Players, watching the play of Consciousness, pursued their game, leaving in the past 3 game. Certainly, everyone plays with his level of consciousness, and the key word here is to play! Some seekers have a great opportunity to observe the examples of players and management skills of the game. The players know, for what they are fighting in Dar sweepstakes.

Love.

In one magical evening you'll meet the elect, the perfect man, who will meet all your expectations and fulfill all your dreams. Correctly? No!

This fantasy, which is so loved by poets and writers to distribute songs, rooted in the memory of the womb, where we were safe where we were "in one piece" with his mother; it is not surprising that we so want to go back there all our lives, but, to put it bluntly, this is a childhood dream.

It's amazing how stubbornly cling to us for it in the face of reality. No one, not your partner or have some fabulous chosen in the future there is no obligation to bring you happiness on a silver platter - no one, even if they had wanted.

True love does not come from trying to solve our problems dependent on others, and as a result of the development of our inner richness and maturity. Then we will have so much love - to give.

And now - about the game draws life.

· Also, I notice that when I went home, too, was suffering, I tried to see the game of consciousness, but the trend has covered the tendency to look for someone. I failed, merged with a sense of loneliness. I believe in the image itself. But I was playing, I remembered that I was not this way, and who am I? I'm allowed to be a reality when I do not have a companion, once relief is coming, but again used to be covered, is apparently Game Consciousness, it wants to be forgotten, too, so ... maybe.

· At first, he walked, talked their taunts like "fun", pestering her with questions, I first began to behave in their old stereotype of pity for him, myself, fear of loneliness, I tried it to explain something to prove, then again come to understand that in this case, it is useless, and I began to answer him because I think without pity, basically the answer was -I do not know, because when I give him the assumption (of the normal motives may fit this option it is brushed aside ). And when the desire to preserve his energy began to respond to him "do not know", without wasting energy in their assumptions, willingness to help ... it is touched, he began to say that I am rubbish his (meaning learned in training something shitty) . I saw that my mind checks, behavior or not those words, I had a reaction to (the thought that I was "stupid" what rough criticism of me). I missed the response body, and the thought of leaving. I accept myself, dear.

· Today was alone at home with my father, my mother went to the market to trade. I have a state of insecurity, while his father (it is very fine there), I realize that I can not defend himself, if we have to sort things out, but never to such a degree was not necessary, but in the imagination has this picture. And if you do not believe in this idea, an image, then I feel as safe as in the warm sun, I live and enjoy carefree ...

· In the evening to meditate in the morning meditation I realized that in fact his father is feeling rejected, and sharply so. I probably masked by all means avoid sharp corners, is safer, but it is their inadequacy, by not being on the "wisdom", he directly animates my feeling. And in the morning practice, I repeat that I can reject, alienate, that is the reality. And I feel the pain in the body, realizing that I was avoiding her.

· My partner asked harshly with me, I take it as an accusation, I start making excuses. Once done, I realize that I perceive a distorted situation, no one is accusing me, this girl such a manner (and maybe she blames, but I do not have to feel guilty for what I did not feel it). Somehow it all smoothed out in the process of cooperation, at the end of the day we communicate on an equal footing. But at the beginning of all of this starts with the need bdit, and prepare for such moments.

· Last week, on Friday, I touched that do not communicate with me colleagues from the office. Over the weekend I took this idea, but may do so, can not communicate, and today in practice has allowed them not to communicate, whenever honestly, not because such a practice, then really no complaints, surrender takes place, and the adoption of people no they are not required.

· In the morning at work found out that my partner fell ill, her sick, vomiting, I had a feeling of guilt, because I play my game, and am led to her tone, he did not hurt when I realized. Again began to accept myself for who wrote it, so I wrote to her how things are going, I decided to call her, but she did not answer, reinforced my belief (was confirmed) that it hurt me if the receiver does not take. But I am at the same time I do not believe these thoughts, and believe and do not believe that I keep these thoughts at a distance and continue to play our game. As it happens, when I arrived, it turned out that there workmate is ill, we had met and discussed the normal things. And confirms that these thoughts are not worth believing!

· Half day to spend time with Ts, today has changed the character of the game - from yesterday's remote has become a friendly and warm, there is an opportunity to show his hole quality - such as kindness, to show its care and detachment. I notice for a trend to switch to the mind and to give advice, that's fine but I want to add more warmth and emotion drowns them out of fear of being misunderstood / rejected to give dialogue a full color.

· The chat comes AG from Germany, writing hello to him, aware of what to expect from him the news and he was silent, I think, to write, and immediately comes the thought of leaving on Saturday with the group and the work of the winter, animated conversation, to take the initiative into their own hands, and when fully voiced dialogue takes AA and thus no expectations our dialogue stretched for a long time. The emotion of joy and satisfaction. Consciousness is not the ego comes up with a scenario that's the beauty of it all is infinitely creative and I like the character I took off the responsibility for the events to take full responsibility for their actions.

· Already approaching to the road at a speed I flew into a mound veiled by snow, snowmobile abruptly stalled and I got a windshield in the face, breaking his nose and lip. Probably for disagreeing with the reality, I thought. Inside, there was a feeling that got what he deserved, the blood is not running and the pain only helped to get back to reality.

· She told how time spent with Jean in the woods, as they talked about their feelings and how she is perceived, I said in response to what was happening to me. It was very easy and joyful, it came from the strong waves of love, and I felt as the body continues to resist this delivery, it is difficult to take lyubov.My reached the city without incident to 10 pm, the day was was not as I had planned, but from this it was a hundred times more interesting and seemed to be a miracle ...

· Sweeps thought - well, yes, but who is to blame - Q. went to the service, did not check the machine I am not ready. On the tricks of the ego succumb to the desire I not, so send those thoughts in the "dustbin". If you get up on the way, no way back. Now life presents its lessons with the same love, but more demanding. I've seen the consequences of irresponsibility and unwillingness to take responsibility for their actions (the case of parking the car when my reaction a day later caused a reaction, only the power of at least 10 times my). It has no right to such errors. At the same time, there is good and bad, have a responsibility. If I am doing something, or do not make, or give the power of negative thinking, you have to be prepared for the fact that this will come some kind of response from life and there's no one and nothing to blame, it is necessary to adopt and play with it . In any event, it is important to learn to see me play any promise I need to learn to be responsible for their actions.

· A tourist who wrote to me - a typical character, capable of its pressure confuse me, and fear of being rejected, I begin to give in and play by its rules. But I can be busy at the height of the season, I can not confirm the tour does not matter, buy the tourists tickets or not, I had to play my game, first check availability at the hotel, if not, provide a replacement or to refuse a receiving application. I'll do the opposite and played as played. What is responsibility? The game may be different. It is important to understand that it is impossible to lose and keep playing. Now the cost of other hotels in 2 times higher than the inherent in the tour price. I did not say this directly to the tourist. To say after the fact and request additional payment - is not my game, it is an attempt to abandon responsibility. Be responsible - is to leave the tourists alone to book another hotel and wait. Maybe by the time of their arrival that something has changed and there will be a place in our hotel can have tourists themselves something will change, and perhaps everything will remain as it is and was responsible for his actions, I myself will pay the difference in residence. Yes, walking in the wake of fears may be costly to all senses of the word, but it's also a game

· The boys leave, with it the feeling that on the road better, at least they do not get stuck. J. We remain in the forest. Experience mild discomfort - I do not like to be tete-a-tete with new people. But I see in this game. What am I afraid? Again, be rejected. How do I live this fear? Start talking, be yourself, be real. Start a conversation, first hesitantly and appear awkward pause in the conversation, then at some point feeling fear as a barrier, I mentally it jumps and begin to speak not out of politeness and right for fear of being rejected, and that worries me - about nature, about people, about myself and my search, how I see the world. Jack, in response also speaks frankly, we have so many common themes. We do not notice how the 1.5 hours. Go back to the guys, it seemed to me that it took only half an hour

· Another event - stood when I saw the fox, it was next to us, and not paying attention to us, hunting for a mouse. It was cool! She zanyrnul into the snow so that its tail sticking out of the snow vertically with its hind legs, and the head and torso half were under snow. He popped it in his mouth while holding the mouse. Hunting is not paying attention to any distractions

· It is very sick, she could not eat or drink. This can be explained by its physical condition - the body was badly damaged, but then I saw the fear - opposition to reality, with the coming of death. For my weakness and nausea also hides some fear. Death? Probably yes. I feel like more and more resigned to life, that happens to me, and now it is a state of weakness helps me in this.

· I cheerfully start, and then just as cheerfully went into defense and offense. Game for themselves yet could not see, but in the end: there is no sense in the word, nothing is more vain than to discuss what you do not know for sure, there is no point in the projections and guesses, we do not choose. Everything is so as it is and as it is, so be it, whether it makes sense to resist the words and try to somehow reassure yourself? no. Trust your inner light, the only thing that can really soothe and restore harmony. Trust is happening without resistance events received. Sometimes it seems so simple, but basically the same, instead of thumps confidence in protection.

· Head immediately wanted to take a moment and go in fear of rejection, but the momentum from the inside allowed to continue the conversation and move beyond this voltage. Then there was a game of "seduction", I must say that it was two days and it seems both got pleasure from the fact that did not follow the ego and its desires, this body has the lightness and the feeling that someone is someone the beat. Relax though it is not necessary)

· But what I feel when I think about the limit of my space, my freedom of action? In the body: the main action - squeeze the jaw (voltage) retracts the stomach, stopping to breathe evenly. I feel like a tiger that has all of the muscles in readiness to spring. The air trapped between the chest and the throat, in the center of the coil turns anger. I'm ready to pounce on her abruptly stop, I want to escape from the cell. What happens when I limit: I can not do what plans my head: to make work all day, just doing nothing and so on. In general, I can not live the way I plan. Such feelings often arise when I'm at home with family and household go behind me and need attention, or when all of a sudden in my quiet morning breaks V. with the message that urgently needs to go somewhere and do something, and I wanted to sit down and work out themselves. When I begin to resist it, the body breaks down, I want to say "RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR" do not touch me, leave me alone. What fear lies behind this resistance? What I do not have time, my business will not do what I can bring myself. And if it so happens that experienced? Feelings of guilt to herself. Example: I need to write a report, I plan to do it in the morning, but a daughter sick and stays at home, respectively, all attention is focused on it, or B. take me to the non-scheduled operation. Sensation - the invasion of personal space, irritation - nothing I can do about it. Guilt arises when we realize that not devote time itself, respectively - do not develop. If you do not develop, then why do I live? So, I see the meaning of life in the development itself. And if there is no development, there is no reason to live?

· Weakness. I came along with nausea, one fine morning. Then I immediately realized that it is useless to fight. It is useless to wonder why she came (poisoned, ill, pregnant, etc.). If it is necessary to come to surrender to her weakness. Disturbing thoughts will not bear fruit. And a couple of conversations about the pregnancy immediately led to a state of anxiety and apathy. Everything is going as it should. I do not accept the family, reject it, resist their feminine nature and continue to use force. Well, since I'm such a stubborn sheep, then the body begins to adjust itself - comes a weakness that will disable all protection. Weakness begins to lead in the right direction.

· Throat. I used to have frequent sore throat, another first winter CI, I felt pain in my throat. Then I saw that the pain associated with guilt. I do not take myself so it is. What can I do something is not perfect, which can make mistakes that can be "bad." Wine - the result of the unwillingness to take responsibility for their actions. I can be different, the main thing to keep playing, and to be responsible for their actions.

· Who has turned several times to express themselves honestly. Once with my daughter - I had a fight on her and felt the anger come out, but he did not carry destruction inside a void that is quickly warmed and filled with warmth.

· I disagree with the whole world through the hurt and went ahead. In response to my resistance and rejection of "bad", "world" has asked me to stop and look into your heart through accidents (fracture of the knee), nagging pain in his side (the omission of the kidneys), "kneeling" in weakness (sore throat with temperature when there is no opportunity to protest, and a feeling of weakness of the body

· Conversation at work. notice the internal resistance and protest, that is so wrong, you have to be tolerant and to meet the people and not nitpick ... immediately understand that this game, the illusion of the ego, the tendency to distrust life .... I want to tell the chief that he is wrong ... that he influenced in two silly women ... Who is he? Who are the fools? Reflections of my tendencies ... That he time of distrust ... Attention to the body ... such a compressed energy vibrates through the body ... breath ... What I can not be away? Nothing!

· It is interesting to watch as "crumbling" plans ... gathered at the dacha (long and hard), to go out, a very strong wind, it is difficult to stand on their feet with every step ... I understand that it makes no sense to go ... the thought of resistance "What about tomatoes?" And understanding that everything happens as happens ... flows and changes and resistance transformed expectation and flow further.

· After consultation notice the thought that suddenly I did not help, and suddenly it becomes worse moment ... Distrust of life. Comes the understanding that at this point there was identification with the workers, and I now present moment. Everything just happens.

· Drawing DR. We invited to the birthday of our friends to six. We arrive at six, nothing is ready, the hosts do not have, they are somewhere on important matters, one guest prepares Lagman and sentences, such as is already time to start, I'm prepared, already hungry and all that. I join and start setting the table, cut salads and snacks. Somewhere in half an hour, the owner appears and begins to clean up, vacuumed and set the table. I periodically drills discontent. Intensified the trend, "contempt of the people," namely, me watching, buhtelkami thoughts, "how can you", "two hours of wasted time", "they are always so" etc ... Sometimes remembered about the game of consciousness, but not for long, sinking again in displeasure, addressed to the owners. When his wife came at eight o'clock, I tell her everything. Plus connected to the drawing inadequate child !!! In general, the rally lasted until morning. I woke up with thoughts-buhtelkami against them. Villages in the meditation and only opened her consciousness !!! At first, gradually saw its reflection and trend. And then I saw the manifestation of discontent resistance. What am I supposed to love everyone and to take it as it is. It's guilt. Then it was revealed! Yes, this is the game and also part of its discontent. It is unity and disidentification. Drawing revealed))) and can be repeated again and again, I'm not anxious, I was just there.

· I note that a lot of joy delivered very simple things, the purchase of seed potatoes, delicious breakfast, sky with clouds, silhouettes of trees outside the window, purring cat, etc.

· Hunter-Amazon has found that directing attention to breathing, is constantly in motion, there is no good and bad feelings, there is a continuous process that brings the reality of yourself -Soznaniya. Consciousness revealing process, ie currently accepts and sees this single process. In carrying out the task, and watching the breath is replaced by exhalation Amazon tracked that falling asleep occurs on exhalation, when the energy goes down, I see how I fall asleep in practice, realize themselves through the breath, when the energy rises. So it is in life. Now easy to watch your breath throughout the day. I realize that in life and in practice, as soon as the direct attention to the breath, is merging with the moment here and now, and there is a dissolution-unification.

· With the apartment that I rent, the tenants moved out (for some reason they do not hold, I rent an apartment only 8 months, but always like that in the short term). I began to ask myself what I caused this situation? I began to recall all the episodes where I show some greed (for example, before I was called and asked other people to hand over a cheaper, but I do not agree, maybe these people would live longer). That is, I have not agreed to the first option proposed by my consciousness, and wanted another. I found the desire to have more money and the rejection of their absence, of course, with the money you can afford more, for example, any trip, I also help my parents. And I realized that I do not totally accept this situation and is concerned about the lack of money. Moreover, it is quiet and not very significant concern as it retracted somewhere deep. I tracked it in the body - is the solar plexus, the tension there. I'm afraid of losing money, why? What will happen? In fact, no. In reality, I did not die. Where is the fear rejection? Their old, familiar inveterate beliefs such that all you need to control. What if I do not Check that nothing happens, everything will be "bad", I will suffer and die. I thought so almost all his life. But I see that this fear is not real. I'm sitting here now typing this text, sitting in his apartment, at the moment I have the money, and this fear is not real, but in reality I feel good and comfortable and did not feel uncomfortable, I (except thoughts). Fear, anxiety only in my mind.

· Carried another rumor that we were again reorganized, and a change in leadership. A month ago, three members of the retirement age, including me, were notified of the reduction, or rather the withdrawal of the state. service. That is going to work well, but just wage for less salary and vacation. Now agitated - if the reorganization, it can actually cut. Look at me, very surprised, why I do not get nervous. And I really quietly accept the situation - cut, it's time to change, everything will be as it will. In the end, I pulled myself this situation - has been constantly thinking that I do not want to work, that the universe is me and heard.

· Meals in the tram. Do not crush, but a lot of people. Behind become a girl plays with two hands in the phone and not to fall based almost falls, then at me, then at a nearby man. Very inconvenient to keep themselves, but the concept of "being good" does not allow to do something. Com appears in the throat, begins to push in the chest, lifted the guilt and anger. But I have to play, I do not sacrifice. Turn around, "the girl, and you do not want to hold ourselves?", That immediately a cry of "closely here! ....." "But not much, get a number, there is what to keep." She immediately falls silent and starts to stick. I felt light and happy. Noted that earlier I expressed my disagreement with someone, what is causing these people fit and for others, I was to blame. Now these people cry terminated on the first word, and may not agree, but take what I said.

· I was standing in line at the box office, a lot of people in a hurry, and one of the cashiers starts flirting with the guard and serve all stops. The dwarf immediately "what it is, you do not have to wait, you're not a victim, was indignant!" - Calm down, dear, it's not my fault that I'm in a hurry, it could have decided the fate of man. Immediately at the exit doors is a guy, something prevents and treats to pass. Again: "Well, what it is! Though there it was indignant! "- To me is ridiculous," the road is not necessary to attack anyone, not to be a victim, do not mean to be a predator. "

· Suddenly announced that ended in landing on the bus, which departs at 8.30. I jumped up from their seats. How, in fact before my bus leaves, how much time is feverishly looking through the eyes of the clock. At 8.18 hours, I ran to the buffet take away the phone and ran to the door to the platform. At the exit we put a tourniquet, which passes on the bar code on the ticket. Not knowing where to put it, I start to get nervous, and I ask the girl to pass and give directions. She is not getting up, slow and calm voice, shows the hand "there", I do not, I tell her that the bus 1 min. departs. She speaks in a monotone voice: "Since our drivers to be late for the bus is not possible, so do not worry," her note to myself calm and understand that its something to me now and not enough. Stepping onto the platform, I found the bus, which had just started planting. She went to the luggage compartment, remove the bag and suddenly realize that he was at the station! Then I was angry at myself and rode back to the turnstile, "How is it possible, twice in a row! As if some force will not let me. " Clearly what! Point guard is so beautiful! Taking a suitcase, skipping back to the bus, where we sat still for about 15 minutes sitting in the bus, he laughed and recalled the words of the girl at the entrance, she was right ...

· Yes, it seems to me showed me. After a short break, another meditation and sleep. For these rubber day consciousness clearly showed me that when fading confidence in the change of mind and confidence to change the time "here and now" comes a character who falls into a state of insecurity, vanity, panic, which only care about one thing: "what will happen ?! ".

· During meditation in 16 hours. Again ache knee and hip. I sat and watched the pain, at some point it was funny, I saw the game "who is who" and I have pain or she did. So the whole meditation and lost in the end after all I did J.

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Volcano - 95%

Joke - 90%

Isis - 90%

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