The spring-summer season of 2017 of the Distance Games has now come to an end.
Most of the players have already played all the games and mastering the skills of current levels of the game, are free to swim and learn the acquired knowledge.

"The theory without practice is dead," said the great commander, who did not lose a single battle, A. Suvorov. Preparing for you the editions of the Diaries of remote games, this is exactly the goal pursued by Consciousness, wishing to show how the theory of players is embodied in practice, in real events, everyday rallies of life.
Players of all levels: the seeker, the hunter, the warrior, the missionary, the formless player of the Academy of Lila, and people developing on their own, have the opportunity, by the example of the draws described, to learn to see the game of Consciousness, and playing rallies - gain personal strength, in order to once totally "SEND" to Consciousness.
 The most accurate definition of Spiritual awakening is remembering YOURSELF. In fact, we do not become anyone, we do not transform ourselves and do not change ourselves. We just remember who we really are - as if we once knew this, but just forgot.

And now, in the rallies of Consciousness, we will observe the game of the Players in the last games (11.12) ...

• I'm different now. Much has changed. But these changes are so imperceptibly manifested. I give up (the ego). Adoption. NOT a proposition. Thanks. Not affection. Loving Kindness. Changing game tactics slowly, already out of acceptance. The mind is calm - the body is calm (fussiness, nervousness, haste). But the other side: the body has become even thinner blocks to notice the feel. I noticed new sensations in my heart that I had never noticed before. This is the blocking of the heart chakra. Now it's time to work with this unit, which organized itself. Emotional background as with changes: I feel calm. dimensionality. Thoughts: I confront them. I choose which ones to believe in, and which ones to skip. Events: Consciousness gives many gifts in the form of knowledge, opportunities. Tested THANKS. The most powerful message: to live life, not to think it. Now I actively practice the Centaur.
• Who am I? One who does not affect all these changes, thoughts. I am the Source. I am nothing. With Love!
•  Changes. I notice that changes at the level of the Mission, that is, the body of motives, the Life of Gifting according to spiritual laws gives changes at all levels: events, thoughts, feelings and emotions, and the physical body, namely acceptance, ease, confidence and gratitude of Life !!!
• Drawing - souvenir as a gift. Hand out the necklace. They pass me by. Here I am, close, but turn away from me. I live the feeling - loneliness. It is so thin, barely noticeable. The event is a little penny, but the feeling is subtle. I accept - that they will approach me to the last, and maybe they will not do it at all. It turns out that I'm waiting for attention from outside. My significance is highlighted. Has accepted - yes, about me can in general forget - to stop to wait attention from associates - there is nobody. Go to your source. How I fall into the trap! How thoughts get worked up! Haha! How the consciousness plays! I accept. I give up. It turns out that the bags were signed - with a name. Here is a rally! What is loneliness? Who am I? Who is the one affected? I am the one who is not affected by anything.
• The drawing is a "bad" result. After returning from the retreat, I take away the laboratory analysis. The diagnosis is awesome. I immediately go to the clinic. Give the direction for the delivery of tests. I'm renting. I'm going to queue up for surgery. While testing, the shock was gone. What operation, who is screaming - save yourself? Who is afraid of death? What is death? Who is in a panic? The mind draws terrible pictures of the deadly sick. Stop! Trust me! Everything will happen as it happens. I'm playing. At work quietly persuaded the boss to give me leave. The chief bows - the audit goes, but gives a vacation. Since 17.07. 17. He says that the number is good. I say - a good sign. And I need it from the thirteenth. All I leave. I'm giving up. Everything - organized. I say - I have a plane. I switch off the phone. And I'm going to Samadhi. The drawing was held. I'm going to a new experience! How will it all work out? Who will win? There is no one that it would affect. There is no one. I accept everything without expectation.
•  Drawing - deputy. The boss at work speaks with an outraged air - you are driving everyone out, why are you doing this? I'm not telling you what to explain. It's not for him to work, but for me to carry this frame to myself. We already passed it. Let the scream, chattering horrible. Wrapped around. Yes, he can say so, I need this experience. I do not justify myself, I do not explain.
• Drawing - choosing a card. I'm looking at the map. The mind says - take the first one, at which the glance immediately fell - to run a glance there - here - so it should not be. No, I will not take this one - I want another. The thought - that it is profitable - is not profitable, or what? You should take it right away, without hesitation. "Throwing" is the result of weakness. And who said that? Mind. And you believe in everything? Who forbids you to do what you want? I took a map - a map - compassion. To her the parable - as Christ entered the temple with a sword. In anger, he drove the merchants from the temple, with whom no one could do anything. Such a power Christ had, that he alone coped with the crowd, that in fear they fled from him. And only so it was necessary to do, this experience was needed by these merchants, ruthlessly thrown out of the threshold.
•   I ask my daughter to stay with my father, I agree and go to work myself, after two hours my daughter comes and says that A. asked why she was with my dad to follow him, of course my daughter did not know what to say to A., I have an explosion of emotions irritation, injustice and indignation. I spent the whole evening wearing a negative and a desire to call A. and say that my daughter no longer fit, but I accepted that I need any experience and surrender, did not call to live. Two days later I find out that A. was found a permanent worker and A. fired. Recapitulation: two years ago, M. passed me to my mother (told me that I did not want to tell my mother) and I angrily told her unnecessary information, M. then worried that I would do what I promised to do, but I did not want it in my heart do and of course did not. Now with M, we communicate normally, and she still helps me when I'm not in the workplace, sometimes guilty for that conflict, but I needed him to do more in anger not to make mistakes and now that experience reminded me that so I do I will not. How important it is not to hurry up and not to believe the mind when he is persistent in obsession in this case to say rudeness toward A., Consciousness itself will do so as necessary. The feeling of anger. Feeling unpleasant in the chest, excitement. Thoughts: A. so do not have to tell my child these are adult affairs. Humiliation. Death. Persuasion: they do not live with humiliation for a long time and society does not accept them. Recapitulation: the husband told about how they told G. that he was being lowered, beaten. Immediately from G. all turned away, and the husband too, not Acceptance of weak people by society added an unpleasant sensation in both scapulas 4b out of 10b. round, pulsating. I allow A. to manifest as it happened, the understanding has come that I do not allow people to think about me all they want, I can not get people to not think. The body relaxed the block dissolved.
•  I'm going to train a feeling of dislike for myself, anxiety, a feeling that pulls into the bottom of the stomach, a desire to retreat, because I have women's days, I recall today's consultation and all the associated hostility, I also realized, the fear of going out into society. I do not accept myself, and I myself reject it. I come to understand why I traveled this morning with my husband to V., although in the morning there were plans for training and working moments with the old work, but I chose the trip and was then not happy with the whole trip were thoughts: it would be better if I stayed to do business. Now I see that the trip was necessary so that an explosion of a purulent wound occurred - this is not accepting, and then making yourself angry precisely in society. in non-safe places of society, I try not to appear so as not to lose my vigilance and not live anger. Although I pointed out that when women's days I went to retreats coped with. I felt there support from consciousness, I went to an old job, but there I was alone and if anger occurred, it was only on loved ones, and this is not terrible for the ego, but it's probably habitual and fear of punishment is also habitual than in someone else's environment. I knowingly intend to, although I remember the trainer's instructions that it is better to walk in the morning, knowing that I will not be able to go to work for two days in the morning until 22.00, but in the aggregate it will be 3 days already, I am going to live a weakness and accepting myself unnecessary. The training was productive, the weakness was dissipated, the abdominal pain disappeared and the regularity of the training was also preserved. In living experience comes a lot of awareness than sitting at home and assuming that it's terrible to manifest in people.
• Training today without a coach, the injustice that there is no coach, and I came, I understand that I'm attached to the fact that the coach is standing and showing technique, and I do not want to take responsibility therefore I'm afraid to make a mistake without him. Recapitulation: for a long time I could not run alone to go out on a distance, I had to start many times and throw as much, until the resistance was transformed, I had to run and run with pleasure, but it took quite a while. Today I'm doing it myself again as I remembered and worked out the training well, at first I felt fear, then anxiety, followed by confidence and joy, I learn to take responsibility. I hardly notice my positive qualities, I criticize myself harshly, and I suffer from this myself. Today I saw that I can handle myself without a coach and I do not bored myself to work on myself. Left the hall in a great mood, love inside.
• The husband got up early to buy a crab for cutting and selling, unfairly comes, when it comes to us with his daughter, he can sleep saying that he is tired, I remember that from the money I received for the first time my husband gave me completely, but they cleaned the crab together and nothing did not take. Recapitulation: at night we eat with dad in the car, summer tires, snow fell and melted, we can not get into the hill, Dad does not come out of one road car, he says: docha, do not worry, we'll soon go, will help me to keep, and I I will wind the chain on the wheels. I held and looked at my father realizing that there was always a way out, my father did everything from nothing. I see the irrational side of my husband, but he's not romantic and not as manifested as I imagine in my head, but he's a good earner and he reminds me of my dad, now I understand why my choice fell on him. I chose a husband similar to Dad and in fact, no matter how many times your father would not leave his mother with him, he always found a way out, even when it seemed that there was no way out. Gratitude to the consciousness, for awakening through the husband, for such Love to me through suffering.
• Annoyance at the daughter and not the desire to explain 3 times to the questions that seem silly to me. I do not accept a curious and ignorant daughter. Recapitulation: I'm 8 years old, after watching the movie, I ask my brother for the moments I do not understand, my brother freaks out and does not want to answer. I do not take my stupidity, stop, I turn aside and solve my own misunderstood subjects, resentment, self-punishment continue to be without mood and awaiting races is bad from my brother. Now I see in my daughter myself and after a spontaneous recapitulation realized the transfer. The daughter again asks the questions, I answer two times, and where I must and three, patiently accept myself in the daughter.
• We go in the car to the river, I find out that next week in the schedule of the new work I put on a shift without a husband. I will be for the boss and this is the responsibility and the fear of losing my husband, injustice, my husband's thoughts do not have days off and we do not see him and then he rests and I go to work, indignation, my husband does not think of going out of the car on the road for a long time and says sit behind the wheel, I do not have time to get angry at the news of the work, I sit behind the wheel, switch to the present moment driving, fear that the CP will stop DPS, I have no rights, fine. Recap: 2004 I work in a daytime cafe, they put me on night shift without my consent. I will work without my husband, the same fear of loss, disagreement, I leave work without laying off and without the order of a book. Now I see the repetition of the situation, taking a pause, I realized that now I live the life story of the unperceived and unaccepted unconsciously now that I live in what is conceived by Consciousness. I thank my husband for believing in my strength and putting me to work for him, thereby agreeing with the schedule of work. Transformation went exactly the moment when my husband transplanted the wheel I saw how he behaved in a non-uniform way. He did not become indignant when I asked why such, as with ease, the understanding between us came to an end.
• V. did not receive a visa. Hopes for an easy solution of the issue - collapsed. T. O: tension on the right shoulder blade, point. Light heat on the spine and in the head. Anxiety and sadness. Sadness, excitement and fear of loss. Motive: the fear of losing love. Thought: how now we meet? Loneliness is meaningless. Today, there were many resistances in the form of thoughts. I returned all the time on my back. It would be desirable and sometimes to bend forward, tk. it was hard to sit up straight. But it was this movement that was returning to now. Lived tension. Relaxed. I missed emotions.
•  Delayed. Coming on time is my fad. I immediately feel "bad", once I broke the rules and did not come on time. And Consciousness today decided to play that way. 1. I overslept. The choice: to do practice and just to be late or to start assembling, and then there is a chance to get out on time. I did not even think about it. I chose practice. And I agreed that I will be late and will not give love)))). 2. We leave the house later for 5-7 minutes. The bus left. We wait. Comes in 3 minutes speed, which actually did not stop even at their stops (no one needed it). 3. I get out of the subway. The escalator does not work, it takes a long time to walk. Nearby there is an elevator. Saving a few minutes plus more convenient to go - do not go through the square with the market. 4. Walk a couple of blocks of college. Only red traffic lights, I wait for crossings for a minute. Came on time. Within the acceptable time. As usual. The question is, who was late? I played with pleasure, agreeing with every "apparent" delay. It's amazing how it all happens.
• The daughter-in-law asks: does everything remain in force. I do not know exactly, tk. a friend of a sick son, and the plans that she organized - are adjusted a little. However, the dwarf whispers that her daughter-in-law does not want me to leave my daughter with her .... Thought: when you need me, you will not get help from them. Irritation (anger). Resentment and pity. Fear of rejection. Fear of loneliness. TO: pressure on the chest and eyes in a wet place. I realize the victim. The choice. Supporting the internal source. I admit the options. What could be wrong is what it seems. When I took my daughter, I already saw: the interpretation of the behavior of my daughter-in-law only seemed to me ... because she helped me even when I was pregnant at 7 months of pregnancy. Revision and remembrance of a long-standing resentment against his brother. Lightness appeared in the body.
•  Light tension of the muscles of the back. The waist feels tired. For the first time the thought occurred that in the lower back - the burden of guilt and the burden of responsibility for the happiness of loved ones. Sadness; Wines; Fear of rejection / abandonment. Э.С: loneliness - death (destruction). I'm betrayer. Revision of the event: the future husband convicted me of treason. I betrayed him by wetting his reputation (apparently like men), because many colleagues found out about this. My decision: to be worthy of his love. The agreement with his role as a traitor in his eyes. Pain is light in the left scapula and pressure on the center of the chest. The choice: to be a victim in the name of worthiness or to seek an internal source. Second: Events: When my dad (husband) called me with a demand to be at home, this was for me a proof of their love, and in order to get their love and affirm, I needed to leave at any price (be at home or be somewhere during). T.O: pain of the spine. Thoracic department. Calibration: a chain with fasteners on the spine, metal. Another level (deep): a palm-sized ulcer, with a hole in the center (like an old tissue, all in holes). What feeling was afraid to go through? Loneliness - meaninglessness (expressed in the absence of external sources of love) - will collapse into emptiness. Accepting emptiness, allowing yourself to fail ... Living situations where they called me. Let go and it became easy. The fastener in the spine turned into light. The ulcer was patched up and disappeared. Feeling of power.
• The husband began again a song about my disastrous behavior and the need to give him a promise: that the daughter did not see any new boyfriends next to me for a year. I did not want to give such a promise, because it was an obvious manipulation with subsequent threats of punishment (he will draw conclusions), or: I love you so, please, behave correctly ...
• Followed myself. I felt, noticed, there are changes! I was no longer afraid to talk to my husband. Even insisted on discussing some issues and did not feel guilty when he accused me. Consent and self-recognition: yes, I can be this: the betrayer who used him, the deceiver, in general the way he sees me.
• 
  I do not know my pedigree, the fiancé does not go further than the grandfathers,
  
  Only I know - in the family of my blood
  
  It was very, very, very difficult
  
  Mom, my dear dear, tell me, tell me!
  
  Tell your life in more detail,
  
  First repeat the entire fate, do not rush, I'll sit comfortably!
  
  What and how, who was who relatives. All of me, believe me, is interested!
  
  We do not have enough for a day's conversation, well, well, we do not care!
  
  The roots of the pedigree are deep, I dream of knowing more about them,
  
  These times were far away, I want them to remember them longer!
  
  Your story will be written down in detail, I do not seem to forget anything,
  
  From the excitement of my feelings I tremble:
  
  My God, how difficult it was, my grandmother Sophia
  
  How many had to endure: the death of parents instantly, leaving them completely alone
  
  And confusion and fear, what to do, how to be. Hiding and hiding everything deeper
  
  We must go further, somehow live, hide feelings and forget.
  
  Yes, I had to stay in the grandfather's house, and then stay with the family.
  
  Deportation, exile ...
  
  How much in life everything was! The connection of times has fallen on my sheet,
  
  Became closer the past instantly! All emotions can not contain the flow,
  
  And you do not need it at all!
  
  Remember everything and know my kindred, I believe that everyone is obliged,
  
  Having studied my family, I now understand everything. Why I suffer all my life, solitude does not give me peace.
  
  Why is it so closed and scary, in the body of the blocks is not an open edge.
  
  Yes, the work is done, Oh, how much. But this is for yourself, for grandchildren.
  
  Changing the genetic code, that's what's important.
  
  And now, I want so much with Love, to make a low family my bow.
  
  Thank you for your feelings and experience of life. And for the strength of the clan, Thank you.
• Since the arrival of V. reads, but does not respond to messages. It became interesting for me to "test" myself through various questions: What terrible thing will happen if V. never writes again, ie. will leave me (as once did R.)? Am I to blame for not writing to me? What will be terrible if all the "guesses" of her husband about V. prove to be true and V. is simply a fraudster using me? For each question, the answer led me to the Void. I knew that I could live without V. and, perhaps, this path is slightly easier than living with him. Neither loneliness, nor senselessness did not frighten me. The body is light and chest is removed, breathing easily.
• This game was very intense for me. I lived lives in society, and in complete isolation (in the Oasis), and in an intensive retreat. This allowed me to see my level of awareness, to find hidden reserves. I was afraid for the rest of my life, protected from it, but she came to me again and again through sickness and loss. Now I had to live, remembering it every minute and living consciously feelings, sensations in the body. We were with her on different sides of the barricades, and now I seemed to give up and went into this experience. The more I lived and realized my experience of death, the more I became convinced that fear is just a memory. Memory of the pain and loss of the past. Living it, realizing, I see how ignorance goes. Consciousness expands and itself shows the Truth that I am not this body, I am something more immortal. And the death of a physical body is simply a physiological process, which is absolutely inevitable while you live in the body. It relaxes and fills with peace. There is still much to do. Over the course of his life, persistent tendencies of the mind, body blocks, which were previously protected from the fear of death, have been developed. Now we have to disidentify with this, blocks soften. But it also gives the power of understanding, self-awareness. I see very well how Consciousness is wise and perfect. What game did it suit for this character, so that he finally opened his eyes and began to awaken. And at the same time I see how it leads me, helps and gradually opens. With gratitude and love.
• Plunged into the desire to have a relationship with a man in love and harmony. I want to understand where and for what it is. TO: pressure and burning in the center of the chest. The reason is somewhere far in the past, when such relationships were lost, the pain of loss did not release me, but, on the contrary, it was bound by the desire to have them, which led to their search in many and many incarnations. But ... did I really seek and search for them? Thoughts such appear, although the desire of the subconscious remains unchanged. Pain is reflected in the back, shoulders, mouth, center of the chest. Through the body recalled the November 2009 event: R. wrote to me that there could be no more relationship between us, he was leaving for Scientology ... Revision: the acceptance of this pain, the inner farewell to it, burned thin, sometimes ragged, sometimes rotten threads at the level stomach, heart, genitals. Letting go. However, I see that the desire, when I wanted to see it, remains in the subtle world, as if it should be realized. Perhaps there will be another meeting, no matter when: in this life or the next ... For some reason, the adoption and forgiveness of my husband also do not even know why and for what ... I understand two things: the transformation began (what exactly, I do not know yet) and that in some way I will experience the experience of a relationship with the beloved, but on the condition that this experience will be the way to the Source, and not to the dream of sweet love ...
• Husband: "If you do not want to fulfill my conditions, then there will be no help. Live as you want. Let's see how long you will last. so think. " The condition of the victim and severity. At this time we met with my daughter on the street, so I took advantage of this to retreat temporarily. Already on the street: I want to call my mother and press. I catch this thought: a victim. C.: fear, the image of emptiness, ES: death. Apparently the memory is animated ... severe pain in the left scapula. Dizziness. With the realization of fear and feelings, everything at once released. It was easy. Mom did not call.
•  My daughter is looking for a squirrel in the forest park. He wants to feed. But in any way we will not find. We come to the lake, sit down on the bench. My daughter asks everything about the squirrel. I decided to turn to Consciousness: "I ask Consciousness that a squirrel come and her daughter can feed her, and let my confidence in life and faith thereby be strengthened." About three minutes later, a squirrel came running to us, we fed it with nuts from our hands. My daughter is happy, her desire has come true.
•  Playing 11 games, became more aware of the Game of Consciousness, it became easier to perceive yourself thanks to the Remote Game! Everything is relative and simple, when there is I - the moment that the Path began long before this and in this reality, Rod was a reflection of my unextended states, it was not an easy Game, where I - Consciousness, was in disagreement with myself. Was in rejection of the Family, Life. I was tormented and thought, for that I was such a punishment and was always looking for a way out. Of course, I was looking out, thinking that there was Happiness, and Rod was for me, as punishment, and now, when it was clear and understood that I carried all this with me along Life, fear of punishment, loss, feelings of shame, guilt, injustice, loneliness from the rejection of the Family. Here is the key to getting out of the false I, that's where the Truth was, to take Rod, to receive my mirrors, to collect into One, I am Consciousness! I found myself in Rod's acceptance! I am this all that displays me! Life is just beginning! Clearing Consciousness, comes to understanding yourself, your weaknesses, or rather Strakhov. Fears that weaken with every revelation, dissolving in the Flow of Understanding and Love!
•  My main problem is that I postpone the action - the moment for later, then it shows up everywhere, so I control myself, building an illusory life, knowing what will happen later, as if I am guarding (the victim), holding it in frames, limiting my Life, resisting reality of the present moment, for fear of punishment - the fear of Death. Death, which was something terrible and terrible, kept me in awe and drove into loneliness, it turns out to play, but at that moment I knew nothing about the game, I was asleep. From this later - fear, everything happens: boredom, irritation, resentment, guilt, shame, sadness, anger ... that breed, abandonment, rejection, injustice, betrayal, humiliation. Now, when I hear Later, I am modifying in the NOW, namely to do from the Now moment, according to the True Self. Now I live Life and even when there are Fears on the Path, I understand that this is the Energy for transformation. Now I am what I am, and I accept myself with Love! With deep veneration Infinitely thank Rod, those who played and play in the manifested world, I thank the unmanifest world and all that is and there is not. Everything that comes and goes, and remains, only now! Now I know that there is a Game and it gives the Force to Wake up!
•  Each game carried the knowledge necessary for the game, information for caring for the body that serves the character in this incarnation. How often we neglect this knowledge. Suddenly, I discovered a "dangerous" disease. This gave impetus to a fundamental change in life, to the realization of how I violated cosmic laws. As I walk out of the way and am in illusion, as the dwarf commands, the ego swells as I fall asleep. I forget my game. The vision of the game expanded. Awareness has increased. At that time, there was a three day retreat, and then Samadhi. On Samadhi, a powerful awakening, awareness of the illusory nature of fears, including death. Awareness of how I create blocks and diseases myself. I decided to quit my job and devote the remaining time in this body to prepare for the transition. Play. Give up. Wake. Accept. Go to your source of Love. Live your experience with love and gratitude. I thank Ram and all the players.
  
  The game for the main Gift of Life - Liberation, continues!