Question: How did your awakening begin?
 I was born in a prosperous, loving family, a family with wealth, but from childhood there was dissatisfaction, a deep sense of loneliness, separation, discontent with myself.
In search of love, my dream of creating a family with a loving, considerate and wise husband, romantically caring, dedicating songs to me, poems was fulfilled.
The family took place, the son was born, in the family a full cup in all respects, everything that dreamed of came true. But the suffering continued, because there was a strong dissolution in the husband, affection for him and inner dissatisfaction overshadowed my existence.

In 2005, I fell for a psychological course to Rama. Since then, I stayed here.
In the society the realization took place, practiced medical practice, family, friends, but there was no inner comfort, harmony. There was a false desire to change this world to my own ideas, the desire to idealize myself and search for perfection, but life prepared me for hard trials ...
At Rama, I went through a self-regulation system for SamGuru, which gave inner balance and harmony. And during the five-year absence of Rama, during his spiritual realization did not stop practicing and was engaged in audio discs, in correspondence with Rama, which provided invaluable support when disappointments, sufferings and doubts came.

Question: When did the theme of enlightenment start to worry?
      The return of Rama after the spiritual realization coincided with the monstrous loss of the dearest to me man - my husband, and then my family, my mother, my brother. It was a deep heartache. A familiar world, to which I was very much attached, suddenly collapsed.
From this moment, an active search for answers to the questions began - why this is happening to me, which is not how I did, blaming myself for all the troubles. But I already had a magic wand-mastered practices and continuing training with Rama: retreats, trips (game trips) that helped me wake up from sleep.
I was able to survive this nightmarish dream, which turned out to be really a dream. Having discovered this awakening process, the total living experience, I gained strength and a completely different perception of life.

Question: How can you describe the process of your awakening and enlightenment?
      The awakening process was not easy and long, but the inner call always led me to open up to any experience, I had full confidence in Teacher, the Way that gave strength in the most difficult periods of life. Yes, the immense gift of fate (Consciousness) is the Guru, who patiently, with love, tirelessly showed me this Way. This manifested reality - Existence, was filled with a variety of colors of travels, retreats, practices - intensive meditations, experience of Service, which as a result of continuous internal work gave ease and joy of non-coherence.
A long, sometimes painful path of transformation continues to this day. The experience of the experience, the memory of who I truly am, gives the moment of disagreement with this character, with this illusion of the dual outer world, an element of the suffering of the nonexistent ego and its false fantasies. The unity of all that is and at the same time no. Everything comes from the Source that I am.

Question: What now?
       A completely different stage has begun: the dissolution of conceptual fears imposed by an illusory mind. The picture of life is folded, the veil is removed from the eyes. It was understood that these tests, which struck my character as a nightmare, turned out to be good. The love I've been looking for has been in me, it's inexhaustible, it's always there, right now. It's all been amazingly magical to change. Now there is inner determination, aspiration to complete surrender. It seemed not to return relatives, not to change people, circumstances, but everything is now unfolding through the prism of a clear, clear understanding of who I am. Immense gratitude to Consciousness, revealing the mystery of Being. There is a forgiveness of self and others, compassion, humility, love. Only your experience gained gives such a deep understanding of Being. And now life continues and continues as a game that I (Consciousness) created myself.
Q. How is life going?
     In the society I continue to work as a doctor, there is a family - a son, a grandson, a father. I appear in the role of a daughter, mother, grandmother, colleague, but already with the level of playful Consciousness, of course, sometimes getting involved in these games, but the heartache recedes when awareness of this dreaming world is being realized. Many moments in life, previously present for the assertion of the importance of the Ego, its ambitions, desires, aspirations, have disappeared by themselves. The ministry rally helps the process of disagreement with the duality of the outside world, with this and other characters, namely with the father through which the Consciousness tests non-involvement in the processes of old age, wilting, sickness and death.
Q. What is really important?
     Life is woven from the manifestations of the present moment, various feelings, emotions, but there is no evaluation of these experiences, in the state of self-awareness, the vision has expanded: What is this life? It is important not to take this life seriously. And now the main task is to continue the Ministry, where there is immense joy to give, share. It is not easy, again for whom? When the Ego lifts its head, but it's like rushing along a serpentine road on sharp corners without slowing down, Self-conscious of its true nature, opening up to this state, that nothing can happen to someone who does not ... The main thing now is reorienting the habit of drowning in thoughts, but to concentrate on internal silence, allowing all of your (Consciousness) manifestations to flow in a natural flow.
Immense gratitude to Consciousness for such a unique rally, but the Game continues ...