The first issue Diaries Distance games spring-summer season.

Tuesday 07 July, 2015

The spring-summer season for the Remote Sensing of the Games is currently nearing completion.

Most of the players have played all the game and master the skills of the current levels of the game, are in free swimming and assimilation of acquired knowledge.

"Theory without practice is dead" - said the great commander, did not lose a single battle, Alexander Suvorov. The issues of the Journal of remote gaming is this challenge and aims consciousness, wanting to show how the theory is embodied by players in practice, in real, everyday life of the sweepstakes.

Players of all levels: the searcher, a hunter, a warrior, a missionary, a shapeless player "Academy Leela", as well as people develop their own, have the ability to Example described drawings, learn to see the game of consciousness, and playing pranks - to gain personal power, in order to once totally "surrender" of consciousness.

 Spiritual awakening - a remembrance. We do not get anyone, not transform, do not change themselves. We just remember who we really are - as we once knew it, but just forgot.

And now, in the drawing of Consciousness watch the game ...

· We walked from north to the bus, I notice nausea in her presence (I have not had these symptoms), and I already know that I have nausea rejection of loneliness, but why her I feel this fear? her actions enliven my fear when we go together, it always goes his own way, will turn in some of place, and I'm left alone, so at the moment I feel the resistance: the idea - in this world, I'm all alone. I tracked down this thought came into contact with this feeling gradually came acceptance and liberation, not an attachment to C. And I am grateful that through it I can go back to its true state. On the other hand, it shows me me because sleeping with characters I do just as well, and it offended me, but lately I've become a little softer for them.

· Arrived relatives whom I had not seen for a long time, I notice their joy, openness to people, greeting them, return them, and this is a sign for me that I missed a state of "loneliness" and the energy flowed.

· Notice that pulls the neck, sore muscles of the cervical and throat unit, where I feel the rejection of injustice, injustice that I did not listen, did not hear (here it seems to me that it just refers to the words of welcome of the past game: When we finds no support others in the truths that we deeply feel, we can either feel the bitterness and isolation, or to rejoice that our vision is strong enough to overcome the basic human need for the approval of the family, colleagues and friends.) Yes, I can not listen to then my existence is meaningless, I let be it pointless, it becomes a little easier in the throat decreases stress, there are forces "go ahead" to act ... Today got to stop it, and live in the present moment, it is understood that you just need to live in the present moment and not worry about what I do not have time to fully relax, because at the moment is now - I'm alone.

· On the morning of the rally began, my mother in the morning was the very loud talking on the phone, then his father began to shout at each other, arguing, I was annoyed, but I try to immediately transfer the attention to yourself and be an observer, not included. Nevertheless, I went and told him to communicate in quieter. They continued in their spirit ... understand that I am here is powerless (they are - a consciousness), you need to accept the reality as it is, I tell myself that this is the reality, and so, too, can be. Now he wants to consciousness? So I took the rough manifestation of reality, they are. I was just about to sit down to practice, I heard through the headphones rude, but do not react, I persuaded the mind, so too can this is normal.

· In the animated and loneliness, I periods run from it, but also the period of the contrary I am in this sense, I admit it, I admit it. Now, after 2 weeks, I emerges the conviction that I should pay attention to this belief and suffering come, because in reality, no one pays attention not. If at first I do not care nothing, but now I notice the suffering. I started telling myself that I should not pay attention to everything at once ustakanilos. Under the side sits a girl with her driver and the director constantly flirts, here they are, and I began to strain today. But this consciousness, which showed me that I am mistaken in their beliefs.

· I had to take the contract for signature, the accountant, I am pleased and interested in this woman, I went up to her light, I say: Give the contract shook-hundred, and she replied, "snarled" that type is not only a contract to sign, it even the paper is ... I felt the injustice, the thought - I do not know what you have to sign it. But once attention has withdrawn its feeling on the transmission of this feeling (the woman is not, this consciousness, which is so evident, I have to miss it) .Vosprinimala it seemed to me a bucket of water poured, but the water glass, and I continued to live.

· With me 2 weeks did not sign the agreement, although I have been working full ... today came chairwoman, I began to fidget in his chair, thought to tell her, but calmed down, let go, relax, come what may, she knows ... and she came to me she with this issue.

I rudely joked with the girl, who is sitting next to me is of something biting or rough breaks in such moments I find it hard to accept yourself, it's hard to forgive myself. It is more difficult perhaps than if I did hurt. I accept myself and too rough, I can be hard, and I love myself too rough. In me there is a hell - being rude, a taunt. It became easier after the adoption of this yourself.

 · I became humbled to see that shows me through the consciousness of this woman - entered the picture - the meaninglessness of existence, I went into it, then all this is perceived as a job from here is to make this another, without evaluation, just to correct, and I cheated with pleasure

· Vision - means that I perceive events are the events, and as a manifestation of consciousness, if there is something unpleasant to me, when I see - it does not bring pain, suffering, as there is an understanding that consciousness has sent such an event, such a lesson that through him I was exalted became wiser, I learned something or understood something.

· In the morning came the realization that everything is game, and the reason was that the existence of the world can be taken into the body without going into protection and thereby develop. The manifestations may be different, but I am not the body, I can watch the suffering and pleasant from the outside and will try not to get involved in them remembering that this is a game, I have all my time to analyze the situation and living those experiences that could not survive once. Thus, life becomes a series of unpredictable events, and removed my responsibility for the selection, in my head I can choose what to do and what not, and in fact it does not affect my life in this body there is joy and lightness.

· Inside formed suffering, I began to disassemble it, remembering that it is a game and the manifestation of the world affected me. I was rejected, I rejected the girl and it pierced to the heart. Here it is, I used to just do not notice, I began to chat with the hope of understanding unconsciously pursuing a secondary benefit in the form of leniency and was refused. Before I closed and went home in my mind and now I can go and live on the move discomfort in the chest and the heart of the attention stand on the body and go to work in such a home. Near the house are feeling, there is heat. Thank you for the knowledge that helped to reach this realization.

· I noticed that when you want my advice I start to attack thoughts / intellect strongly defended its point of view and it does not try to push their feelings and beliefs. He felt that if this is not done, the conversation becomes freer in the body ease - I am not responsible for their beliefs.

· I felt a lump in my throat was formed resistance to him, and thought I was the type of learning is not necessary. To orient in time, I listened to him in silence and finally said ok. To himself noted his even tone, and he just told the truth

· It is possible, but first feel uncomfortable, although wide track but overtaking each other skiers leave little space on my part. I notice the tension and the desire to win a space in your mind there is a reaction to the fact that if I was someone touches I will answer aggression. Where this protection, after a while comes the understanding that I am guided by the general opinion, I do not believe its position that run towards me quite well, so I am not alone run. After that comes the adoption and public opinion in the mind disappears, and each counter-skier is not causing me to aggression, we will again become one, here and there, I give way to them

· To me, these meetings are special, a lot of points with which to play - my resentment in the mirror, my sacrifice in the reflection suppression joy in reflection, imprinting in the maintenance is not their point of view, the division into good and bad, to preach their beliefs, concern for her feeling and so on. In short, I'm worried, keep it all in your head seems unreal. AS comes in joyful mood, and lots of new information, and I can only keep track of their feelings and share emotions, in general the rally passes easily.

· Inside there was the resistance that I operate, but it turns out so that my large trailer and the car just attract those wishing to use it, if I do not like I'm selling the trailer and buy a little, but now I can be happy to share this opportunity.

· I traced at unnatural behavior, I put myself in a minus, but a plus to them when the route was interested in, thus I was hoping for a secondary benefit - their favor to my questions. Seeing this, I changed the inner spirit and calmly asked, how do we get to the volcano, the man just said calmly, we even exchanged a few words and parted, wishing each other good luck. They came out of nowhere and went to nowhere, to help me see my tendencies.

· On the way back I broke through, I began to tell what is generally not talked about their inner feelings, and the less I gave it tried to gloss over the value, the more natural it seemed to this and it is reflected in the interest of S. When we returned to the parking lot I noticed that fatigue was not, that is all what I said came out effortlessly.

· In addition, prior to departure to the retreat of the "Concept and Reality", I started coughing and a runny nose, it all lasted for three weeks, I saw nothing of the drugs, because I realized the futility of such actions, but also to find the cause of "disease" could not. All of these situations cause the body I fear (of death). I see all my pushing for some action, I start to rush in search of solutions and eventually get confused even more. The rule of "being in the right place at the right time," finally came up to me. Retreat was exactly the place where I found the cause of his cough and runny nose, I realized that even hidden behind the pain in his right side: the fear of rejection. The father rejected me as a child, I felt myself unnecessary and not born on the right. To prove the converse was increased physical strength and the weakness of the failure. But the main thing - it is the fear of meaninglessness. All may not be in vain. I'm afraid to die before reaching the goal. The idea that I have to be born again and go through all this suffering again, constantly spinning in my head. Hence the rush around. I reject his family, the child, because They prevent me, inhibit, restrict freedom. The failure and causes a cough and runny nose - symptoms of rejection and failure of my reality as it is. And total - lack of understanding of who I really was. I stop, it is important to take the time to take all that I have in my life. Proceed slowly, step by step. Start with family. She took it all retreat, and the entire flight domoy.Kogda I went into the house, the adoption has already penetrated into the depths of the heart. No cough and cold, like someone just turned off the tap (and in fact I was tormented with the whole retreat!).

· It is necessary to tune into this decision - to be a warrior, dare it go. This helps me and is now a permanent toothache. I tried to drink tablekti and was surprised to find that they do not remove the pain, but only mute it. Everywhere signs. If I want to take away the pain I will have to live it. Day meeting with the doctor and the decision to install a permanent seal is scheduled for Wednesday. So to the environment as you want but you have to stand in its decision

· I listened and saw the reflection of himself. I saw their defiance of reality. I just feel unfree in their homes. Rejects and repels them, this resistance also brings me only pain. I was grateful Consciousness for it through my aunt showed me himself.

· While watching a program, I noticed as I start to make this change for themselves. I do not blame these different character and behavior of the characters! I sat there and try on the masks. So I thought, Oh, it is about playing the role of a doting mom, but it's me, me, too, it is; and the flirting and flirting conceals his real, his dark storonu- and I did (bark), etc. This game fascinated me, while there was a transfer, I could find at all reflected in those mirrors, I had fun.

· Now I know that each step toward fear brings me to understand that I do at home, and in fact I have nothing to fear.

· On this day probably slept ego) I opened and was very surprised by what is happening. I watched a side, with the feelings come and go, with the coming heat of the men's surrender power and the adoption of its weakness. At the same time, I saw the beauty of this weakness and this is entirely possible to accept what is happening, without guilt and resistance

· In general, the day gave me an amazing state, which was permeated with certain inner peace. Consciousness revealed what - let haste, and now I just need at certain moments to think about it.

· He says that I allowed myself to miss, imagine that everything is already happened. I imagine - and almost cried. Not so this is just to take a disturbing thought. But at that moment I knew how to learn to look after themselves at each moment. And now, to get it done. It was great, though not very nice.

· Suddenly she stood at the refrigerator starts to tear all that it hangs: magnets, memo, image with an angel. I notice this and understand that the rally begins. A. - the strongest of my mirror. Anger, which is reflected in it, incredible. Every object thrown on the floor of her anger rising. She grabs the fallen image and begins to tear. Once tore off a piece, there are the first tears. Tears turn into hysterical tears and bites her picture. I watch and notice how stress grows inside me. At some point comes the peak of tension and I want to approach it and vlupit the ass, that there are forces, or put it out the door. Missing sensation through the body releases. I allow her to express anger. It seems to me that this is also a manifestation of my love - let others be who he is, with all its manifestations. A. crying and continues to break the image. I went over and sat down on a small chair next to her. She runs over and starts hitting me, bite, scratch. Slightly pull away. She cries even more. Then open your hands, palms up. Waiting. I began to talk to her. I asked if she wanted to throw the image - pull the pieces into the trash. He grabs it back, no I do not. I ask if she wants to fix them - no I do not want to. She cries harder. I continue to wait and keep their hands open. After a while it falls in my lap. I lift it and give a warm cup of tea. Gradually calm down. An hour later, she returns to lay on the floor pieces of pictures and asked me to help fix it. Merge picture tape. Peace restored, and then the evening is calm. This is new for me - to let her daughter to show their emotions. Now in the evening and during the day I let her in under an hour voshkatsya and play in bed before falling asleep. I myself am humbled that this process will take me an hour. I lay with my eyes closed and thus very little rest.

· Feeling - complete impotence. I do not know how to behave in this situation: to call to Moscow and to swear, write a complaint to abandon this work and to force the client to deal with the return of the transfer through your bank, or leave it as is .. Feels powerlessness felt that I had to give this the system does not go with her butt, do not feed the pride and follow the next instructions to try to go to the ultimate goal, even if it is 20 attempts. Straight groundhog day every morning with the bank.

· I have breaks in the trigger, and I'm starting to say that the most likely problem is the chip will power (or something I do not know) causes this phrase itself into silence. Master already operates - it suffered a cartridge into the workshop to check, that he did it silently, brought me a feeling of rejection and a desire to express their reaction to the breakdown. What this could lead - no good for sure. I voiced the problem of all. Suppose further course of life will bring everything on a flat surface, let it all happen yourself, instead of adding a wave of his reaction. After 5 minutes, the master returned, saying that most likely the chip was broken and they replaced it with a new - free of charge. If does not work, bring it to them again. I was glad that I was able to stop in time. The cartridge then, of course, earned.

· Resentment I try to regain the attention - get love so perverse way. Himself at the same time to be a victim. For a long time I do not go on any contact, to resist, although I understand the stupidity of the situation created by itself.

· I pack up and leave the city. 9.15 In an appointment with a neurologist, 11 to yoga. Having come to the clinic, he drew attention to hours - late. After rising to the second floor, it turned out that the receptionist neurology need to survive all to pick up the results of the diagnosis, and then another to pay for admission. Catch that zaperezhivala - "do not get" immediately calmed down and took both the queue for 5 minutes. For myself, thanked God and went to the doctor. The office is also a gift, a doctor and a nurse sat visitor. Again thanked him and walked

Up to 40 minutes of yoga was enough to drive. Villages in the "gazelki," but there it was! The bus veered off the route, it appears that in our direction all the roads are blocked, go to the last rehearsal for May 9. Again fished excitement - "do not have time." Track got off the bus and went on foot. It got to the junction and laughed. Consciousness has decided to play on -complete. Road blocked the military and on it goes appliances, and is not to be held, "no one will be held!" The people standing, crazy, there is no place to get around. I say, "But we've been to the parade and see all the equipment." The woman agreed and began to shoot the video. Between the columns suddenly a gap and uncle to the general persuasion allowed us to quickly run across that we are happy and fun to do. Briskly reached the center, deliberately not looking at the clock. As will be! Clock showed that late only 5 min. I do not understand how is it possible ?! That is what it means to relax!

· Took to the streets, the rain and the cold goes, I see the bus is at the bus stop, I understand that if you do not sit down for this, late for the reception. Remember the words of Rama, "You can not be late anywhere," however, a slight excitement included. When the bus was up to 50 m. I could not resist and trotted him a light jog. I got on the bus and then he stood still for about 5 minutes, during which time I could not for only reached, but also to crawl. I felt there laughed at me and laughed in response. It turned out that I had not expected and caused another client who came after him. I'm in a serious loss as possible! I've never missed without warning! I'm already doing manicure 1 time in two weeks, and M. tomorrow is going on vacation! Just think, did not get through, it's not the first time, an outrage! In general, the offense broke out, got out my favorite rejection. I go away, offended, and laugh at myself and then I say to myself that I would leave to another manicurist: "Let them all know!" In short Consciousness decided to not just laugh at me, and neighing in full. Nefig hurry to where you do not expect.

· Meditate all the time in different ways. Usually begins with enthusiasm and then parallel flow are everyday-byteyskie thought, then it may be irritated with himself for uletaniya sometimes seize affirmations like old records, comes deceleration, braking, sometimes comes haste, or boredom. In general, the whole range of cyclical conditions in life. At the same time there is an awareness that all these states and feelings and consciousness is a game you can just watch her and take all manifestations!

· She has feelings, letting be "irresponsible", abandonment and loneliness, yes, and so can be ...

· Remember that all the roles played by consciousness, and just at that moment enlivened tendency "to criticize the critics" not to accommodate the feelings of abandonment and loneliness ... comes disidentification and surveillance. And so a few times a day I notice a manifestation of this trend in different angles

· This is even more angry at some eyes I see the parallel that we identify with that anger and resist it does not work, I get up, go to require tea! All this irritated and demanding ... bring tea, apologize, and he did not need, I understand that failed, dwarf won, that's it. And follow the new draw - do not blame themselves for the loss ... and understanding of what it's all there and play! Where there are no losers and losers!

· Where is the line between life and confidence frivolous and irresponsible? I do not want life to help fix these qualities if they show and create a situation that I fear?

· A game all written accurately about me. I feel sad and lonely, I'm looking for external sources of satisfaction in sex, in alcohol, food, building are any plans, and all the same. Reading the game, I somehow gathered focused on the breath and body and around differently began to be felt. I can not express in a letter, but something from my childhood I think so. Can I play the game? And somewhere inside the prompts necessary. Even a little scary. Often a client will come to bat car, think how it all straightened and start doing all goes slowly. Everything is new and strange sounds complicated, you start to walk and not difficult. I still do not quite understand the meaning of the game. As a hunter I have to find this gift and what it looks like? One of the generals said, the most important thing to rush into battle, and there will understand !!! Playing!

· The noise of cars outside the gate and then passing as if telling me ,, you do not need it. So it is thought about, too, as if everything conspired. But nevertheless it, I still watch the breathing and everything calms down. Ten minutes later there was a feeling of weightlessness, as if the body had become light and transparent, but there is no permanent definition, such as the influx, in seconds. Forgot Service start at 20 minutes past thoughts as it will over time and let it be. Somewhere there was a suggestion or voice told ,,, a dive and again as the float up and down. Status light of joy in my chest, I feel the body breathing. The body is as if transparent and easy, but again, not for long.

· The day began not bad, I'm beginning to like this game. In the morning, I am watching the body and breathing. I try to feel good and bad feelings. Yes, it was a feeling of guilt in the morning. My assistant pereobuvatsya tire on the disc. I watched him begin to suggest how to, he is my disciple, half a year working in the tire service. He did not respond and I had a good feeling passed ,, but damn he was a pro, and I'm still learning it, "- I thought. Although he never did as I told him, as did all his own way. I missed it by yourself and feeling relaxed. And yet the mind calms down, he begins to invent a conflict, so much so starts, I start to get nervous. I told him SHUT UP !!! And peace and quiet.

· Watching the breath in the practice, Hunter has revealed important moment of falling asleep, that pleasurable sensations gone consciousness into the illusion, where calm and well, forgetting who I am, and this happens in life. The character was not even aware that a pleasant feeling may well be covered, expecting trouble when we realized that I fall into the trap, release the energy and it's a clear awareness of the moment here and now

 · Watching the breath now Hunter found the place and the feeling in the body in the back, in the thoracic region, where there is vibration stress, pain, throbbing, which for a long time it was impossible to track down. Now I realize that this fear is sitting there, be yourself, fear of freedom. Breathing ... I realize myself ir is Consciousness! Energy goes through the body, accept the present moment!

· This search for the intruder more, the river flowed rudeness. The first half of the day I got where emotions show, where he took his rudeness. But in the second half of the day I am no longer enough. There was a time when it wanted to respond to his vein, but we absolutely can not do it (I can not reckon with the concepts of the manifested reality). As a result - head and warm pains, high blood pressure. And coming home, trying to figure out at what point I lost situation. Operates TV and hear the phrase "my head hurts, my heart - clamped emotion of anger." Thank you, consciousness !!!

· To keep the posture problems added that my dwarf so active! Chatters without stopping. There was a pain in his right side - immediately analysis: what kind of emotions that thought, as I will describe. Stop, my dear, of course you are very intelligent, but after all this meditation, now, let's keep quiet. And then several times. Calm has come only at the end.

· Full day any discussion, debate. I am trying to draw in the next debate. But I just watch what is happening, let it be as it will be all. I agree with what they say, and I ask to prompt, how can I best solve any question on work. All of a sudden remembered that each lot of work, and quickly dispersed.

· The state of meditation came quickly. The body is light, his head empty, flying condition. Good. Suddenly a loud thought "mother" in the sense of not called me, as a reminder of my mother. Throat spasms, thyroid shrunk, and I went cough. Yes, I have the ability to express himself only restored. While a few years ago it was impossible to even imagine today my trust and openness to the world. Cleared his throat, I felt light, which continued after meditation.

· Going down the path toward a man with a fighting dog without a muzzle and on a long leash. His eyes widened in all sank, scary! The first wish - to get away as quickly as possible to the side. STOP. I sighed and went to meet him. Well, it's not a wild wolf, and a host of nearby, more confidence in the world, my dear. 10 meters before me a man with a dog he turned off the path and walked to the side. I was glad that I went into this, though small, but fear.

· Called her daughter to know how they are doing - they are the children left for an overnight fishing trip. All is well. I notice that the oven starts to the right side, my liver for something responded. Ah, there - passing thought, "but I is not invited." STOP. But why they have to drag me along? They have their own family, and give me enough time, and I have my friends, a long time friend of calls to the country.

· With whom do you identify themselves at the beginning of the game? Try to answer the question: Who am I? I am a bit of spirit, consciousness, the universe, I am part of it, the identification with the body, so I'm a man, a woman, a mother, I am immortal and mortal. I have a lot of answers to this question, but there is no such that the expression of a word

· To learn how to hunt, you need to learn to listen to your body, to feel it, to notice all the sensations, even the slightest. I used to live, ignoring most of their feelings. Even in strong pain trying not to pay attention, considering it a weakness, I'm a strong girl! Concepts are not allowed to hear the voice of the body. I am glad that my hunter comes to their path.

· My meditation is now largely not deep, always interrupted his thoughts. That is, just watching the breath or sensations in the body, I occasionally catch myself on the fact that I think the thought is not just gently come and go, and I think it is. Noticing this, again translate the attention on the breath, until it again found himself thinking

· I had to strain, did reach some results, but those results are not kept, do not become my permanent base, left, bringing even greater stress from trying to hold them back.

· I think that once begun, awakening happens by itself, control it or do not need to strain. Perhaps Awakening is full or partial. That is, it can start, but not absolute, may be present even past trends, habits and distortion. It's like waking up on the morning of sleep and woke up when the kind, but are under the remains of a night's sleep and even sometimes want to sleep more, you can even go back to sleep, but then be sure to wake up. And I feel it eto- "falling asleep", "awakening." I is not worried anymore. I feel that there is something in me that always in a state of pleasure.

· I once recalled various incidents from my life that I used to think, "negative", that is, had brought me suffering. But remembering, I felt very clearly that it is something to enjoy and in those moments. It is always in a state of bliss, there is always a part of me that enjoys everything happening. Therefore, the state of "sleep" - is also bliss. Awareness of this makes life very easy and beautiful. And indeed, that is just stradaet- mind. But I do not have a mind.

· Meditation practice after a period of peace are beginning to bear, giving a sense of deep tranquility. Constant meditation gradually change something in people. At first, some peace of mind is felt only after the meditation, but eventually he brings to the daily life and becomes almost constant. Gradually changing some of the excited reaction to calmer. Randomness is replaced by harmony. Gradually leaves haste, the desire to do everything quickly, leaving the desire to argue or prove something

· The reality simply reflects ourselves. If there is some inconvenience in the body, feelings, thoughts, some even easily and invisibly dissatisfaction, something that we do not like, do not want all this says about our distortions. And life from time to time, every day, we are constantly on these points. But if we observe it, is another matter. Distortions come from false beliefs, beliefs, identifications. They make us unhappy, dissatisfied, "heavy", forced to deny reality. At home now, I see the different manifestations of greed, shyness, irritability, pride. If I feel greedy, I became, in some cases just a give and take that is a pity. To give and to make sure that nothing bad will happen if I do. In general, while I do so. It helps, but not immediately. Some trends are gradually really go, but it takes time and permanent observation in order to track them.

Well, the players played the first game!

We note the three players with the highest rate of return in the game traversed game:

1. Volcano - 100

2. The Universe - 89%

3. Joke - 85%


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