All your tests by their nature are
opportunities to assert their rights to the Force.
To become a warrior, a complete transformation is required
personality and any life test is
the ability to gradually transform the personality.
(Teun Marez).

So, the spring-summer season of remote games is nearing completion. Starting in mid-May, the participants went to a long power draw, with a length of 10 to 12 games, with the duration of the game in each game about a week.

The feature of Remote games is that this power draw lasts

• not one hour (the duration of the consultation), not three days (the duration of internal retreats with Rama) and not even 10 days (the duration of the Samadhi retreat),
• but more than 2.5 months.

Starting this long game, the participants do not yet know what awaits them ahead and with what life experiences they will meet during the game. And as, unlike in-home retreats, remote game is conducted in absolutely real conditions of life, it is also quite natural that with the participants there are both beautiful and the most complex events filled with dramatic experiences. How will the player play? Surrender to the position of the victim or smile to Consciousness, and experience the experience totally?

• It is during the distance Games that the player's hardening takes place and his ability to play continuously is formed. From the participant of remote games a real player is brought up, who is able to play under any circumstances of life. But even if, unnoticed by himself (under the "respectful" excuses of the dwarf), a participant descends from a distance, getting stuck at a certain level of his capabilities, he is trained by this experience, as in the future he does not give up ...
• Well, about the fact that everything is possible in the game and every power game should be played until the very last moment, watch this legendary basketball game.

About how the players played the drawing of life in the 10th game, read in this news release.

• The son, incidentally, dropped the phrase that his nurse had punished him, he was sitting alone in his bedroom in a chair. I began to find out, for what? He told me that D. pushed him. In fact, nothing to find out could not (the child does not complain and does not particularly apply, what's happening in the garden). I notice the reaction. Disturbance. Thought: the child can not be punished, you need to explain, then they are teachers. " I see how anger arises. I catch emotion-I skip it. I also see the transfer clearly: I was punished (resistance, the desire to punish in return). I live my feelings. Arriving in the garden, I still want to find out the situation, although I understand perfectly and I know that my kid himself can attack, offend, touch, and has repeatedly faced impotence from his manifestations. And that's why he knows everything about himself as well, because he does not really tell me anything. I sit changing clothes for a child, next to my mother and girl. She asks her: how this boy's name is (also changing it). The girl answers: "G. He offends everyone and kulichiki broke us. " At this point, I still have less time to sort things out. The draw is specifically for me to test my feelings. Drawing with punishment. In the mission I accept, I enter the painful moment-I live, I remember the message and the task of the soul: to take everything as it is, not to become attached. Do not flog "fever" ie. Do not go on about the reactions, but after taking the lived feeling to act from the moment. All was resolved. Everything is not as it might seem from a fright. Such grace.
• Now it is manifested in the fact that relatives call their mother and ask them to convey their life situations to me. Mom willingly share with them and tells me that I know something and can. So they ask that I figure out how to act, they need my advice, my help. More and more often I hear that I am with a big loving heart. Dwarf is very difficult to believe in this, I confront. In addition to such manifestations, I can actually communicate with people (only it remained in the blind, I either did not notice it, or believed the carla that it's hard for me to communicate). Once again I come to the fact that the mind has spoiled a lot.
• And if I live according to the Mission - To give joy and love with the knowledge that the source of Love is always with me, inside of me and not looking for it in the external world in the form of attention, respect, love and joy, this is life under the law of Dharma! And this is not depending on the type of activity ... Although there are the most comfortable types of service in this world, for example, cares for loved ones, cook delicious food, maintain cleanliness, grow plants, hold consultations, cheerfully and lovingly infect everything around! To work from this state-knowledge is also very pleasant, any work is good and brings satisfaction even if I get very tired. All rallies occur when I do not live by Mission or Dharma ..., for example, I want to receive attention, pleasure, money, recognition. This is the deviation from the Dharma ... and life on the Dharma is always in the present !!!
• After finishing the training I watch the missed call from A. it's my girlfriend from childhood who lives in my mother's yard, I decide to get together first, and then call back, forget about the call, pay for training I go out of the hall and call back A. she says that my mother's house is on fire apartment next to her, I remember that my mother is not in the city and the keys to her apartment, I also do not. I understand that you need to call your brother. Fear that he rejected me, a feeling of embarrassment, I ring so it turns out that he takes and immediately hangs up, he rejected me as I thought, but I decided to continue to call, repeat the same, for the third time I again hear the brother's voice, and he says that there is something with a connection. Having explained to him that the apartment in the neighborhood is burning, that he would like to go check, I felt it soft and it became easier for me to speak to my brother without any stress. I'm not afraid to call my brother on business and I had the strength to do this.
• The husband said wait for the goods at work, the goods were not brought, I call back to go home, I leave in a cloudy understanding not consciously, tk. went the resistance that her husband called back and said to go home. Thoughts of betrayal, I do not say anything about this to my husband. I feel resistance and sadness I understand that I can not cope with emotions and there will be a scandal. Arriving home, the desire to control, comes anger. Recapitulation: the husband comes home pours out all the anger on him. disagreement with her husband's coming, the reaction was the same from him, he fell silent and rejected me for 3 days. I do not allow to flow what happens, I resist powerlessness, I let myself indulge my mind, the revision gave me to see how I believe the illusions of the mind. I return to now my husband is offended, I, too, and myself and not on him because I understand that this is all I do. I go to bed did not even talk to my husband about today, wake up in an hour not remembering what happened before going to bed, the mood of resentment is not excellent, I remember the moment of resentment, it's funny and simple, I can see it but after.
• Body sensations: vibration in the bridge of the nose -2b., Slight pressure in the region of the right scapula, 1.5b., A slight burning sensation in the region of the stomach -1b., Ate the currant, burning in the knees and calves of the legs, edema of the legs. Thoughts: How can one live in such stuffiness? I can not breathe, I will soon go all out to water! I feel a slight annoyance from a feeling of despair and powerlessness to change anything. I do not tolerate such a moist stuffiness. Transformation of the legs with blue ice, the rest is second attention. A state of rest and acceptance. In the evening at 20, D. came to study English. I'm in a kind of coma. I look at Dima and after a time I hear and see him, a state of complete tuppism, I periodically ask him to excuse me, accepting his fortune.
• A daughter came and started to sigh behind my back and say that she does not know what to do with her contribution, take it or not? "I would have been able to ask D.I. Mom, well, what should I do? ". I listened, listened, and turned on this phrase and told her, "L., enough for everyone to ask. Learn to make your own decisions. Stop shifting your responsibility to others. You're already an adult woman, "" No, I'm not shifting anything, I just do not know. " - "Listen to yourself and feel if there is panic inside. If there is, it is better to take it and put it in the savings bank. In general, learn to take responsibility for your actions. " Everything, behind me silence reigned.
• I go to the bank to cash a check. It was the first time in this department. I watch a lot of excitement and fear. Back and shoulders in tension. The mind draws pictures: they ask me where the check comes from ... everyone is watching. I remember the event as a kindergarten teacher punished me and everyone looked at me ... rejection. With the realization that I'm afraid of losing Love and meeting with loneliness, the excitement goes away. I go to the bank quietly. Nobody is asking me anything. They just give out money.
• Now I need to put the money on the card. ATMs inside the bank and the operator can see that I went to the ATM. Fear. Condemnation. (Um drew again a terrible picture and suggested a decision to go through the heat of 10 minutes to another department, where to put money.). Rejection. Loneliness. Since I remember about not doing, I stay in this compartment for an operation. Zalomilo back to the right and shovel strongly, 7b. Excitement. I'm over it. I'm doing it. Leaving the bank, she glanced at the operators. I did not interest them at all, contrary to the story of the dwarf. Saves time and energy, staying in this compartment. The pain in the scapula gradually subsided completely within 5 minutes.
  I should have called my sister-in-law. Already did not communicate 2 days. Again the excitement. Thought: why call? I'll call myself, if necessary. And now he will start to ask: what do not you call. Wines (do not get involved); rejection, loneliness. Breaks internally. The back is tense again in the shoulder blades. And stoop-hide. Do not-do: relax and call. She does not ask why I did not call (the expectations of the dwarf were not justified).
• Strictly speaking with my daughter. She does not want to sleep. Wines, anger, rejection. Thought: so you can not talk to her. The tension between the blades. Inside are tears. I look: I'm 4-5 years old would burst into tears, if they talked with me as well. I see in her a mirror. Non-doing. I allow myself to reject my daughter. And I understand that there is no rejection of me here. I switch motivation from fear of loss and guilt to Love from the source. Though my daughter did not fall asleep, I did not feel condemnation to her (rejection / discontent). I explained to her the consequences of her decision (you'll get tired sooner and so on). And took Her choice. There is no heaviness in the chest and shoulders. After that the daughter quickly fell asleep.
• I should have called my sister-in-law. Already did not communicate 2 days. Again the excitement. Thought: why call? I'll call myself, if necessary. And now he will start to ask: what do not you call. Wines (do not get involved); rejection, loneliness. Breaks internally. The back is tense again in the shoulder blades. And stoop-hide. Do not-do: relax and call. She does not ask why I did not call (the expectations of the dwarf were not justified).
• Strictly speaking with my daughter. She does not want to sleep. Wines, anger, rejection. Thought: so you can not talk to her. The tension between the blades. Inside are tears. I look: I'm 4-5 years old would burst into tears, if they talked with me as well. I see in her a mirror. Non-doing. I allow myself to reject my daughter. And I understand that there is no rejection of me here. I switch motivation from fear of loss and guilt to Love from the source. Though my daughter did not fall asleep, I did not feel condemnation to her (rejection / discontent). I explained to her the consequences of her decision (you'll get tired sooner and so on). And took Her choice. There is no heaviness in the chest and shoulders. After that the daughter quickly fell asleep.
• Feeling of lightness and airiness, for a long time this was not. Z. came the previous time, he did not wash the dishes, there was a conflict. Today, without a reminder, I washed all the dishes. I went and brought the banks to me, rescued me, I did not have to go. I communicate with him benevolently, all the time I remember the principle of vibration. But today is not difficult, Z. in the mood. Now I understand, my concern has lifted his spirits. Deliciously fed him, bought candy, divided equally, and said: here are yours, do not touch the others. He was so grateful. At this period of life - I learn not to reproach him with food, I study respectfully. I thought about him for a very long time, now I change my thoughts about him, develop patience. And if I ask him to help me to do something, he does not refuse me. The atmosphere of the house today is calm. I feel the heaviness in my head in my head, my head, as something filled. Did not get enough sleep today, and the body shows it. I listened to the disk: Part 3 - a journey into the world of dreams. How many times I listened to this disc, many times and fell asleep. And this time she fell asleep. After 45 minutes. woke up cheerful, my head does not hurt. A little later, O. came to visit behind the greenery, and said: what is your Z. Blessed goes, pleased. And now I'm beginning to understand something. All people are drawn to goodness, and what you give, you will get. Yes, a good day I asked, Z. helped me to rework berries and kept asking what to help. But I'm not deceived, the game continues.
• I'm in a hurry. The plate falls, my heart aches - dull, aching pain. I stop. I watch the breath. I say: I will manage everything, even it will be so that they will come later, I calm down. The pain passes. I go up to Z. and ask him if he goes for sugar for berries. And he answers me so rudely. And I immediately lose the game, I say: it's good that you divorced. And then understanding comes, the game started. Stop: I tell myself, keep quiet and leave to gather my thoughts. Again I go up to him and calmly say: I now told you a rude word or something insulted? I can do without you without you, and you are without me. And do not talk to me like that. He immediately pacified and went after the sugar. It was without conflict.
• I listen to P. in the store and notice that I do not know how to listen, I must always insert something. I shut up and listen, occasionally nodding. All the way, I watch my thoughts and feelings and so I keep quiet. On the way they took the boy, for some reason he did not like me, although he was open and clean. I felt irritated. Then I realized that his stupid answers and questions seemed to me. Of course, this I in myself do not accept stupidity. The annoyance then went away.
• Critical zones on the maternal line. Event: The death of parents, grandmothers. Emotions: Confusion, anger, resentment. Thoughts: Why, what's going on, I do not understand. Feeling: Weakness, impotence. Tel. sensation: weakness in the body, lump in the throat, in the uterus and stomach compression. Soc. fear: abandonment, injustice. Excise. Fear of loneliness. Transformation: Living and accepting feelings of weakness and impotence, a sense of abandonment and loneliness. Adoption and accommodation of the event. Consent with reality. Yes, that's how it was supposed to happen, and I accept this reality. From the level of Consciousness: Yes, Consciousness decided to live through these characters through it is just a role in a play called life. From mission level: Yes, this is the mission of the soul of these characters. Bow. I apologize for disturbing your Souls. Great Love and Gratitude to the ancestors for the experience, for the knowledge that they conveyed. For Awakening, for knowledge, for Gifts.
• I feel the usual pain, numbness in the left arm and shoulders. Death, loss of loved ones. Once again affirm in the understanding that loss is only a word. In fact, there is pain from loss, because we are connected by energy, emotional threads, but this is normal, it is a sign of life and its manifestations. And the underlying cause of suffering is the reluctance to live it and the reinforced ego that wants everything to be according to it, and not as in reality. Understanding this gives strength, energy.
• I feel the rejection of inflation, weakness. I watch my critical, judgmental mind. Also, I do not sometimes take my daughter and my weakness. The tendency of our kind is to roll mountains, if necessary, but survive at any cost. Suicide is a sin in our religious understanding. I used to work with the family, there are many problems. But now I saw how strong he is, he laid in the members of our family the basic principles of religiosity, the community of egregor, which gives strength. True, now, after the death of the older generations, it goes away.
• For a long time I've deliberately played the role of a madman. I ended my life in one of the incarnations, after the death of the child and rejection of it. There was a lot of aggression, rejection from the surrounding people. But life continued and only the mind is afraid, and it somehow flows from moment to moment and I intensively lived it. Sometimes it seemed to me that I had fallen into a madhouse, where I was one normal. All the surrounding people forgot themselves and play social roles, a full sense of sleep. I watched as participation, the kindness of the surrounding people healed, calmed. Unconditional love works wonders.
• Drawing - the husband gave the elder granddaughter some money for transportation. He gave and began to scold her about spending money on a simple bus or minibus. Granddaughter did not expect this from him. Standing - dumbfounded. He tells me that she did not ask him. And she scolded as if she herself had asked for this money. Do not get involved. I'm watching. Yes, he can behave this way.
• Drawing - a meeting with an old friend, with whom we have been friends for more than forty years. Recently, I have been attached to these relationships. Here, finally met. She is glad to report that I quit my job. He offers to go to families - I'm with my husband, and she and her - in the oceanarium. We'll take a walk all day, we'll cover the table on the nature. Set the day. I do not tell her that I will not go with them. I promise to think. I notice that I tightened my neck. I stop talking, we go home with my husband.
• Playing 10 games, I saw how the character seriously (protection, injustice) treat the life processes that appear from everywhere, so it clearly began to manifest, that now I catch them on the move and dissolve in the moment now with a smile and joy. Consciousness presents jokes: at work, at home, with relatives, with money, or rather with oneself, and only the memories of who I am give energy to play. Yes, now I accept myself different and I am glad that Life is an infinite manifestation of Consciousness. I'm glad that Life manifests itself in me creatively, it gives me the opportunity to be different, to try different roles (mother, daughter, sister, educator, trainer, colleague, leader, woman, neighbor, duty, according to the moment where the character is ...) creative manifestation, play in life and remember that everything is ONE. Endowed with talents, Life so helps to realize fears - energy, or rather transform it, raising vibrations up. Talent To work with people, so life helps to accept, what I was afraid of, to manifest myself in different spectra, through implementation: I teach yoga, fitness, dance, make up various health programs, I teach women's trainings, children's physical. classes, make booklets, prepare food, transform myself, home. Life has a huge spectrum of creativity, I want to be creative in the knowledge of English, easily drive, earn money, dress stylishly, sing mantras, record audio relaxation, manifest with men, travel, play spontaneously living Life!
•  Watching the breath I feel dejection, sadness, a feeling of weakness in the whole body, there is a sweat, a thought, he does not want to hear me and does as he wants. Event: the son of a conversation about a trip to the sea. Transformation with the help of breathing. Scale from 2 to 0 b. there was a mood. What's terrible? Feeling of abandonment, heaviness in the region of the heart, why he does nothing. Recapitulation, I remember that on the paternal line, grandfather said what to do, everything according to the mind, to take seriously to work, to be respected, so he lived and the opinion of others was important to him, he paid more attention to others than to himself. The transformation that one can relate to working with ease and joy and loving oneself, then others will be respected out of love. The technique of not doing, I miss the feeling of abandonment and live the experience out of love, because the cause of this state comes from the past, which means it is illusory. 4.strah death, chest pressure, thought, such punish and kill. Recapitulation: at 5 years old parents left one, a feeling of loneliness and terrible fear, when they closed me one and said, you are already big, be serious and do not open it to anyone, when you grew older, constantly was afraid when someone knocked, because they were frightened. Transformation, it was just an experience and if you knock on the door, it comes Love and strength to accept yourself, feel the flight, the desire to live. The source is inside. Technique of not-doing: Consciousness is here and now. I am the Source.
  
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