legs. Work your soul. And that God sends us all the tests for a reason.


     I enjoy my helplessness. My man does everything himself. Attracts child helpers. It's so cool when you take care of. I feel like a woman. The last time she used to do to not feel his weakness. Out of fear of rejection and loneliness began to carry out even the very hard work of men. I accept your weakness, warmth and love in the heart.


       Evening. We went to relax in the recreation center VI, mother, son and myself. Calm. Suddenly I notice that he walks and something counts very carefully scans. Feelings of anxiety in the body: chest discomfort. I catch myself for not listening to Mom and son, trying to control the AI ​​that was on his mind. I catch myself on this. I smile to his supervisors. Watching the breath, see a photo zone, turns on the moment now, we go to be photographed. I. Later he said that he believed many houses and other economic issues. And I figured out that he wanted to come here without me. Actually, I noticed that as I am a sensual and love to him, on so many it becomes an open and understandable. All in my head. But recently, my mind came up with, it is necessary to visualize the other man. But Lawless Heart. And for that the mind of Igor accuses, just I have my lessons and impetus to the development and improvement. The mind resists it, because it has a scheme of relations between people, family scheme. Yes of course there are moments in life that need to be corrected, but only through the sense of living can be achieved. And not using scandals and especially the change of men, whom you love with all your heart.


    And it is this choice makes this a clever mind? (Um, who considers himself important, wise, knowledgeable.) Whining and suffering, instead of conscious behavior? From this awareness everything becomes clear in the body of lightness and flight, and the tears of love overflow! As it turns out everything is simple! The mind itself defeated and surrendered.


    The man 190 growth, healthy. I-164 has always shouldered all by yourself. He came all easy to do. I keep track of their weakness. Fear not be desired. It turns out that he can! And I always felt sorry for him and tried to make life easier for him. As a result, acting out of pity, I gained so much negativity to it, his helplessness. While she does this, and came up. The chest weakness, a lump in the throat. I am watching the breath and accept their weakness. Ha ha so fun. Then he remembered that the refrigerator is necessary to raise more. Terror runs on the back. Again, monitor and fun. But the men decide whether a man. Again, I live my weakness. And the fear of being worthless, is not necessary. And so again my choice. Selecting intelligent mind: most carry refrigerators and suffer all the blame or admit his physical weakness, just give up and be a woman. I noticed that my mind, a man in his perception. Ha ha. So funny.


      The mind does not accept rejection. Sit live the feeling of rejection, compression in the temples, neck starts to ache. At the head of the confusion: come, do not come? I began pumping myself muttering aloud. Son, as an outside observer says, still nothing happened. And you have the whole story napridumali. Acting like a victim. Ha ha ha.

 
      Tears of self-pity that shows weakness and surrender to their entreaties. A very strong pressure in the chest, as if placed on top of the stove. Strengthens the feeling of rejection and loneliness. Thoughts: all from me needs something, no one thinks about it very hard for me right now. Most people close to me go on. The pain goes on the shoulders. Tears flow. Lomita entire back and head. Stop! And what am I doing to traveled? Who am I? Who are the closest? ha ha. The very thought of suffering. The mind knows that when broken, then tough. This is exactly the moment when the mind causes people to lie down and not get up, lie down and die. Defensively impotence.

     I remember about the freedom of choice. It's my choice to live like this, my level of personal power, which is not denied. Dwarf gives up. He recalls that it is not necessary to act on impulse, but from the beginning to miss these impulses through your awareness, through its values. He's so smart and important. That is now no need to snivel, just himself and drove himself into this situation.


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